heartbreaks&roses.

2010-01-01T07:05:00.000-08:00

AMACIAM? hot tak my date? hahahaha. i'm going out with him on monday know. we're gna catch a movie after which we might be going fr sheesha. he's gna treat me(: kenalkan abg alep. he's my cousin la dol~ not matair/scandal/whoever. he's married fr goodness sake! dah ader anak pon. nyehas.

anw, i still dk when our o' level result will be released. scary! thinking abt it gives me shivers. gah. and hazique is sooooo !@#$%&* !! sorry la. but truly, your words seriously aren't needed. and i thought you were much more matured. pffft.

oh lala~ gdbye 2009, hello 2010! today's the entrance to a new journey, its a brand new beginning. and i hope it wouldnt be another catasrophe. hah. such an unfavourable way to end the year ):

WHEN'S THAT MANAGER GNA CALL ME? gahhh~ aku nak kerje! and and and.
i miss oofve-ing with q, irni, iqa, dee, shamini, eyka, shaykh, haikal, syafiq.
& i miss lepak-ing with dany, meen, fuad, ajid, amir, acap ):
rinduuuuuuu ~~

i still miss atok badly. tsk

2009-12-27T21:41:00.000-08:00

was out with tasha & lily on christmas fr tasha's belated bday.
we went sheesha with milo, nas, wak, mok, fir, and fatin? fuh. thanks mok fr treating us(: much appreciated. okay. had tahlil ytd, and my maid's finally gone, YAY! ass off, freak!

prolly gg meet fuad, meen and dany tmr. wah, rindu drg!~~ ):

okay, i'll update a proper one soon enough. i'm pure lazy right now. hehe.

2009-12-24T02:14:00.000-08:00

Innalillah.
Allahyarham Hj Shariff Bin Ahmad telah pulang ke rahmatullah pada 21 dec.
Al-Fatihah khususan.
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haiy. it was seriously unexpected. too sudden in fact. eventho the doctors had warn us before hand, we were still unprepared. he gave us hints, we saw the hints, but it was abit too vague. we weren't able to put it together until then, when he left. only at that point, it all seem to make sense.

the picture of death seems so scary. it IS scary. when i saw him on that bed, stoned, pale&breathless, i dint wana believe that he's gone. i checked his pulse several times, touched his chest, till mama told me to inform the rest. the atmosphere was seriously blue. to see mom that way breaks my heart, but to watch atok leave breaks me even more.

after his body was being bathed, we were able to kiss him goodbye. one by one kissed him. first was his brother, followed by childrens then grandchildren. a big family who loves him dearly and felt a very big loss when he left. altho my tears wanted to roll down, i kept myself strong just so that he's "roh tak berat" when he leaves.

alhamdulillah, when atok dikebumikan, it went smoothly. i only hope atok's safe.
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oh, and it just so happen to be that everytime i wana cry, the only closest resort to hug is ain =.="
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3 nights have passed, and i've been dreaming of him fr the past 2 nights when i slept on his bed. i miss him. i miss his stories. i miss his pantun. i miss him singing fr me. i miss his voice, his smile, his laughter. i miss everything abt him. esp those funny events with him ):

21 december. aprox-ly 2.03am.
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nevertheless, i'm happy he left peacefully.
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we had tahlil fr the first 3 days.

"eh. mak dah tkde, abah dah tkde. hari raye nk berkumpul patne?"-mak lim
"pat kubor."

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wth? haha. i swear it was funny back then. anw. i'm glad i have 3 lovely aunts whose oh so lovely and caring, unlike someone whose comments are atrociously not needed. __

and and. i effingly hate my KL COUSIN, who thinks she's so WOW working as god-knows-what, and purposely comes to spore, having no cash fr the past god-knows-how-many-times, and abah will have to pay EVERYTHING fr her. not only that, EVERYTIME, we make a trip to KL, she'll happily tag along, and abah will have to pay fr her ALL her expenses too. FUCK YOU. you're not an adopted child here. have some heart & think abt all those times when you menyusahkan my parents. you wana come to spore, but you drive & park at jb, AND ASK MY DAD TO FETCH YOU AT LAKIN just cause it's expensive to bring in a malaysia car? nabeh chibai! kau fikir bapak aku ape?! KIMAK. BAYAR STAKAT $20. dah gitu takpe, kau ketok bapak aku habis-habisan, abeh bawak 3 ANAK SEDARE, yg BAPAK AKU pon kene beyarkan drg peih makan minom. argh! nk tdo pat rumah aku, tk bawak sabon tk bawak pape, baju nak pinjam, duit tk convert, nk tdo DALAM BILIK AKU, atas KATIL AKU. eh suar, sbelom aku koyakkan kau peih puki, kau lebih baik hentikan kau peih prangai yg mcm kurang diajar.

"wahh.. mak busu, anak-anak mak busu lucky eh.. ape-ape drg nak, drg dapat.."

still have got the cheecks to say this right infront of us. HAHA. why not just tell me that you envy us? why not just say that you're jealous, and you wana be one of us. well here's your 4.1.1. you CAN'T BE US, and you can NEVER be us. what? you've longed fr a father's love huh? well that's your fucking problem. he's MY FATHER. the only thing i wana say is, get a life bitch. kau peih bobal lebih manje dari kiter bodoh!

oh. you come to spore in a grp of 5, and you ask my parents out. i know the only car that can carry 7 peeps are abg's trajet. SORRY! if you intend to astray us from our parents, then i think you're dumb. my father will definitely think abt HIS ANAK-ANAK first. he owns a van okay. oh wait, no! 3 vans in fact. try to pull us away, i'll bet you can't. he LOVES us so much. we're his children, and you're only his wife elder sister's daughter. see how far you're related? yea, DREAM ON.
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you love to criticise my sister right? well you just wait. on the 40th day of tahlil, i'll be the coldest to you. i'll make sure you cant have my bed or my room. i'll make sure you're forced to convert your cash. i'll make sure abah doesnt fetch or send you to lakin. TAKE THE BUS HERE LA FUCK. TAKE 912. IT STOPS EXACTLY IN FRONT OF MY BLK. c'mon la! spore is a safe country, unlike YOUR hometown. pffft.

and oh, stop trying to speak english with me. cause y'know what? your english sucks and its not even as fluent as mine. __
fuck off bitch. you're not even worth a penny. you're not even worth anyth!
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i've given you signals, and yet you continue your doings. stupid dog. you're like dim-wit who persists on standing next to a hungry, roaring lion.

you're stupid as a dog.
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THE VENOM CLAMORS OF A JEALOUS WOMEN IS DEADLY THAN A MAD DOG'S TOOTH.

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i wanna watch the lovely bones. i wana buy that book! :(
and abah bought a new, cool van!!

2009-12-19T23:06:00.001-08:00

he was warded fr 13 days, and he was discharged ytd. still on tube feeding, and oxygen is still a must therefore uncle bought the machine which must have cost a large amt. hmm. he needs speacial care. ahhhhhh. i hope the roster still goes on, or else my family is sooo gna suffer.
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anw. dee said i was silent fr the past few days. haha. srry!
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okay. lets move on. i had to stay over fr 3 consequent nights. guess what? after the 2nd night, when i gt home, i dint sleep. instead i gt ready to meet eza after which i went to watch AVATAR with my siblings. yesterday, i slept at 8pm and woke up at 11am today. haha! i was soooooooo tired la babe. sorry if i dint reply your text/calls.
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ohh yall!! you must must must watch avatar! Its so freaking awesome! gerek nak mampos okay! go watchhhhhhh!!! haha. okay. i want go restttt~ i'm still tired. haiyyaaa. will do a proper post soon, i think. hehe. peace!
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kay rindu ooofve! jom jumperrrrrrrrrr!!

2009-12-15T09:49:00.000-08:00

HOLA!

sorry fr the lack of update. i've been really busy. i've been going thru and fro to ttsh fr a week. i've seen atok's condition worsen, and i've seen him slowly progress. its atrociously saddening, but yea. i can't do anything. i can only afford to sit and pray in silence.

stayed over fr 2 consequent nights. 2 sleepless nights. wow. imagine that. luckily abg was with me during the 2nd night or else i'd be dreading.

i shan't elaborate more abt atok, nak tahu lebih kan? call aku, aku explain(:

anw. atok sang fr me a song that he only sings ard my family 2 nights ago when me and kakak stayed over. i was too amazed that i frgt abt technology. grr. i should have taken a video! ):

"wish me luck, as i wish you goodbye. once again, we shall meet you and i.."

those nights were memorable. he smiled. he giggled. he laughed. he yawned ; normal things that could make me smile through out those nights. those nights in which i wish that he'll get better. even if he were to leave, i just hope he'll leave peacefully and not in a hurtful manner.

"asal tak balik?! org lain semue dah balik. kan dah malam." -atok

~ i love him dearly.
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anw. i'm sick! hahaha. see! i have one masin mouth indeed. why cant i have what he's having? kan kan kan! atok baek, aku saket. haha. amekk kauu!~ yg sihat jage yg sakit. yg sakit menjadi baik, yg baik pula sakit. fuh! gerek habess~~

okay. i shall stop here. pls ignore my simple blogskin. i'm kinda bored with nice, sophisticated ones. my life's currently dull, so yea. this explains much right? alrighto~ i'm gna rest now, or not.

aku dah update kan? dah. tkmo complain lagi! haha!
i miss my oofve babes so much.

oh and did i mention this before? my holiday was cancelled. my flight? was left just like that. yes, 5 tickets burnt in thin air. haiya. okay BYE.

2009-12-07T05:12:00.000-08:00

atok's in the hospital.

PRAY HE WILL GET WELL, okay? ):

sorry kalau aku tk layan korang kay. tkde moooood.

laen la kan kalau kau rapat nan aku. hehs.

OOOFVE! plan cock up. idk if we're gg fr a holiday. even if we do, what's gna happen to my maid and atok? whose gna take charge? abg's working, and he'll obviously be tired. ask mak ma/mak pa/mak lim to jage? they can't. they don't have a house of their own. uncle ghani? PFFT. yes, he woudnt mind, but his WIFE and BITCHY DAUGHTERS/SON? nabeh chibai, jage pon tknk! pukimak kau ah sial. atok aku jijik per? argh.

okay. atok's still under a&e. still waiting fr a ward. hmms. he'll prolly get one by tmr. oooh' ! i'm worried. atok hates the hospital & doctors. i'm afraid if he CHOOSES not to listen to them. that's so gna be a problem to them ): its utterly saddening to see him that way & its fucking hurtful to see that GUY shouting at my atok just cause what? he doesnt want to let go of his grip. AND YOU? you want me to talk to my atok and yet you're blocking my way. FUCK YOU. luckily the other paramedic was smart enough.

anw. i'm meeting fuad tmr fr a while. i wana go ttsh! ):

and I MISS MY OOOFVE BABES! haha. irni called me today(: shhh! i know my selengerness semakin terserlah. hehe. salah eyka ah ni! hurhur. i miss you all so badlyyyyyy.

and sorry cousins, i'm not coming fr the outing this wednesday. ampun..

okay , BYE!~

2009-12-04T05:00:00.000-08:00

aku syg mereka(:

despite my broken family, i'm glad that i have em in life to make me feel like i'm home. sayang drg!~ anw. babysitted baby ytd at ntuc while kakak, fuad and his mom went to buy groceries. lol. me and dee were playing with plastic bag with baby throughout. deprived childhood ah maybe. haha.

"auntie.. baby nk zoo!"
"huh? zoo? kiter pat ntuc tau."
"alah. baby nak zooooo"
"ah, kay kay kay.. ah! nieh ader badak!" (points to fuad)

eheh. aft all those, me and dee helped kakak cut sausages, fishballs, and chicken. ooohlala~ i love the chicken! its pink in colour. haha. wanted to come over today to taste em, but i was lazy. hur. but hey~! fuad saved me 5 wings and 5 drumsticks fr me(: sweet kan die? hurrr.
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yay! i'm meeting fuad on monday, azmi on tuesday and dee&my cousins on wednesday! woohoo~ i cant wait. (:
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BYE.

2009-12-02T09:25:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAMINI!
hope you had a wonderful sweet 16(:
hee. i ♥ you kay babe! muah muah! and imysm ):
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AZRUL ; get well sooon! hurr. sorry uh. info sampai lambat. i dint know abt your leg. hurr. hope you'll be fine cause i really wanna meet you.. i miss talking to you, i miss your advise, i miss kicking your ass! haha. nah, i miss you to be exact.
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EMMIRUL ; aku sumpah kau bahan kekek. haha! sikit hari pasal paris, skarang pasal happy pills? lol. kkay. meet up soon! and can i pls not plan? i suck at planning. and imy! haha. i miss silat too. but yaa.. i doubt i'm returning back to mz2. unless you get gold, okay? (:
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alrighty! i stayed home today. was suppose to meet an. but he dint text me. nah, that's okay. anw, i'm going fr a jog tmr morning with my brother then to ys to meet meen & dany & fuad & dee. heee(: i'm excited! its been ages since i last ran. i kinda miss my athlete days. oh well, i'm gna start jogging & maybe gym-ing since i have got lotsa free time now. but i still need a job! grrr. tkpe, tkpe. aft the 20th, i'll just see what happens. either i stay jobless, or i'll continue searching for one. haha. what luck.
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oh, i notice that i'm missing alot of people now. haha. not only friends&cousins but teachers too. hurr. takpe takpe. aft the 20th! ; pooling with donkey[saini], meet-up with emmirul, marathon with my ooofve babes, & i'll make sure we have a lit outing. grr. mr row still owe us a cake! >:( hmpfh.
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oh, guess what? i had a good laugh with dee ytd. hehe. tasha would understand what i mean. *kening naik kening naik*
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okay bye! i wana sleep. night earthlings! (:
♥
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2009-11-29T09:28:00.000-08:00

haha. only pure lits will understand. but argh.

i have EUGUS as my father.

aku nak lari ah pi woods ah! bawak SHAYKH. boleh paa? :D

went to yasmeen's house on thursday. played xbox with fuad, dany&meen. hehe. played left 4 dead & halo 3. aku sumpah it was damn stressful. hmpfh! aku asyik mati ): oh, and ya. ard 5, screw came down :D ahaha.

anw. raye haji was *no comments*. and i miss abg sadiq. he came only fr like, 5 mins? pffft.

saturday party at durrszx! best bodoh! haha. dancing, grinding, dance off! haha. me & haikal. HAHA. damn funny. overall, it was a nice & wonderful short night. i suker! (:

and i miss my ooofve babes + shaykh + haikal + fuad & meen & dany so much ):

2009-11-25T08:02:00.000-08:00

MONDAY ;
"jgn la.. dont go out today. abah tk rase sedap hati la.. esok la. kay? your plans today move to tmr. esok can go out." -FATHER
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TUESDAY;
"YOU NAK PI MANER?!"
"huh? keluar la."
"NO! TAKPAYA!"
"huh..? kenaper?"
"ABAH CKP TKMO KAN! BETTER BE BACK BY SIX!"
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and guess what time it was? 2.20(:
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"AH! MARAH LA TUH! YOU DAH KENAPE!!"
"marah la. saper sey yg tkkn marah. smalam abah suroh move the plans to today. abeh skarang abah suroh balek pukol 6. aper nieh abahh..? ape maksod abah? i tak paham tauu motive abah."
"YOU TAK PAHAM ABAHHH??!!! ABAH YANG TAK PAHAM YOU!!!" [half hanging his hand wanting to slap me]
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and there i go, into the toilet, sitting on the jamban. so yea, while doing sooo...
"abg, you pi tanye adeq you maner dier nak pi. buat aper. abah tkleh tahan dgn prangai dier. semakin hari, semakin......................" [couldnt hear him anymore]
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oh wow. he cant stand me? whats his fucking problem? i listen to him & its been years since i've shouted back at him. and i dont go against his words. what else does he want? he wants me to study. he wants me to go to MONASH in KL after o's. and ya, i agreed. even when i told him i want to go to SP. haish.
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msged mom, "mama.. are you free? i need someone to confide in.."
waited for 5 mins, but no reply. wiped my tears & restrained any from rolling even more & went out. instantly took my bag, kept evth that i needed, and SALAM MY DAD.
before heading out ;
"AH, DAH NAK KELUAR LA TUH!"
[silence]
"ASAL YOU NANGIS!!"
[silence]
"YOU NAK NANGIS PON BUAT APER?! HUH! ABAH BUAT GINI PON PASAL ABAH SYG YOU TAHU TAK?!"
[silence]
(salam him..)
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there and then, i was already dialing mom's number. guess what? father was staring at my hp in dislike. wow! its a sin is it? so yea. c losed the door & i ran up to the 12th floor, crying like hell. i swear, i couldnt stand the pain. exactly on the 8th floor, mom picked up. i could tell she was sad to her me like this. its like, the first time i ever chose to let my feelings out. all this while, i have been following their flow. haish.. i told her evth that happened including the fact that my dad stared at my hp.
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"mama... i tak paham abah.. ape abah nak.. i dgr kater abah.. i tk lawan kater abah.. and yet, he still gives me false hope.. ape nieh.. ape motive abah.. mama.. i takleh tahan lagi.."
"dah lah yang.. mama tkleh cakap pape skarang.. mama pon tk tahu ape sebab abah.."
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"why not, you go home, mandi pastu tdo.. tunggu mama balik kay? then we talk.."
"taknak.. i taknak balik.. nieh i balik, nnt bukan abah yg marah.. abg marah i dulu.. i taknakk... eventho i pernah bilang my feelings to him, abg mcm.. tak kisah. mama tahu tak?..."
"tkp. balik then tros tdo kay?"
"i taknakk........ i balik, lagi pedih ma.. i tknk blek.."
"takmo la ckp gitu.. tk syg mama ker? tunggu kay.."
"taknak.."
"la, then nak jumpe patne? pat bawah blk?"
"taknak...."
"kalau tknk bawa blk, then nk patne? pat marsiling mrt, kay? 6.15.. mama tunggu kay?"
"mama................... i taknak balik..."
"maner boleh.. you kalau tk smpai, mama tk balik. mama tunggu sampai you datang. kay?"
"em.. okay.."
"6.15, kay?"
"kay."
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haish. talked to mom for 20 minutes, and what? i still dint want to hang up. i still couldnt stop crying. i still coudnt stand the pain. and my heart still hurt till this very moment ):
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dear father, why are you so harsh? why are you behaving so cold towards me? why do you say you love me in msg, but you've never said that upfront before? why father why? are you embarresed? or do you not mean it at all? is that why its so hard for you to tell me?
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on my birthday, i waited for your msg till i slept. but yea, i understand. you cant possibly wait till 12 right? you must be tired.. so yes, you texted me,
"happy birthday. semoga panjang umur&murah rezeki. stay happy. study hard. abah will pray for you. i will be arriving tonight. i love you"
WOW. I LOVE YOU?! STAY HAPPY?! ha-ha. is that the first or what? did you know, reading that made me smile, but at the same time sad? i teared because of that okay. that msg made me want to make you smile. it made me want to study harder so that you will be proud of me. so yea. i purposely made myself free the whole day just because i wanted to wait for you. but to know LAST MINUTE that you will be arriving at night, i went out with tasha just to get myself a book which i fell in love with as present fr myself. and yet, the day wasnt that fun due to some reasons, right babe? haish. but yea. at 7, i was already rushing back home. i dint want to be late.. aku sanggup cab home from marsiling okay! ): tapi.. tak worth it. sumpah.
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otw to airport, i cried. know why? cause i miss him truck loads. i texted q. pouring all my feelings to her. i was atrociously weak, y'know? back then, abt haizad, abt my dad.. GUYS. what do you expect kan?
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"you dimane? abah dah sampai tau. abah di tiang 9." -to mom.
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"alamak. abah jaoh la. pat saner takde tempat.. ader trolley.." - kakak
"takpe. you just park here." -mom
"hee. kkay takpe. i go call him here :D " -ME
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i was searching high and low fr him. and when i found him, i was sooooooo happy. overjoyed actually. i ran towards him, hoping that i could hug him. but guess what he said instead?
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"ASAL KAKAK PARK SANER?!"
"ah.. pasal ader trolley."
[walking towards kakak's car..]
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"ABAH!" -kakak
"hello! how are you?"abah
"i'm fine.. abah! you know what?! that time kan...."
and there they go , talking happily ever after.
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dear father, why is it that you can talk happily with kakak.. but when its me, you will always shout & talk to me at a very high tone? why? why is it that you are very soft to her and very firm and harsh towards me? ): is it because she's what you want, and i'm not yet up to your standard? do i have to be an exact c lone of kakak for you to treat equaivalantly? why is it that you say you love us the same but the way you show it is as tho you pilih kasih? why are you so evil? why? father, i love you. i really do. i'm not saying it just because. i really mean it. eventho you are like this towards me, i continue to try to make you happy. nevertheless, the outcome is still the same. no worries! i dint give up. knowing tht maybe one day, just maybe, i will finally be what you want. i hope.. ):
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dear father, i told mom that i gave up. mom looked so sad to see and hear me that way. but in return, mom was warm enough. she motivated me. she told me to look forward and not backwards. mom said, no more foresee. cause we wouldnt know how much you will chg in a day, right? eventho mom's words are right, but you will always be you. you will chg, but for the moment. it wouldnt be long.
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dear father, i dont hate you. i just hate the way you treat me. however so, i believe that time would heal it all.
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dian said i'm a good daughter. simple words made me cry. why? cause it hurts. that other people could see that, and yet in his eyes, i'm a disgrace. others could see that i'm trying real hard. but to him? i'm ignoring it. haish.
THANKS DEE, FOR BEING THERE. syg kau(:
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so yes. i'm still broken, but i try hard to portray a happy me. sorry zach if i havent been texting you. sorry haikal, cause i'm ignoring you even more when i'm online. sorry everyone. i just dont feel like it.
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i only texted like what, fuad&dee only these days.
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i miss 4e1 ):
i miss the ooofve girls ):
i miss shaykh ):
i miss haikal ):
i miss syafiq )
i miss eza ):
i miss schoool ):
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i want to go back to the past. i want to let the good times roll.. but, yea.. that's just bullshit kan? how can we ever do that unless we built a time machine?
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"mama.. what kind of a 16 yr old looks forward to death?"

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i'm sooooooooo saddddd right now. seriously speaking. i'm not in the mood for anyth. i dint meet auntie & uncle & daddie today just cause i was so weak. anw, i could tell i'm not allowed out. to hell with that! i'm gg out tmr wthr you like it or not. so what if i cant come home late? i'll go out early then! see! even they are willing to do it cause they know that you're being like this. and what? they want to meet just because they miss me. but you, PFFT. to hear you say i miss you, to receive a sincere hug, to even receive anyth sweet, HAHA. sampai aku mati pon tk akan la!
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no, maybe i will. on the day that i die.
"one will learn to treasure when its gone"
must you wait till that happens? must you wait till then to realise all of these? if that's what it takes, then you wait. one day, when that happens, pls. dont regret. eventho i know that its inevitable, i just hope he knows that i loved him all along.
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i should stop. its making me cry even more. )':
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thanks y'all. for caring. thanks friends for trying to cheer me up(:
syg korangszx!
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2009-11-23T03:06:00.000-08:00

SORRY FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES.

my entry's gna be long & wordy. dont read unless you're a fat ass kaypoh who wants to know what's happening in my life aye(:

so here goes; havent been out since prom. wow right? i know. i was thinking that this will make it easier for me to go out today. well, i was wrong. yea. totally. the plan was to ton, but thanks to my oh so lovely father, he told me not to go fr it today morning. hell yeah i was damn fucking pissed with him. throwed tentrums like hell, i swear. ton takley, nk jumpe dian takley. nk keluar skejap pon takley. I CANT EVEN STEP OUT OF THIS HELL. and what?! the reason he gave me was,"oh i have a bad feeling of you gg out today." wth? that's not even a solid reason! okay then.

i dont want to follow my family out.
i dont want to do what you ALL want me to do.
i dont want to talk to you.
i dont want to go on a holiday with you.
i dont want to stay home.

wana know why? CAUSE I HAVE A BAD FEELING ABT IT.
HA-HA. amaciam?! alright paaa?!
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dear father, why are you & the rest treating me this way? why are you always pushing me aside and yet people say i'm pampered? why do all of you have to focus on the negative side of me? why are all my effort not even seen? why do i have to paste a smile on face everytime? why dont you try to listen to me? why isnt anyth i say matters? why do i care so much of what you think, when you dont even care abt mine? why am i the only one whose got to fit into your picture? why am i only happy for the moment and not most of the time? why are other families small but wonderful when mine is big and broken? why are they happy&easy when money is a problem to them, while here i am living a catasrophic life when money isnt much of a problem? even then they can get what they want. and me? pffft! habok jer ader! argh. why why why? why am i the one having to face all of this?
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i'm atrociously broken, and guess what? you dont even know that i'm in this state.
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and, why do you always pretend infront of others that you freaking care abt me? why do you say words when you dont even mean any of em? why must you be the one setting my life? why cant i lead em and you support me? why cant i do anyth that i like? why is it that what i like is what u detest? why are you pinning so much hopes on me and i have to achieve em? pfft. you set high hopes when what? the littlest that i expect from you is never received. i swear, i'm trying real hard to be strong & pretend to be alright infront of you when deep down, i'm tearing up myself. how nice.. none of this is what you see. what you see is always the opposite.
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"study hard, play hard"
HA-HA. so much for 'play hard'. i went out two days straight aft o's and you're alrd complaining that i'm gg out so often and i'm coming home late. WOW. 1030 is late? and why do you even care? i've not been asking money from you since raye. wait! i did, and what'd you say? "you asyik mintak duit jer! pakai your duit la. you got duit raye kan." :) then when all my money is gone only on my ezlink & food fr me to survive, you shout at me saying,"asal boleh habis?! abah da kasih duit pon boleh habis?!!" THANKS EH. i know you love me too much and that's the reason why say it kan? thats like the sweetest way for you to express it kan?
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a few days before prom, i asked for cash from you. and what? you said tkde duet so fluently. WOW. then when i wanted to sell my hp, your beloved daughter ungkit balik cerite.
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"takley jual beh abah harap i dapat duet dari maner?! tunggu duet jatoh dari langit?!"
"e'eh.. mcm tuh pulak..you yg tak mintak abah.."
"AH IYER LA TUH TK MINTAK. dgr dgr biler i mintak abah kasih per? asal kan i mintak siket jer, abah kate i asyik mintak duet la, abah tkde duet la."
"ah, cube mintak abah lagi la laen kali.."
"ah pape la!"
-i hung up-
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dear father, can you please please please stop giving me false hopes? it really hurts me everytime that happens. can you please stop making empty promises? PLEASE LA! I'M BEGGING.. i'm losing grip more and more each day. father, why are you so empty? why? why is everything nothing to you when it comes to me? how come i never seem to satisfy you? why is it that its never up to your standard? y'know what? i stopped myself from shouting at you back, and this is what i always get in return. in the past, when i shout back you, mother will cry & receiving scoldings from you is almost inevitable. but hey! at least you guys will listen to me. however to see you cry is too heartwrecking. precisely why i restrain myself from shouting at you. but look at me now. the nicer i am, the more you step on me. i can simply choose to chg again okay.
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the fact that i cant stand the feeling when i disappoint you hurts me even more.
wow! if i can x ray my heart, i think my heart will be full of scatches. alright lets drop it. tears are gona continue to fall if i keep this going. haish.
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i love my dad. i love my mom. i love my family ):
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WHAT'S HERE ENDS HERE.
DON'T ASK ME ANYTHING.
AND HEY. I'M NOT THE TOPIC OF EVERY MAGAZINE.
SO FUCK, KEEP ME OUT OF YOUR MOUTH. THANKS.

2009-11-16T08:34:00.000-08:00

HALO EVERYBODY!
maaf yer korang. aku malas nak update laa nowadays. peace eh peace eh! (:

maklumlah, aku kan busy. busy lepak ahh abeh! hehe.

ehhh! prom is in a days time, and guess what?! i'm falling sick. mcm gerek gitu aku peih body system. ish. binget y'know people!

ohh. met tasha today to get my dress & shop for accessaries. gna continue it today with q. FUH. sumpah it's tiring but hey! worth the time & money(:

guess what? i think i'm gna blow my top soon. BABE. IF YOU'RE JEALOUS, THATS YOUR PROBLEM. THERE'S NO NEED TO PUBLICISE YOUR HATRED. thanks ehhh! envious right? ahh deyyy! jalan daaa! time lambat mau prangai nieh mcm. suar!

btw, congrats dee&yazid(:
at least krg matching. zaman skarang, laki terkejar2kan pompan yg either enlarged mcm mak budak peih badan, ataupon muker case perlu renovation nyer, huahua! syg korangszx!
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eza; cepat jumper dohhh! byk mo criter samer kau. haha.
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~ i cant wait for prom! ahhhhhhhh! ABG. FETCH ME PLS. PLS. PLS.
heh. izmil asked me to be his prom date. nyeha. that fucker. i miss the old him bodoh! ):
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KAY DA CUKUP NIAT NAK UPDATE(:
chalobeteh! slamat eh you all. bagi ANDA yg sungguh cemburu dgn aku, get a fucking life! sumpah aku peih darah boleh up pasal kau. arghhhh. kay bye :)

2009-11-02T02:45:00.000-08:00

JUSTIN BIEBER IS HOT. HAHAHAHA.
and ohhh. i want a cocasion boyfieeeeee ):

okay. 2 more papers down! no more ss, no more chem. fuh! paper was okay i guess. i hope i did well. i really hope so. anw. haikal is keeping his silence. no idea why, wait. i think i do. i THINK. but its okay la. i've texted him and he dint reply. suppose he's just badly occupied. hmm.

anyhoos! i just cant wait fr this phase to be over. ahhhh. i cant wait to colour my hair!

i'll update a proper one when i'm not lazy. hoho. have to chiong fr phy&geo. argh. my two suckish subjects. tsk!

2009-10-28T05:30:00.000-07:00

graduation ceremonyyyyy!

aww. the pictures makes me sadddd.):

i'm gna miss all of them badlyyyy.

4 years of f/s. heee. just like family.

ooofve family! hahaha.
with eyka sotong! hehe.
LITERATURE STUDENTS! <3

daddie! & yazid.
yazid! haha.
amir! imy. but fuck! you're behaving so suckishly ):
my sec one and two class(:
MY HUSBAND/BOYFRIEND! :D
blackisblackkk(:

*kening naek kening naek*

mcm sajak jer krg duer. hahahaha.
DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

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alright, finally i get hold of this laptop. argh. i seriously hope i'll pass my o's. pls pls pls. hehe. talked to abg mimi ytd(: he advised me a lottttttt. ahaha. i dint know you cared so muchhh. lol. alright. i cant wait to go out with him, kak wati, daddie, and the guysss. haha. i tot nak buat ramai2, tapi tknk ah. abg kalau suroh budak2 dier turon, mati! hahaha. ribot siol nnt.

anw. 2 papers down. hah. i just cant wait fr all these to end.

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haish. i seriously cant stand my family! fuck la. cant you freaking understand me? suker nah korang kasih pressure. wtf? you think its easy isit? you think its fun eh to struggle?! what the hey?! stoppp comparing me with your friends, or my friends or even anyone else! its really making me pissed off. what? 16 yrs of comparism, of pressures, of all those painful acts and behaviours and sharp words that you spray to me like vomits. if this goes on, i can actually lose grip and hell i'll be happy then! i'm sure you guys will too kan?

when i'm rebellious, you guys CRY like drama, wanting me to chg. when i've chged, you guys step on me like rubbish, like as tho i'm nth. WOW! IS THIS WHAT YOU CALL CARE AND CONCERN? OR EVEN FAMILY, FOR A START. ha-ha. ape? your money is what you guys care abt right? whoa! let me make this clear. duit tak boleh bawak mati la oie! argh! i feel like screaming. i feel like i wana hit smth. what the hell laaaaaa.

you guys just wait. after o's, i'm gna do smth to myself. diff hair colour, opening my piercings back, and start to be away from family fr the moment. fuck i need fresh air rather than polluted ones which is forever here in this freaking house.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! aku binget.

~ i know i'm gna regret saying this. but this is just how i feel. i cant stand bottling up my feelings and pretending that life is happy fr me. drama is over. reality is up.

ohh yaaa. i almost gt hit twice today. fuh! if only i hadnt taken back my steps. life would have been wonderful.

2009-10-18T11:58:00.000-07:00

TADAAA!! pictures that were due a long time ago, cheh bedek! DEEE~
oops. you're the reason why i stopped & the reason why i stared it back, jerk.
*looks down* eheh. my two bitches! syg koranggggszx!

cheh fierce per! haha.
aku study tauuu. nieh ah dee. tsk! disctractions.

i think i have scary legs. haha.
i thought i've rotated this pic? ish.

anw. iqa!! i've just read your blog. hehe. thanks bby! and what the heyy. you love my slengerness? haha. alrighty. i'll keep it going okay. its just too inevitble and it cant be avoided babe. no worries kay. it'll never stop till miracle strikes. (:

anw. i stayed home today. i'm a goodgirl okay. hoho.

kay its 3.30 right nw. i should prolly sleep. i'm meeting up with iqa & brian today to study. o level's in less than a week. fuck, why is my panic button still not functioning? please work soon. ): there's too much running in my mind to even allow me to focus on my work okay. tsk! its soooo frustating

andd andd !

i miss irni! i miss eyka!

dah lame tk jumpe ini duer badot. iqa, dee, shamini & q? hmm. rindu jugak. tapi that time baru jumpe. hahaha.

i miss muhammad shaykh akbar bin noor mohamed the most! ):

my husband cannot-be/boyfriend. aku rindu kau! hug takmo luper okayyy. hahahah.

okay, i'm going off now. chao!

2009-10-17T08:18:00.000-07:00

oh i so have alot to say on my blog right now, but i seriously cant be bothered to post. haha.

alright firstly, thanks to all who remembered my bday. sayang korang okay! hee. and my birthday was spent with hopelessness. i swear i had a lot of 'moment of weakness'. gah! i seriously want myself back. whats happening to me? argh.

secondly, i'd like to say thankyou to eza & q fr the surprise although it was expected. haha. i love you girls oh so much okay. heee.

thirdly, i miss the oofve girls.):

fourthly, to tashah; i'm happy that i see changes in you. continue to try and dont ever give up. life is never easy. and heyy. your welcome(:
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went out with eza fr two days straight. haha. i admit, i miss spending time with this missy ping pong. went shopping ytd & we teman-ed haikal today. haikal seemed a lil strayed cause he seemed to be in a diff world. hoho. well. overall, i had fun during these two days. with both haikal & eza(:

pictures shall be uploaded whenever i'm free okay. i'm just pure lazy right now. haha. NGANTOK OIE !

kay chao!

2009-10-13T02:05:00.000-07:00

BABYGIRLS! READ THIS :( siol ah. aku bersalah per? aku tknk kecoh pon salah per? kimekk. bukan aku siol yg cariq dier peih jantan! jantan dier seyyy yg text aku! puki laaa! nabei chibai siol! kalau die tk melayan, tk akan menjadi laaa sia! dgr2 aku kss perrr! ahhhhhhhh!

KAU PI JAGE PANTAT LAKI KAU, DARIPADE KAU JAGE POMPAN LUAR MCM AKU PEIH LAAA!

AND UNTOK SI KELEMPIK TUH, FAVOUR EHHH. STOP HIDING IN THE DARK. BE TRUE TO YOURSELF LAAA FUCK. LAMA LAMA, BOCOR JUGAQ LA WHYE! KAU PIKIR APE?! EH BILA BILA MAU STEADY JOY! JGN NAK STEP GOOD GOOD AH PRANGAI.

NIEH AH JANTAN, TAK CUKUP SATU. BTOL PAA?
~amaciam?! are you girls with me??

2009-10-11T03:36:00.000-07:00

INI KHAS BUAT JANTAN-JANTAN KELEMPIK YG TELAH MENYAKITKAN HATI KAMI! buto sama korangggg!! :(

alright, i've relinked and i'll make it open to all slowly. i'm only gna inform some of my peeps cause i think my blog will start to sound personal. anyhoos. my heart is seriously hurt. as you guys can see, i aint handling this matter well. shocking right that i dint talk back to her? i know. i just dont want to spoil their oh-so-perfect rs. good luck to them anw(: semoga korang happy selalu la eyh!

so anyhoos. my birthday's in two days&i'm kinda not looking forward to it. abah's coming back spore on that day, and i suppose thats the only thing that excites me. gosh, i miss him like hell okayyy :( and yeaaa. i have no plans fr my bday. hoho. like what the heyyy kannn. but takpe. i'll just rot at home.
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kay you've seriously drowned me and i'm lost again. freak, if you hadnt lied, this wouldnt happen. if you hadnt try to cover your lies, i would have been over you. if you hadnt given me HOPES, i wouldnt even bother abt you. thanks eh! thanks fr all those bullshits you gave. its much appreciated. i dint expect it to come from you. i dint know that guys at your age will still be so childish, so immature. i expected you to be evth that you werent. i guess i was wrong. i pinned my hopes too high. extremely high, i suppose. yea. guys will always be the same. i still believe in karma. i wont do it back to guys, cause y'know why? that just simply means i'm the same as you. haha. and yea. sedangkan Tuhan boleh maafkan segala dosa yg hambanya telah lakukan, kenape kiter; hamba-hambaNya tidak boleh memaafkan saudara-maranya? CHEH. speaking siol aku. hahaha. dah laa. TO HELL WITH ALL THESE.

anw. my apologies to all if i sound different. i'm trying my best here to be normal.(:
syg korang okay! harap dimaafkan yerrrr. muah muah!

kay chao!

2009-10-09T08:24:00.000-07:00

DEE . AKU SAYANG KAU ! :(

THAT CONVO THAT BROKE MY HEART, I SWEAR.
9/10/2009 10:20:45 PM ' miimii - El Nino you !
9/10/2009 10:21:03 PM El Nino ' miimii - ?
9/10/2009 10:21:30 PM ' miimii - El Nino hello.
9/10/2009 10:21:44 PM El Nino ' miimii - hello
9/10/2009 10:21:55 PM ' miimii - El Nino jap. nieh saper?
9/10/2009 10:22:05 PM El Nino ' miimii - kau nak tau nie sape ? nie matae die .
9/10/2009 10:22:34 PM El Nino ' miimii - ape kau nak ckp ?
9/10/2009 10:24:59 PM El Nino ' miimii - asl kau offline ?
9/10/2009 10:25:07 PM El Nino ' miimii - aku dah ckp ngan kau ape ?
9/10/2009 10:25:12 PM El Nino ' miimii - jgn contact matae aku lagy kan !
9/10/2009 10:25:22 PM El Nino ' miimii - kau tk faham pe . kau nak aku bbl mcm mane lagy sia ?
9/10/2009 10:25:52 PM El Nino ' miimii - jady pmpn tlg jgn jady pmpn yg tktau malu yg nk contact matae org !
9/10/2009 10:25:56 PM El Nino ' miimii - tk cukup laki kat luar pe kauuuu !

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no, i'm not handling this well.
those who knows my url - irni, dee, eza, q, iqa, eyka.

2009-10-09T07:26:00.000-07:00

last day of sch ;
iqa syg, me, shaykh boyfriend!
iqa, eileen, me. pls ensure that this wont be last i smile ever so widely fr i swear my heart is badly torn right now ):
Pure literature~ mr row, the bestest teacher ever(:
ini khas dari kami , kepada semua yang telah menyakitkan hati kami ! :(
my syg&my tall tall boyfriend. hahahaha.

alritee. today's last day of sch before study leave. i'm left with 2 weeks of revison which equates to intensive study. wow. not long after, my i think i'll involve into king kong, right eza? haha. alright baby, i swear my heart just crashed into a million pieces. i swear i'm back to square one. i swear i'm struggling again. i swear i need my ooofve gfs+eza. i swear i feel like crashing down. i swear, i feel like taking it. ahhh! i give up. i seriously do. lets just allow time to fix me back again. i'm not sure how long it may or will take. but i just hope that my friends wont bail on me. haish.

eza, q, iqa, dee, irni ; i need you girls badly right nowwww :(

yea. i'll just wait till when this game will pursue. i'm not part of it anymore. i'm just gna sit&watch. i'll be the observer. from play, to game over, to restart, and to end game. i aint clicking on restart once more, but i'm just gna leave it to play. i'm tired of it. pls, help me clear things off. thankyou. i expected you to be diff. but wow, i ended up in square one AGAIN. whatever you mentioned, is making me confuse la sia! not only that, you're making it hard fr me. somehow in someway, i'm still holding on and i aint letting go. i may be weak, but pls dont make that as a disadvantage to yourself.

"aren't you tired of waiting?"
"possibly, but i have to keep trying."
"why?"
"because if i dont remain open, i will simply fade away."

-from paulo coelho, like flowing rivers. chapter remaining open to love.

thanks iqa fr the book. ily.

2009-10-03T02:40:00.000-07:00

i suspect i'm gna relink soon. hha. i dont want a fucktard to come and read abt my life. or waitttt. maybe i wont! haha. cause yea. why should i care kan? hmm.

2009-10-03T01:12:00.000-07:00

so alright, i managed to survive yesterday girls hari raya outing with my bad stomach & headache. hha. but i swear its worth it cause its the best raya ever(: 12 girls in total. first time experience of going jalan raya and eating only one kuih from each house just cause my stomach will start to hurt. either that or i'll just have a drink. i only ate a meal at dee, iqa, eyka & shafeeqah's crib. tu pon sikit gler! hha. and yea irni, my drink power kannn?! turns everyone into vampires. kecoh ah korang!
ohh, the incident at durrah's lift was atrociously traumatising. fuh! i'm so not gna do that ever again. no more full lifts. idc. and the incident at shafeeqah's blk was humiliating. we were shouting like mad monsters because of the cockroaches and guess what? my ex and the his friends whom i think knew me, were there to watch that free show. embarressing or what?! haha. but what to do i care? janji aku happy. (:

what's more happening is that we managed to ask fr forgiveness. i almost gt emotional, but nooooo. its sad in a way that those things happened and apart from that its the last week together before study break and only a few more weeks before o's afterwhich we will all be freebirds and will be busy with our own life. hurrrr. but its okay, i'll still love you girls as much. even more perhaps(:

TADAAA!! hhaha.

*looks down* i lost weight because i was sick & i dint eat much these days, but according to the pic below, my cheeks look normal[tembam]. haha. weirddd. but i swear i lost weight. i had to pin my baju which used to fall nicely on me. hmpfhhh .

lawar la tuh. hahah.
PENTING AKU ROCKKK! ahahaha.

yupp. i changed. haha. i was tired walking in my 'hard to walk dress'. i can tahan heels, but not baju.

*there are more pictures, but its not yet with me, hha.*

abah's away to jakarta! ):

i'm gna miss him like truckloads.

he'll only be back on 13 october.

2009-10-01T05:13:00.000-07:00

aku nak wedding nieh mcm ! alright paa ? ahhahaha . aku suker sey !

2009-10-01T00:51:00.000-07:00

kay , i miss himmmmmm ! like alot . it has been weeks since i've last talked to him . msg pon , tk constant . sad or what ? hah . takpe takpe . dier nga busy la kannn .

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anw , aku binget gler ngan die . meluat habes oie ! pfft . BAIK PA ? aku daaa kater per kau kalau nak sweet talk ngn aku, tk jalan joy !! aku daaa kater tkmo cube pasaal aku peih hati pat org lain , yg kau masih kepale batu pehal ? salah aku pe sio ? and wow , aku perlu per nk report pat kau aku pi maner nieh sumer ? kimekkk . aku ader life siol ! kau saper nk sebok2 ?! bapak aku ?!! kau pi jage kubor kau sbelom nak jage aku peih kubor . alright paa ?! and oh . kau daaa bilang aku hal hal mepek nieh , beh kater kau tk cakap ? kire aper ? aku per buat crite ? siol jer ! aku tkde time sey nak cariq hal ! i may be turning 16 , but that doesnt mean prangai aku small kid , MCM KAU ! kate jer 20 , tapi prangai kunik ! suke hati kau ah kay . nk buat aku look bad ke ape ker , itu kau peih pasal . jgn nk jage tepi kain aku sua eyh ! jalan sua . ku siket pon tak heran .

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so yea . was sick ytd . vomitted twice ? hha . once at home and another in school . gerek perr o.O vice principal and the clarks said i look pale . hahaha . VP wanted me to rest at home . "go home , have a rest , wake up and study" wow ! advise paling syiok skali =.="
anyhoos . Abah fetched me frm sch(: slept in the car like an oink oink . haha , reached home , and slept all the way . i could feel my temperature rising . sucks , i know . i hate it when i have fever . haiyoooo . sorry yo peeps if i dint ans your msges/call or i replied atrociously late . i was resting la .

going out tmr with babes ! haha . nmpak nyer aku tk jadi absent ah tmr . dah absent smalam ngn nari laa kan . mesti mau limit limit .. haha . so yeaa . might be going jurong on saturday with daddy ! haha . cant waitttt . kay bye ! slamat korang ! :)

what's here will be left here .

kau daa bace , kau tutop longkang mulot kau .

kay best . JALAN SUA !

2009-09-28T05:29:00.000-07:00

the pictures are from below to top , hha . the top one is the latest one , the bottom most is the later one .
anw , first kopek kan , let me introduce you to my biggest fan ever ! *looks down* tk paham kan ? diam diam sua . only certain peeps will understand okay (:

our successful chocolate fountain . nice kannnn ?! hahaha .
salihin(: mommy's son . i miss this boi ! hahah .
this is chris . i swear he's naughty ! he made me run in the NTUC just because he wanted me to chase him . i had to piggyback him to prevent him from running away . haha . cute boy .. i miss him&his brother sio . they grew fond of me only in less than an hour ? wow . the way they behaved towards me seemed like it has been what ? a year since they've known me ? cool right . haha .

looks down* this is mat . he listens to me & that's wow . haha .

"hold tashah's hand will you mat ? "

"nooo . i dont want to hold her hand ... [insert pathetic face]"

"uhh , why ?"

"i wanna hold yourrr hand .. [insert puppy face]"

tashah ! (:

hha. mat's cheeky smile .

meet syawal ! hahaha . anak sedare aku . chubby sio !

ini amira . my adik sedare .

see ! AKU DAAAA CHUBBY ! WTH ?

ini mama saya(: aku syg dier sgtsgt .
hehe . dah mcm kawan kan ?
&this is mama's kebaye i'm using , hahahah .
my one and only abanggggggggg .

okay . tashah slept over on saturday & yea . we had some heart to heart talk . and what they heyyy laaa . my area's not safe anymore . haha . sini sana sudah kenal . and guess what ? i dont like it . the greatest part ever is that i'm well known as "pompan jual mahal , yg sombong sombong tuh.." wowwww . aku sombong ? a'ah . sombong ah abeh ? hahaha .

so yea . it ended and started because of you . terase eyh ? kau peih pasal .

and yea . i've not been studying at home lately . have been going out to jalan raya with family .

update later ! cousins are here . hahahahha :D

I MISS AISYAH !

2009-09-24T07:48:00.001-07:00

i miss you so so much , thats all .

i want things to be back to normal ):

i feel so down. i feel so sad. i feel so lost.

i miss nenek :( i wantttt my nenekkkk . hurrrrr . i'm seriously in need of his jokesssss .

2009-09-19T11:35:00.000-07:00

May the stars carry your sadness away ,
May the flowers fill your heart with beauty ,
May hope forever wipe away your tears ,
And , above all , may silence make you strong .

to dee ; aku sayang kau sgtsgt ! & i dont want you to be hurt again .

so anyway , q said this to me earlier on when we were chatting abt some stuffs .

"u have been a bad gal all dis while . if u didnt notice it lah . so if he can change u , i salute it to him uh"

hahahah . Q , kau mmg tk baek . are you tryna say i'm a bad girl ??!! hahah . to the max ah eyh kauuuuuu . sepak kau , BISU ! haha . kkay , you know i still love you kann ? :D

heeeee . ader org tuh nga ader crush uhhh . *kening naek kening naek* ahaha . peace peace ~

2009-09-19T07:08:00.000-07:00

i wish i knew your feelings . hah ! i really do .
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"eyh , biler kau nak ader mataer uh?"
"nta eh . kau fikir senang eyh nak dpt mataer ? haha"
"kau dah brape lamer ahh single ?"
"one year plus ."
"eversince hakim kan?"
"yeaaaa."

this is a convo between me & irni today . hur . yea . i just realised that it has been a year plus since i broke up with him . wow . its shocking cause along the one year , i only met him once . and i swear it was heartwrecking to see his face . the memories are painful , y'know . hmm . well yea . i've moved on ! (: guys will always be guys . i'm glad i at least have a guy friend whom i can trust . i hope he wont put it to waste tho .

well , heck with that . tmr's hari raya ! yay ! haha . selamat hari raya okay everybody ! hve funn . hha .

kay , i think i'm gna end this short short post here . i'm abit sleepy right now . hha . but wait , i'm gna wait fr a monster's call . hhaha . i miss that boi ! hahahah . call me faster faster . dont make me wait . i know you know i'm talking abt you , so dont play dumbbbbb . hahaha(: peace eyh peace eyh . call me alrd laaaaa .

2009-09-15T08:08:00.000-07:00

to eza : tatawuq nak sabar eh ? hahaha ! relax laa ! lambat laun , aku tetap akan update(:

BOOM ! got back my results fr prelims . hoho . i've really done it . i flunk almost all of my papers . AISEYY AHHH ! padehal aku blajar mcm nak mampos . heh . anyways , darling Q ! aku sayanggg kau sgtsgt . chill kay ? y'know i'm here fr you kan ? meh meh !*HUGGGG* *KISSKISS-PAT-CHEEKS* (:

e1 girls went to meet her&him today after sch . i swear it was just a pile of bullsharks . peng maha peng . buat darah aku upp jer . haha . takpe takpe . aku tetap chill . haha .

went to meet elnino today . like , finally ! ahaha . it was really really funnn . we walked ard cwp , chilled outside civics , & walked ard cwp again and again till we got really tired . nyehe . sorrayyyyy and ohh , thank you fr the lollies & chocolies yeaa . maklumlah , member nk org disini semakin tembam kan ? hha . dgr dgr , dier peih property ah kan ? pfffft . hha .
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haha . wow . thanks afaii , thanks . the greatest friend ever la you (: i'm really shocked la sia . kay whatever bullshit .

"aku binget ah.."
"whyyy ?"
"ade arh ni laki kurang ajar sak"
"sapa sia?"
"diekurang ajar gile sak . kenya west arh . si sial tu kacao je bile taylor swift nk ckp bile die menang award . lol"
"ahah . sial kau"

a convo btwn me and shy . ahh , that clown . he's always up to smth . haha .

anw , i wanna chg my school bag . i'm gona get one of this ;
alright per ? maot kan ! i know , its aqilah's schoolbag . haha . she's primary one btw . and oh . i miss this minachi of mine . hurr .

and oh , i bumped into zu today ! haha . aku confident cakap "YO" sekuat tidak , tapi actually tk npk pon tuh sape . [baek , malay hancor] so anyhoos , todays is hairi's bday . happy bday okay ! i know , i'm cute (: but you dint have to spoil the settings of my hair in sch know that time . hha .

aye , lets stop here . byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

2009-09-12T03:24:00.000-07:00

dee just found out smth today . aww , chill kay loves ? you know that we have your back right ? i know you love me , and i love you too (:

"eh girl , lu mau kene rembat pe , gua panggil members dari e1 , samseng babe ." -EYKA

yes korang , eyka si sotong tuh said this to dee . hahaha . maot ah eyh aku peih bitch yg satu nieh . hahahahaha ! cute ah dier . nk step fierce ah konon , tapi sebenarnyer blur . hahaha . [korang kalau tak tahu apape , diam sua eyh . hahaha . tkmo kecoh kecoh]

"baek eyka ! eyka chong ah , lepas per ? hahahah . "

nyehe . alright bby jer per ? haha . boley maju jaoh joy kalau eyka lead ! hahahahah ! peace eyh peace eyh(:

anw , be strong aye deeeeee . sayang kau laaa sgtsgt . apape nnt eyka tlg settle . heeee .

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time check ; 3.14 & aku lapaaaaaaaaarrrr ! sahur , come cpt cpt pls . hehh . anyway , today was a bore , i swear . i did nth much except fr rotting at home =.="

sch kalau start pn cantik ahh . atleast ader bende nk buat . heh . kay da . i'll update later , maybe . i wanna off the comp . lappie daa panas maot . slamat semua !

and aku miss elnino ! hahahaha . member senyap jer sio satu hari . heh . takper . aku daa masak nan prangai dier . kay bye (:

2009-09-09T17:48:00.000-07:00

to hell with this sleeping disorders . guess what time i slept ? 4 20 . guess what time i woke up fr sahur ? 5 20(: nice one right ? so yeaa . elnino called me up today morning aft sahur , talked fr errr .. 2-3 mins ? hha . i could tell he was tired . dint ask him to accompany me because of that . heh . so anyways , i was on my bed right after sahur and was able to go back to lalaland only at 6 30 . i swear i couldnt sleep peacefully . was awakened once more ard 8 45 . was only able to get back to sleep at 10plus . the greatest part ever is that i woke up at 10 48 . woke up , helped abah a lil and then off to shower . i feel extremely tired la sia .

anyways . i changed my blogskin due to pure boredom . obviously laaa ! i've gt nth better to do . i'm sleepy , but i cant sleep . i wanna study , but my brain's not working . last resort ; my lappie . haish .

anw . i've managed to kill 5hours on this lappie . my back hurts , i wana massage ! daa ah . okay bye .

2009-09-09T03:12:00.000-07:00

* looks down * i want this phone back !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

DONT READ . ITS EMOTIONAL . heh .
unless you really bother and care abt my stupid feelings uhh .

went out with Eza today(: went to cwp and then to marsiling t0 survey hp[s] . haish ! i want my prism hp back . seriously . i miss it so muchh ! i'd do anyth to get it back . searched fr it almost everywhere . sadly , my designers' phone is nowhere to be found .

dear siaokid , i really wished that you had returned my hp . no matter how bad the condition is , i would have still appreciated it . sadly , you claimed that you have sold it . if you really did can you please please please tell me to whom and where you had done so cause some sources of mine told me that you were actually using my hp .. do you know how hurtful it is when i got to know abt that ? oh ya . you dont . what do you care right ? and please , stop pretending like you still care&love me as your lil cousin who you really loveeee cause if you did , you would have freakingly not done it . you would have stopped your actions . ohh , and y'know what ? everytime i'm ard you , i feel like bringing this matter up but thank God i'm not an egoist like you . i'm someone who have a heart&understands that others have feelings too . i believe you're a wise person .. only until then . you tore my heart into pieces , and made me feel really disappointed . i trusted you siaa !! ARGH . i'm seriously pissed . come to think of it , i trusted you too much . i had my hopes too high . i was too gullible for you that i became one of your preys . eventho i knew your friends&they told me lots and lots of heartwrecking but expected stories abt you , i still trusted you . cant you see how much i love you to the freaking core ?! cant you ?! i really feel like strangling you to death . [ okay maybe not to death , but till i'm satisfied ] heh . but yea , i feel really dumb . kay , prolly its no use grieving&regretting right now . prolly its even too late to realise it now . haish . i can easily lead you to your paradise, whr you are meant to be which is the lockup but i dint . Abah said that no matter what happened , you'll always and forever will be my cousin . air dicincang tiada putus . did you know i almost cried when i told my dad abt this incident the other time ? did you ? i believe you dint . hati aku sebak la sia ! i was atrociously down . only q & eza knew how sad i was . it was during ramadhan , and i was fasting . you made me wait and if i had followed my heart , i dint wanna eat / buke . but thanks to my dear friends , i laid aside my feelings . haish . alrite , lets not elaborate any further . it'll just bring my smile upside down .
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had a talk with twinnie ytd . uhh , she cleared some things out abt what has been happening with her&that she's actually not herself so much ard me due to some reasons . ahh ! twinnie , imissyouu so much . i miss having fun with you , i miss those times when we skipped sch&chilled tgt . i miss those times when we ignored what peeps would say&did whatever we wanted and even ate as and when we wanted to even when it was during ramadhan . well , that was the past . right now , we barely have time fr each other . we're actually drifting apart . but i'm glad to say that we are still in contact & today really made me happy . at least we were able to spend some time tgt wtht worrying abt anyth . i'm glad that we were normal(: haha ! FATED EYH FATED EYH ! HAHA .
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kay from here on , its normal(:

so yea . helped mama sort things out at home today and ytd . i'm seriously annoyed by my maid . i feel like punching her face know ! but at times , i kinda pity watching her try . haish . i hate two face mother 'F' . hahhhh . kay my life is really complicated . sucks big time , i know . so anyway , my house is in a mess right now . haha . maklumlah , hari raya akan menjelma tidak lama lagi . mesti mau spring clean ! heh . i want to get malam lailatul qadar , pls . [ i hope i spelled it right ] heh . and i wana go mekah ! seriously , this aint a joke . [aku mau taubat laaaaa,abeh?]

i've wasted 5 days of not studying . i seriously needa start mugging ! oh wth . i'm really a suckish person . haiyoooooo .

so anyways , i webcam-ed with elnino ! ahah . funny guy . i miss you oie ! it has been like , 2 days since we've had a long convo . haha . yes , i miss you . see ! i admit okay . unlike you . haha . step cooooool jerrr . hahaha .

kay dah . my watch has just strike 3am . my stomach's grumbling&my eyes are tired but my mind currently nga berkecamok . hahhh . i'm not sure if i can actually sleep . oh have i mention this to anyone yet ? i've been having problems sleeping . i need sleeping pills ! kay thats not good , i know . but yeaa . better than nth i suppose .

alritee , i'm gna stop posting and start trying to sleep . nights yo ! (:

i feel like a dumbass .

my life is a maze .

2009-09-05T23:14:00.000-07:00

he he he . kay i loveeeeee yesterday oh-so-much . (:
went out with darling q to ys library to chill . i was desperate to get out of home fr the dayy . so anyway , we met upp approximately at 1040 when we were supposed to meet at 10 . hoho . standard laa . me & q . we'll leave at the time we are suppose to meet . nyehes .

headed to ys library and waited fr it to open . woho ! record babe , record ! not once in my 15 yrs in this world have i ever went to the library at that time . we even got to experience the opening oi ! i swear singaporean are keee-ahhh-soooo . both me and q went "o.O" when all of em rushed in . hahaha . speechless ah abeh . so thennnn , we sat at a spot whr there were two plugs available . and guess what q did ? she pushed the chairs to the side so that we were able to sit on the floor . funny girl right ? haha . expected of her .

we chilled at the library till ard 4 . during the whole 5 hrs there , guess what we did ? we webcam-ed each other and took stupid pictures with it . i swear people were looking but yeaa . like as if we give a damn abt what they think . (:

"yang penting kiterr rockersssss !"

hha . apart from that , we even had the time to watch online movies . i watched halloween 2 while q watched the ending of the proposal and the beginning of dance flick , or smth like that .

at 4 , i headed home while q met upp with kak bella . got home , chged to some proper clothing and went to ibu's hse . we had iftar ? i think . heh . but yeaa . havent been eating properly fr the past 2 days . sahur-ed and buke-ed with only a few bites . hha . no eyh , i'm not on a diet . i just dint have the mood to eat much . sadly i was forced to eat more ytd night by ibu . hahaha . she said i was sombong cause i dint wana eat =.="

sooo ... that was pretty much my day .

anyhoos ! mama & abah gt two new hp & a new lappie ! happy ah abeh ! hahaha . the 2 phones are my parents' but the lappie ? its fr us siblings . nyehe . the lappie is kinda basic tho . to hell with that . at least the lappie is cool ; its slim , and it has webcam too ! this simply means that i am able to webcam my darling more often and we dont have to do so when we are side by side :D

oh yaa . i frgt to mention this . abg is getting a new phone on tuesday i think . and i'm getting a new one tooo ! hahah . i want n series , pls .

stop calling me when i'm asleep & ask ,

"what are doing" and when i say i'm sleeping ,
you purposely not hang up the phone when i say "bye"

numerous times till i get so pissed by you .

its atrociously irritating kay !

only one guy is able to do that , get it ?

2009-09-04T01:14:00.000-07:00

okay , i've just hung upp the phone with el nino and i'm really hungry right now . come buke , come . come faster pls . argh , my tummy is having jamming sessions with tabla[s] & they seem to be having the time of their life =.="

i attended the exhibitons today with abg(: uhh , newsflash to everyone , he is NOT my guy . he's my blood brother . i know we dont look alike , but pls dont come to that assumption . thankyou !~ so anyway , i finally decided that i'm going fr hospitality and tourism / tourism and resort in management . cut off point is 14 , and that is what ? applicable only fr temasek poly . what the hey ! i wana go SP . buttt sadly , the cut off point is lower . prolly 11 ? omg la . how do you expect me to do that good ? i seriously am not confident in myself . but hell yea ! i'm still gna try my best fr it .

reached home , and continued to do my research on the courses that i had in mind . guess what ? i was so firm of what i wanted and i was still trying to search fr more confidence , and guess what ? both kakak & abah was worsening the situation . c'mon lah ! you guys know i'm fickle and yet you said all those . fr example , "its hard y'know !" "are you sure?" "i cant help you tau if you get into DHTM" "if you're unable to cope, you cant back out okay" "you tak takot fail ker?" "you dont wana try smth easier?" . haha, wow . i expected more than this . first was a math , and now this ? thanks kay , thanks . it really helped to ease my everything .

and after all these , [insert name] called me & i swear he got me so pissed out . first was today morning . you made me talk to till 6 plus even when i was pleading fr you to allow me to sleep . and what ? you said no and continued to talk . hey , i was freaking tired okay . have some mercy la oie ! then just now , you were talking to me like %^@&(!)&# . luckily my lifesaver called me up . thanks yo . if you hadn't call me , i think my puasa dah batal =.=" haish .

so yeaa . el nino was supporting enough to say just go fr it . "nth in life is easy . if diploma is easy , i assure you that everyone in this world would be a diploma cert holder" kan youu ? kan kan kan ? hha . thx fr being thr to talk to me & crap with me . ahaha . and i swear you're a naughty boy back then .

in any ways , i'm gona try my luck . i've got less then 8 weeks to prepare fr my o' written papers . and i have 7 subj to revise . one subj one week ? whoa . i think my head will burst like fireworks . heh . nahh , its okay . aku akan kuatkan semangat aku (: cheh dey lah . bobal confident , ntaa boleh load tk aku peih semangat nieh .

kay wth ? i think my tummy is playing techno right now . hahaha . swear sumpah its really louddd . anw , i've been feeling lethargic these days & i'm not quite sure why . altho i sleep late at night , i'll still make it up by sleeping in the afternoon know . haiyo . my body system sucks .

i think i'm gna stop here . i'm effing shacked right now .

i'm not gna pin my hopes too high .

2009-09-03T08:54:00.000-07:00

kenal kan .ini kepala mataer aku . haha . amaciam ? hot per . haha .

kay what the freaking hell is wrong with my tummy ? it has been making noises since ytd . c'mon laa ! i ate okay =.=" pls laa tummy . shut up pls , haha .

ytd was * no comments * . it really got me on nerves . like WHOA . how inconsiderate can you be ? if i could strangle you , i think i would .

anw . today was tiring . we had p.e and luckily i could resist the whole dayyy . hahaha , i'm proud of myself *kening naik kening naik* (: anw . eza texted me smth today . cheer upp aye loves ! you're a strong person who suck to the freaking core and ps , i hate you . hahaha . aingg . fake jer .

tmr ; sch will be holding a higher education fare or smth like that . grrr . i want my brother to come ! pls pls pls . at least teman me thru the viewing of exhibitions . i need your opinions . i'm bad at decisions okayy . c'mon laa , you've known me since the day i was born . hurr . come okay ? yay best . syg abg ! hahah .
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"why you now like different? you okay anot?"
"you sure you okay ?"
"you now dah lain sikit eh.."

why am i getting this questions/comments so oftenly nowadays ? am i so different ? i'm okay laa . serious serious . no kidding . i feel normal .. so pleaseeee , stop asking these questions . much appreciated (:

6 more weeks to o's .
kayyy daaa . bye !

2009-08-31T10:09:00.000-07:00

" hahahah . watpe nk kisahh ape org fikir kan ? drg nk saket hati drg peih pasal ah . yg penting kiter rockerssssssss ! "

~hahaha . betol tuh betul tuhh . (: i sokong youuuuuuu !

2009-08-31T06:02:00.000-07:00

uhh , short post yea .

today ; went to sch with eza(: she tompang-ed abg's car . hha . reached sch at 7 22 and i still had time to visit the toilet to chg from p.e to uniform . the bestest part is that i came in and straight away stripped . eza's reaction was " o.O SIAK AH KAU . " hha . sorry babe . i have what you have right ? takya malu ah abeh . hahaha .

anyhoos , we had teachers' day celebration today . i swear the performance was superbly mundane . its dull , lame , and pathetic . the MCs fr the day were atrociously annoying . their voices arent music to my ears at all . it sounded like they were actually screaming and my ears felt like it was going to burst anytime soon . i miss our previous badge . their performance are forever enjoyable . haish . sorry saini , adli ; fr not talking to you guys . i wasnt really in the mood to talk .

went to eza's homie today . watched the beginning of final destination and we got sleepy . slept from approximately 11 to 3 . we were suppose to wake up at 1 but both of us overshot . hha . hogged otp with daddy & el nino ytd night/morning . me & daddy were talking abt nabi[s] and wanting to taubat . haha . then when i talked to el nino , he advised me more abt taubat-ing =.="

uhh , kkay . i dont feel like posting nimore . chao !

2009-08-28T06:10:00.000-07:00

i think the above erasers are freaking cute ! i want one >:(

Q ! ape bikin daaaa =.="
nyehehe . me & Q "argueing" ":D
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oh freakkkkkkkkkkkkk ! smth happened today without me realising what i did . i was asleep this afternoon & guess what ? azmi called me . hha . yeaa , i picked up . BUT I WAS ATROCIOUSLY RUDE / HARSH .

" nk ape la ! da la nk tdo la , bye ! "

sorry azmi , i've just sleep talked . hha . somehow , when mr el nino calls me , i fr sure will wake up tau . but when it comes to others ... hha . i have no idea what will happen . i dint even know that he called me till he msn-ed me tadi . hhaha . sorry azmi =x

so whats the lesson to be learnt here ? dont call me when i'm asleep unless you're close to me & you know i wont shout at you , ever . hha . if you're not sure whether or not you're included in this group of peeps , oh dont worry . if you're not eza , q , syai , el nino or the 4e1 babes , then dont call . there's higher chances that i'll end up scolding you . hha .

labels : SORRY AZMI .

2009-08-28T05:42:00.000-07:00

ALHAMDULILLAH (:

prelims are finally overrrrr ! i'm not quite sure if i should consider this as good news . hha . the fact that prelims are over simply means that o's is getting nearer . my goodness . it felt like it was only ytd that 2009 just started . and nowwww , its towards the end of 2009 . what the hey ! time flies really fast , dont you think so ? i certainly do .

anyhoos . today was my literature paper . i sorta think it was easy . it was y'know , but i'm nt gnna be too overconfident . hee . i just hope i score an A1 this time round cause i've been getting A2 fr the past , one year ++ ? i just hope i'll do better fr prelims and the best fr o's . Insya Allah(:

and oh , i came to sch with red/pink cheeks . it seemed like as tho i was using blusher =.=" some of the girls know whyyy . hha .

after lit paper , bus-ed to Np with my darling Q and we walked ard Np with no destination just to kill time . it felt like it has been quite some time since i've last went out with darla . fuh ! i miss going out with Q & eeza & syai . hha . peeps ! jom laaaaa . lets buka out tgt (:

~ there was this guard whom looked at us with a cheeky & flirtatious smile . i seriously feel like punching his face . he asked us a question . guess what i did ? ignore & walkaway . Q was nice enough to stop & answer his pathetic question . ah layan la kau q . hha . ~

el nino aint texting me ): reply la monster ! hha . pls dont make me miss youu too much .
&& parents will be away during the weekend . haiyo !

kay dah . bye people . SLAMAAAAT !
[will be going to msia to have supper today] (:

2009-08-25T07:50:00.000-07:00

chged my blogskin . got bored with the previous one , hha .

had my e math & physics paper today . e math was in fact managable only that i dint have enough time to complete it . uhuh , what a waste right ? anw , physics was -no comments- . i swear , i was blank when i saw the paper . formulas was what i learnt and what came out in the end ? definations o.O

"takpe , kiter kuatkan semangat ajerr kay"

hha , kan iqa ? (:
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talked to el nino ytd . well , almost every night actually . talking to him is seriously funn . my lifesaver la konon . hha . he never fails to not make me laugh . thanks to me too fr being an easy person to talk to okay (: hoho , i just cant allow you to get the all credits to yourself .

him , on the other hand simply loves to tease me non-stop . i somehow think it has become a hobby of his . haha . prolly becuase i'm too gullible . hmm , anyhoos . i have stop my vulgurities due to some reasonnnnn . he he he .

okay peace out(:

2009-08-23T20:22:00.000-07:00

tashah met me some days ago & i brought her to kak yanti's homie to meet my two beloved anak sedare(: fidiyani & anshari .

initially , she was only attracted to anshari but as time pass by , fidiyani attracted her eyes too . hha . i know , she's extremely adorable right ? cute by the fact that she's clumsy and loves to make a big mess . well , she is afterall my junior , kan eza ?(:

andd tashah , they're mine okayy . haha .
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anyhoos ! i came to school today feeling exuberated & i have no idea why .

me : i have a good feeling abt today's paper :D i think its gonna be great !
iqa : o.O err .

sorry iqa cause you have to entertain all of my craps like , everytime ? sorry too cause my blurness gets worse each day and you feel like strangling me everytime i say "huh? ape ? aku tak paham" or "maksod kau ape ?" hha . sorry love .

so back to today . i actually think that the paper is okay . BUT for the fact that i'm lacking of practice , and i dint revise my past works , they were actually a challenge . i should have studied .

hha . kay lemme end here . i'm freaking lazy to update .

[ fuck pms ]

2009-08-18T00:39:00.000-07:00

EDITED ;

the malayy peeps at the front row , that's US . haha . OOOOOOOFVE ! andd yeaa . i wonder what will happen to each of us aft o's . andd you see that two malay guys at the bottom right hand corner ? they're also close with us . the guy on the right , was gossipping with me tadi . hahahaha . abt ehem ehem ! (:

and and and . i loveeeeeeeeeee guys with hot hot body . aku cair ! hahahahaha .

* EMMIRUL . i still cant believe that you really thought i'm going off to paris =.="
and Azrul ! get well soon , boi . go and consult a doctor laa okay . alamakk . jgn degil boleh tak . ish !

2009-08-18T00:19:00.000-07:00

picutres with tashah(:

* i'm wearing hotpants okayy . just that my tube dress is extra longgg . hahaa*

2009-08-17T23:44:00.000-07:00

alritee (: quick recap okayyy .

saturday ; was suppose to go tamp cc to see zulaiha fight & tashah was suppose to accompany me . hha . but sad to sayy , we both overslept . choy ! daaa sekaki la kanszx .

sunday ; went out with tashahhhhhhhhhhh . went tea dance , again . hha . but this time , swear sumpah it was scary ! kan tashah , kan kan kan ? hha . was offered a job thr to work as a waitress . hha ! wth ? working as waitress , at a club ? fun tuh fun ahh . cumenyer , nieh namenye carik masalah .. so yeaa . back to t dance(: tuty was continuously disturbing us , "eh ! nieh duer org underage ! takley masok ! hahahaha ." grr .

usually at tea dance , me & tashah will chill at the other corner , near the toilet . butttt this time round , we made a bad decision to chill at the entrance area . hha ! sial . thr was this guy , whom i believed also took care of the club . uhh , i think ahh . cause he sounded like one . he offered me a drink and i kinda rejected it . NAK PUASE OI ! takkan nk minom kannn . ader plak aku puase tk sah . hmpfh . so yeaa , he was sorta chasing us to get us into drinking with him =.=" desperado i see . and he even said , " come laa . 5 mins only ." siol ! 5 min cukop laa sey nk mabok . in the end , he threatened us by saying , " i give you 5 mins . if you dont come in and drink , dont come here anymore."

tashah and me were mentioning , " uhh . takpe ah . kiter carik port baru jom ! hha . naughty girls paa ?" hahahah . wth laa we both . after leaving tea dance , walked ard bugis . tashah wanted to accidentally bump into someone . sad to say her plan dint work out quite well cause he wasnt whr he was suppose to be . lol . member disappointed siulszx . after walking ard bugis , made our way back to yishun (: otw , tashah received a call from el . she said pat t dance ader hal . there was a fight and el lost her hp . uhh , wth kan ? kecoh ahh that dayy . so yeaa . chilled at yishun with tashah and left fr home early . i wanted to get a gooooooooood rest fr oral the next dayy .

monday ; eng paper (: it was okay i guess . hha . i hope i did well . *prays hard* aft eng paper , chilled in the canteen with the usuals . BITCH ard , obviously . hahahah . bergempah satu canteen ! sumpah tk tpu .

reported fr o level and guess what me & iqa did to relax our mind while waiting ? hahahhaha . we talked abt prom night , chalet & guess what else ? minom , andd clubbing =.=" we were planning alot of stuffs for aft o's . haha . i know , wth kan ? opening our piercings and what nots . we were even talking abt life aft 18 . iqa wants to get herself a hot hot hot tattoo and the most kekek part was abt a girl being spiked and the chains . haha ! iqa ; i know we know but people dont know . (: anw , dance off per one dayy ? hee .

[ dee said aku daaa tembam ! omg . hhaha . must lose weight again ]

today ; SUCKISH . i wanna drop a math ! serious shit la sial ! peih stress nan a math .. buat kepale aku pecah je seyy . and and and . chem paper was -no comments- . nak cakap tk blajar , i did . dgn kakak aku plak tuh . sial btol . guess today's just not my day . in between papers , sat at the canteen . standard la kan . and thr was once , a guy whom i shouldnt lay his name here , looked at me like one kind , with a half and evil smile . guess what i did ? i said , " uhh . kenape eyh ? " and all he did was shook his head and smile =.="

ahh . tmr's ss & e math . ohh , pls pls pls make our paper easy . teachers , pls have mercy fr us students ! haha , kay drama .. kayy daaa . aku nak relax jappp , pastu saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap ! blajarrr ! (:

anw , tashah , amaciam smalam jumper amy ? updates oi , updates ! hahahahaha (: and i still miss him ah girl . but somehow , i've forgotten him . heh .

& i miss fidiyani . haha . the baby whom raped me =.="

2009-08-12T06:42:00.001-07:00

SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU ABG KAHAR !

&WELCOME TO THE FAMILY KAK NISA(:

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today was our frisbee match , aww . sad to say we got 2nd . but hey ! better than nth yo . hha (: well done 4E1 mix team . & congrats to 4E3 for achieving first place .
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anw , o level's ard the corner . its a scary fact indeed . but hey ! c'mon yo , we can do it yeaa peeps .
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anyhoos . went out with tashah on sunday . went t dance and smth happened which really broke my heart . well , because of that someone , i swear it spoiled my mood to the freaking core . but its okay , at least the fireworks cheered me up a lil (: tho i was really hoping to meet you . but sad to say , you'll always find a way out of your own maze and leave me thr to figure things out on my own . i wonder why you're doing this .. is it a game or what ? cause if it is , i seriously would like to back off . cause to crash and burn is really not fun at all . boy , you've really got me confused .

sunday ; reached homie at ard 1130pm . early much ? i know . and sorry , no pictures fr this day .
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pictures(:

welcome to earth asyraf(:

okay bye :D

2009-07-31T09:59:00.000-07:00

alritee . i probably should update right now . hha . so yeaa . have been really lazy this week . hha . tuh laaa . dapat mc one week jer , tros naik lemak . alamakkk . aku nieh kan . prangai ah .

and so . went fr tea dance on sunday with tashah , irni and el . hha . the experience thr was fun . hoho . laughed at alot of peeps thr due to the weird dancing that they do . [aku cakap byk , tapi joget pon tidak] anyhoos , i made new friends(:

currently in contact with *someone* :D
he's cute ! but pemalu . pantatszx . mcm gegerl tau dier .

& i'm friends with joker . he's a nice person , and i freakingly envy his fluent english . hha . he has pakistan blood . SYAFIQ ! i finally know a person of my keturunan ahh ? hha . kay drop .

left tea dance , and went to chill at yishun damp , or smth . joker drove us thr . i swear his driving fun gler . sampaikan kiter yg pat blakang sumer tergolek golek . lagi lagi aku ! maklumlah , aku kan ringan . tolak sekali jer boleh melayang agaknyer . hha . chilled till ard ten then left fr home cause irni has got sch the next day . reached home and hogged otp with joker . hha . oh yaa . joker loves to memperbodoh-bodohkan . cause y'know why ? i never fail to fall fr his trap . hha . daa namernyer mimi bello . bello la jgak kann .

pictures(:

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monday ; had a goood rest at home , and i think i went out . but i frgt whr =.="

tuesday ; finally ! back to sch , baby ! i swear i miss my class . oh , budak budak melayu je la actually . so yeaa . my cough is still persistant . its not getting better , neither is it getting worse . had sch as per usual , and then srp . had lunch at the nasi lemak shop . me & shamini , forever killing each other . its fun know . hhaa(: aft srp , went home , chged & met haikal . went to arep's hse to chill & study . studied abit , then both me & haikal went down to meet shaykh . had some h2h talk tgt then proceeded back to fetch dee . cab-ed home and reached ard 11.10 . penat oieee .

wednesday ; sch , srp . standard ah abeh . hha . went home , chged & met saini . he taught me organic chemistry . ahhhhh . fucktards . missed only a week of studies & i swear i'm far behind . i so have got to catch up with time . moving on , we studied near yazid's blk . soon after , daddie [fuad] and amir joined in . hee . had a chance to sit at saini's bike and start to berangan . hhah ! and yeaaa . met apis & guess who else ? hehehe . shhh ! mesti mau low profile . went home ard 1050 and reached homie ard 11.20 .

thursday ; sch , srp . normal la kan . went home , then SAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPPPP ! tdo =.=" woke up , showered , ate abit , then talked otp with ehem ehem till morning . morning what time ? six . hha . sui sui utk aku siap jerr . butttttt he insisted that i took a nap . so fine . slept fr ard , twenty minutes ? woke up , got ready , then off to sch .

todayyy ; sch . sch . sch . then home(: skipped srp due to some unforeseen circumstances . hhaha . so yeaa . slept like a pig till seven . showered , had dinner , then i'm on the computer eversince .

grr , i'm currently waiting fr someone to call . peih lame ! Ya Allah . boleh mati siul aku . hhaa . and wtf ? i've got to wake up early today morning . ive got srp . hha . nine to twelve . nabeh chibai kannnnn .

kay skolah ini sucks to the freaking core . kay byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

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dee ! be strong kay loves . you still have us right ? cheer upp . i miss the kecoh and happy happy youu . * hugs * anyth beep beep me okay ?

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2009-07-23T04:53:00.000-07:00

two days back ; was sent back home cause they said i have slight fever =.="

so heck with them , went back home & cathced the movie harry potter with eza & q . the movie rocks , i tell you ! no regrets . i swear (:

so yes , went to get my mc ytd and due to the cold weather in the morning , my temperature aint that bad . only 37.5 . sadly , when i reached home , it went up to 38.5 . so yeaa . SCH CALLED AND TOLD THAT WE HAD TO REPORT AT TWO BUT THEN , THEY GAVE FALSE INFO . wth ? me & q had to wait fr 2 hrs siulszx .

went to ys library and relaxed thr . texted amir to come and meet me with his jacket and he did . hha , that irritating guy . org nga saket pon kacau =.=" bus-ed to sch , reached ard 3.55 , waited outside g.o then went up to the "isolation room" and waited till 5 fr the LC to start .

guess what was my temp then ? 39.5 [it maintained till today morning] WONDERFUL OR WHAT ? exam's abt to start and my temp drasticly chg just like that . grr .

i swear its hard to focus with this condition . hurr . Insya Allah i'll do well fr my malay o . heh .

went home and someone accompanied me home (: thankyouuu . haha .

so yeaaa . reached home , slept , woke up , ate dinner , slept , woke up , ate medicine , and slept again . hha . todayyy , woke up with a temp of 38.5 . took double dosage of medicine , and guess what ? my temp fell to 37.5 this afternoon and now its 37 (: cool or what ! i can finally go back to sch tmr . hha . but there's SS mock test =.=" and if i were to sit fr it , i'm totally gonna flunk it .

kay , i'm going off now . gonna eat another double dosage of medicine , and then prolly get another good rest . hha . kakak is planning on going fr a midnight movie tonight . HARRY POTTER AGAIN , pleaseeeeeeee !

(:

2009-07-19T04:22:00.000-07:00

okay . i'm home from KL and i'm freaking tired . hha .
short post kayy . so the conference was freaking fun .
won alot of things .

and i miss the peeps there alrd ):

alrite update a long one later .

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spammers ; fuck off laa . no life pe sial !

2009-07-09T07:12:00.000-07:00

alritee , let me begin with ytd , hha . sch as per usual ; nth to elaborate on . so yeaa . chem srp was next . believe it or not , i believe i have improved .. oh God , plsplspls , give me a smarter brain . argh . i want fifteen points :(

and guess what ! i've grown by point five cm , hhaha . i'm finally 157 . happy or what !

so yes , watched MJ's memorial encore ytd . saddening y'know . i swear i could cry watching it . MJ is such a good person , right iqa ? and yet media did all those to him . i still believe in him okay . oh ! and his sons & daughters are pretty (: very very pretty .
guess what ? some news came out , saying that the childrens arent him , & his GAY . hey ! MJ is alrd not in this world , why continue to critic him ? leave him & his family alone laa fr goodness sake . heartless creatures . you guys just dont deserve to be in this world .

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skipped sch today . apart from the fact that i was lazy , i was having cramps . it sucks i tell you . slept and woke up ard two . hha . fr a girl , i can really sleep fr long hours huh .

went fr lunch with kakak at KFC , and walked ard cwp . was talking abt prom night , and some personal stuffs . hha .

i so cant wait fr prom ! 4E1 malay girls ; no dates right ? just us having the fun of our life right ? heee (:

okay peeps . i gotta go off now . nidde study ! then sleep . tmr have got to attend sch , & i dont think i'm attending night class , again . =x

okay peace .

2009-07-02T08:21:00.000-07:00

some pictures i found in my lappy . hha
4e1 girls(:

yours truly ,
miimiiachii (:

2009-07-02T07:43:00.000-07:00

ALHAMDULILLAH ! i'm thru with my malay o' level oral . kinda unsatisfied . but hey , i tried and did my best right . what fustrates me is the fact that i was atrociously gagap ! wth ? malay is MT yet i cant speak properly .

fine , just shows i'm not pure malay right ? hee . so yeaa .

i loveee the new timetable . aint draggy one bit ! thank God cox if it's the previous timetable , say bye bye to wednesday . hha . i'll just continue to absent myself when that day strikes . lets get a brief idea of the few days that just passed .

monday ; sch reopened and i sorta went half-heartedly . got our entry proof . and what the hell ? just got to know that oral is today . ass . they dint even give us longer warning fr us to prepare . selfish creatures .

so yeaa . cabut the last 2 periods of sch and left fr home . hha . good girl ah me ? alah . heck care laa . cikgu pon tak dtg per . self declare ah abeh ? hha . reached home , went down to buy foods & as soon as i reached home again , i got ready to meet the rest ; dian , iqa , eyka , fari . left home and made my way to dian's crib .

watched one disc of a scary movie then proceeded to watch hannah montana the movie . hha . hade dinner , then left to BK at northpoint to study . left at nine and reached homie at ten . dint wana come home any later or i'll be tired the next day .

tuesday ; sch went on normally . tired , as per usual . was almost asleep in class but i'm glad to say that i dint . improvement right ? i know . hha . chilled with irni at her crib & went hme and guess what ? slept like a pig from seven till the next day , with hwks undone (: nice one . hha .

wednesday ; sch as per usual , then went fr one to one lesson with ms sor . went home & studied with sister . yay ! did abit of a & e maths .

oh ya . we took our class photo today fr the yr book . and guess what ? fr our second formal photo , eyka , dian , irni , q , shamini , iqa & me actually pout . can you believe it ? the one that is coming out & is gona be shown in the yr bk has our face pouting . hha . sorry yaa 4e1 .

fun shot , hha . all the 7 of us , dgn secepatnyer sat on the floor . sorry shaykh & haikal fr making you guys stand . so guess what ? we all did another pose with our jaws wide open , eyes looking shocked & our hands were y'know , in the air ahh like that .

cool . so gna miss them hell loads .
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so okay , i've signed up fr night classes . monday , wednesday , friday from 630 till 9 . its good , in a way cox there will be teacher's help if we need them . srp on let me see , everyday . anddd tuition with sister on tues and sunday (: hha . planned ahead fr my o's . ahh . i so have alot to catch up with . to do so , i'm gna make sure i dont go out , dont go lepak , anddd dont go fr any activities = silat . at least not so often ahh . hha . gona start to do it next week where i'll just focus on studies .

and to you ; you dont have to call me a sundal la , sundal . kau tuh , tgk cermin lu . zaman maner siol kau ! nieh zaman org daaa rilek bodoh . grow up . you freakingly have no guts . kental !

okay . thats the end .
goodbye fucktards .

2009-06-27T05:04:00.000-07:00

tranformers rocks . tranformers rocks . tranformers rocks . tranformers rocks . tranformers rocks . tranformers rocks . tranformers rocks . tranformers rocks . should i repeat that again ? okay , tranformers rocks(:

okay , watched transformers ytd with siblings . sumpahh swear the story gerek to the max ! must watch know yall ! and and , i'm officially head over heels with it(:

bumblebee is so WOW ! cute to the max ! superbly in love with him . gahhh !

the twins are adorable(:

and that small lil robot , i kinda forgot the name , hha . is also cute(:

so overall , I LOVEEEEEEEEEEE THE TRANSFORMERS ! esp bumble bee . mine eyh , mine eyh . now twilight is kinda abit below transformers . he he he . dont get me wrong tho , i still like edward cullen only not as much as bumblebee . hee .

so yaa , movie started at 720 , reached suntec at 530 . decided to grab a bite at kfc and along the way there , the siblings laughed like hell . sumpah swear my stomach can burst ! hurr , standard . anak-anak hassan . sehari tk ketawa , tak sempurna langsung ! after eating , made our way to the cinema area , joked ard then collected our nachos , popcorns & drinks , then went in .

wohoho ! transformers is really satisfying . anyone wana blanja me watch the movie again ? i'll be delighted to go fr another round , hha .

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anws , movie ended late . and by the time , shops there were alrd closing . made our way to the mrt , boarded , and plugged in music into my ear . haish . such a bad way to end my day with .

got to know smth abt the pesilats . veh devastating . felt like punching that minah wannabe's face . she thinks what , she maner peih big fuck perr ? ahh . whatever kay . i know i come fr training to train . only that fr the past few trainings jer tak dtg .

last two weeks , i went to malacca / KL .
last week , Abah told me not to come , aside from the fact that i malas also & i came home late alrd .
ytd , went out with siblings and it was alrd planned long before . therefore , plans cant be chged as the ticket dates were alrd fixed & it was from the police academy . so why not take the chance right ? and when i beeped cikmas to inform of our absence , i could tell that it wasn't her whom replied to my msg . well , not really . abg told me say it was from him as he knows what's happening ard mz2 lately . lovely right my abg ?(:

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two words to this fucker "fuck off" .
adding another four would be great , "get a life , bitch" .

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okay . i shall end here . good day okay peeps !
* p.s i just watched jgn tegur . story was scary , but unsatisfying as it ended so mendadak-ly . hurr . kayy daaa . peace out kay fuggers .

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owhs . & michael jackson passed away ): sad or what ! king of pop become legend of pop . tsk .

2009-06-25T08:02:00.000-07:00

lepak-ed with fuad [daddie] today . aft some time amir , acap , yazid , izzad & lastly Lan came to join(:

* wow ! izzad salam aku oie ! shockingly , yes .. *

so the plan was to spend some quality times with daddie & share our problems but sadly , we dint have the opportunity to do so fr some reason .. so yeaa . cut it short yeaa . we lepak-ed , played pingpong , spend some time with daddie awhile , chilled at the street soccer court then made my way home :D

sumpah swear i miss them hell loads !

&& i bumped into ADLI ! gahh . long lost friend oie ! kinda miss him ahh ..

kkay . nk offline . hurr . bbye (:

2009-06-23T01:27:00.000-07:00

alriteee . haha . blogging at last kan eza ? hurr .
and so , went to play pool ytd with eza , irni , aliff & two of his mates . kinda fun ahh . eza , as per usual , tk dpt menang aku jugak . hha ! * bluekkk *
half way thru at safra , aliff's friends left . after which we went to buy tickets then ate at mcd . hurr . watched " drag me to hell " & sat beside irni . scary oie the movie ! actually not so ahh . it was the sound effects that made it scary . hha . maot to the max ! if they had lowered down the volume , it would have been better . hurr . movie ended ard 630 plusplus . went to wdlnds , met my dearest ex ; azmi . hha . miss that badot oie ! and ie totally frgt his birthday was on 17 march . happy super belated bday okay . haaaa .

sunday ; went out with family ! fun oie ! i so love my family (: got 20 bucks from daddy to spend . & i already spent it ytd which is on monday . hha . gone alrd . hurr .

saturday ; a day out with malik & aiman & malik's friend . hha , fun oie ! we had lunch , played pool , then they went to asap , then we walked to spore flyer & had a chat . was being disturbed by the ns policemen =.=" after which we headed back to MS , walked ard , watched the fireworks , ate dinner then headed back homie(:

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today , i'm planning on finishing up with homeworks(:
tmr , going out uh maybe . thursday , not sure . maybe study again . friday , watch movie with siblings . gna watch transformers . yayyy ! hha .

okay , i want the one week extra holidays . pls pls pls . okay ameen .

& i miss farah & norishma ! hurr . my two pri sch close friend . bumped into them ytd and today accordingly . heh . i have one more close friend ; Norashikin . but sad to say , i'm not sure where she is right now . hurr .

okay bye laa kaypoh . peace peace .

2009-06-16T08:28:00.000-07:00

PICTURES (:

we dont look alike right ? hha

air asam . NICE ! (:

the drink that tasted like vicks/balm . bleahh .

HELEN bracelets .

the pink gelang kakak bought fr me .
he he .

secondary camera . heh .

cotton candy peeps ! we ate 3 packets straight . heh .

mom ♥

ohh , did i mention on the previous post ? heh . mama hugged me to sleep on the second night at kampung . i couldnt sleep :( hurr . i know , manja right me ? oh well , suppose your just jealous . hee . love mama so much ♥
kupang ! hee .

the bestest mom ever ♥

kakak ♥ focus on the rambutan ! haha .

with love ,
miimii ♥

2009-06-16T07:44:00.000-07:00

alritee . andd so . i'm back from my malaysia trip ! hoho .

here's a change fr myself ; staying fr two nights in malacca . its good tho , i think . heh . anws . we only slept thr . dint spent the whole day thr . here's a brief explanation of what happened okay .

friday : journey to malacca . woke up , had bf with abg [since he couldnt tag along cox of work ] , went to JB , walked ard * idk what the place's name was * while abah chged our car to van . when he did , we started our journey . reached malacca then went fr dinner . had kupang ! hha . nice oie ! hurr . then went to the atok [ daddy's friend nyer parents ] adeq's homie . kampong ah whye ! grr .

sat : woke up early at six , showered , went to KL fr daddy's work , then went to timesquare . had fun at cosmo world . hoho . 2 rides at the roller coaster , 1 ride on the spinning thingy , 1 ride on another spinning thingy which is on air , 1 ride on the deadly pirate ship [ heh . it went 360 degree . fun fun fun ! ] , then 1 ride on the bumper cars . heee . the spinning spinning machine ahh , i tell youu , not worth it . it only makes youu wanna vomit =.=" no thrill AT ALL . hahaa . by the time , i was already feeling nausea . pathetic . wanted to go another round on the roller coaster . but kakak was on the verge of vomitting . she passed , so i decided to teman her . i couldnt possibly leave her right . hurr . so yea . aft feeling satisfied , we left & met mama & abah , then went back to the kampong .

sun : another early morning . woke up ard 8 . showered , had breakfast , then went fr a walk , atok tour-ed us ard . I SAW AN AYAM RUGGET !! haha . fierce know the ayam . hehh . atok said that that ayam is the samseng among the ayam[s] . cool huh . so yea . aft all those , went shopping . sadly , NOTHING attracted our eyes . ended up buying a drink from starbucks =.=" grr . went back to the kampong , took our luggages & said our goodbyes anddd off we went back to spore ! reached ard 1 in the morning :D

mon : stayed at homie . was super tired . & i FASTED OKAY . he he he . * eza ! biler mau bayar hutang puase ?! aku daaa start auu . haha *

today : went shopping with kakak(: bought a pair of shoes & a new top & earings . heee . thanks yo sis ! andd andd andd , i want that blue half jacket ! ): kakak said she'll get me that after he pay . yay ! :D

2009-06-10T08:23:00.000-07:00

i went for social studies class okay just now ! hha . proud ahh abeh ! (: alot of them who initially was semangat in the end bailed out =.=" pemszx !

so yeaa . i'm going to KL this friday , saturday & sunday . yay !
dont miss me too much okay peeps ? and yes . alot of things have been happening lately . both good & bad . in which i faintly remember .

first and foremost , i'm losing interest in silat . okay whatever . abg rudy heard abt the rumours . prolly most of them knows what the rumours are . so yeaa . met abg rudy & emirul on monday to sort things out . told them i felt like quiting . and guess what ? hha . i received a lecture in return which made sense ah i think . azrul also knows that i wanted too . told him on sunday and he was sorta advising me not to but he indirectly said it . hurr . kay lets put this topic aside .

holidays - most of the days were spent in school , eza's homie & silat . and i'm pretty much bored of this routine . i nidda go out soon ! i need fresh air . i feel so confined y'know . zu asked me out on the 15 . uhms , babe . if youu come across this , i'm not attending it okay . heh . dont worry , its personal . hha . 21 , i'm booked . & on other days , i'm prolly free . hurr .

okay cousins , this would be a great time to ask me out okay . hmpfh .
i shall end now . toodles !

2009-06-01T07:22:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah ! thank goodness . i'm thru with my malay o . hopefully i ace it . Insya Allah .

okay , i'm not gonna blog much . only that i hate Ahmad ibrahim sec for conducting srp classes and occupying most of our holiday . you s* . heh . si dagu panjang pon lagi satu . peih boots . pi buat nieh sumer haram jadah , kalau dapat tolong tkpe la jugaq . hmpfh .

so yeaa . i feel like smashing up HIS face . what was the EWWWWWWWWW for ? pfft . chilidish ah kau mat ! mau step besar abeh tk brani mau bobal depan2 per . kental ah lu boi . to pokerface , yes . i wish to see him die . thankyou .

[ peace out ]

2009-05-26T08:24:00.000-07:00

6 more days to malay GCE O'level .

ahhhh wtf ? the num of days stated is really freaking the hell out of me . okay peeps . tmr's the last day for an actual day of sch for the 2nd semester & i'm superbly lazy to attend it . BUT due to the fact that malay o's is just days away , i probably should attend sch . heh ! anyway , i flunk my mye badly . i really did .

d i s s a p o i n t e d .

thats the only word i can say to describe my feeling right now . haish . i noticed that i'm strong in my languages . eng , malay , lit . the rest - speechless - . i've gone from adequate to bad and to worse . goodness ! whats become of me ? grr , anyhoos , thurs is ptm or should i just say stm [student teacher meeting] . parents aint coming , standard . cant be bothered to , and they're working . friday's our sports carnival ! our LAST sports day for our ai years . yay ! hha . so nak giler giler nan the 4e1(:

apart from sch , i've been spending alot of times at mommy's homie . alaa . rumah eza ler . hha . so yeaa . we're being a pain in the ass to each other , standard ah . dah mcm our fav routine la kan . and and and . silat ! hha . congrats to the mz2's who qualified for the next round . make us proud okay (: goodluck to those whose fighting soon . sorry if i cant come to support you guys these weekend . i'll try my best okay ?

hmm , is this counted as update ? okay . dahh . ive updated .hehe .

TAG REPLIES .
to iqa : linked babe !(:
to q : shhh ! maner ader malass . hehe . busy jerr . daa laa . daa update ..
to irni : updated !
to saini : hha . yea . standard . saini mah . anw , squ maner skaraaang ?

2009-05-02T08:04:00.000-07:00

" breathe in & out ; LAUGH LIKE YOU NEVER DID BAYBEHHH ! "
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when was the last you ever laughed like you mean it ? okay everybody ! lets fake the fake-est smile ever for at least 10 secs & mirror yourself . look how funny you are ! okay lets laugh at ourself :D
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oh shoots . next week is gonna be the start of exams . goodness ! i'm freakingly n-o-t ready for exams . heh ! die die die . oh no no no .. i must be confident ! hoho . i wished ! hur .

anw , friday was a l-o-n-g dayy . spent the afternoon with kakak & abg then went to meet amir for my sports shoe . headed home , got chged andd off i went for training . it was extra training actually . i still came ah kay ! see ! i'm a good pesilat(: hoho . like paham only . lets put that aside . i dint regret going for training ytd . we had a run ytd . fun or whatttttttt . makes me miss track&field alot alot . I MISS RA'UF . I MISS HIM LIKE HELL LOADS ! :( if onlyyyyyyyyyy my knee wasnt injured & i hadnt been put under injury that resulted to me being lazy to even come for training . if only . IF . haish . i miss my sprinter days . the never ending motivation he gave .. the believe he had in each and every one of us . i still rmb the day thatme , eileen , jia xin & weiwen stayed till prolly 7.30 or maybe later at stadium just to achieve our best timing in which i totally forgot what the timing was , but i knew that my timing got better . started training with 15s ++ for 100m and ended traing with 14s+ . haish . i miss him siulszx !

okay back to training . aft the run , we had a break andd after which we learnt some techniques andd brushed up on our left leg's kicking . i swear all of our left leg mcm tooooot . hahahaha . aft all the newbies finished trng which is ard 1030 , went to abg rudy's cribs to have these makan2 at his homie for his bdayyy . haha . advance bday . ate , watched congkak , & only came home ard 12 plus . hoho !

MZ2 has a new motto , thanks to abg rudy ; "MASOK ..! TAKMO TUNGGU !"
hoho . okay we were talking abt the vest ah kay . peeps dont go yellow on this aye .

okay . i miss mama & abah alot alot .

gonna spend tmr studying , i think . HEH . i nidda get back my study mood . *sighs*
okay bye . :)
[ i hope i see a real rainbow one dayy . hurrr !]

2009-04-29T20:42:00.000-07:00

and so , sunday was the day that i've officially become a yellow belt . sucks noe , hha . aft the thingy , the pesilats went to banquet . ate , talk cocked and went home . reached homie , and did my hwk[s](:

monday was my confident day . huahua . wanted to take 912 to interchg , but sadly .. the bus was so packed that none could fit in anymore =.=" left homie at 630 , and the next bus was only at 6.43 ? so my only lifesaver would be a bus . in which , HAHA . it came but still , it was extremely f-u-l-l . called abah and told him i might not reach sch on time and he said okay . heh . thought of taking a taxi but due to the fact that in the morning , taxi drivers are BUSY it resulted to me missing my 965 bus . nabs . called abah again , to inform him that i have missed my bus and the only way to sch would be a taxi . wahh . last resort alrd . grr . abah said okay and that he'll pay back my money . daa hooray2 la tau . haha . thenn , called for a taxi and it said that they'll come in 5 mins . WAK LU 5 MINS ! i waited from 6.53 all the way to 7.10 but still no taxi . curse you . i still rmb my booking num siulszx ! ;; 7911 . wth ? haha . abah called and asked ,

" so how ? "
"so how what ? "
" daa dapat taxi ? "
" ahahhh ! nopes . called the taxi like 15 mins . otak dier uh . kate 5 min sampai . sampai skarang pon tk dtg dtg "
" AHAHAHAHA . abeh you nk abah buat ape ? "
" nta . buat ape ? "
" ah blek sudahh . pi tdo . "
" =.= abeh kalau i daa blek then the taxi driver call how ? "
" ah ckp nan dier you daa sampai skolah "
" wah . bagos eh skolah i .. haha "
" tu laa . daaa laaa . pi blek ."
" oh kayy lorrr . bbyeeee "
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haha ! i know , my father is cool la kann ? haha . relax saa dier . hee . so yea . went home , slept like nobody's business & guess what ? mama laughed at my tragic incident too . haha .
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tuesday ; went to sch as per normal . PE was fun(: 15 homeruns oie for my team ! haha . instant homeruns . kekek saaaa . haha . aft recess , shaykh was disturbing me , and haikal went "amacam ? kita protect ot kiter per ?" haha . okayyy . da inside joke ah kay . sooo , aft sch , went to eeza's crib and had quality times tgt . hee . had another h2h talk la sey . hurr . talked while having our lunch :) so thennn . left and went to meet my abg angkat . aft diabaikan , was otw home when i terserempak-ed with abg rudy . hoho . he teman-ed me walk through the nite till the traffic light there . wah . so much for nk teman eh . dier menonong dulu tu ade ah =.=" oh yaa . saw nurra too . heh .
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wednesday ; went to sch & miracally , q came AND she reported late . wow ah kan . so yeaa . sch went on per normal , then aft sch went to by BOOOBLEH tea . haha . aft which i proceeded for chem remedial . was released early . went down & helped q writing her late comers' pledge . went to eeza's crib and waited for her to get ready & as soon as she did , we left to my homie . hehhh . got ready then left for civic to meet up with haikal , syafiq & unexpectedly , safwan too . studied and ard 730 we went for food hunting at banquet , foodcourt , then alas ; mcdonalds . haha . bought sushi aft that thennnnn went to chill chill a while with the 3 badots . fun oie ! serious shit nye bobal . first time out in 4 yrs of sec life . whoa rite ? hha . okay 4e1 yg kiter2 rocks ah sey . and andddd , i love my sec 4 life . hoho !
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today ; which is a thursday .. haha . was almost late for sch . 725 , i'm still at the seagate building . kimakkk ! ape lagi ? pataa blek ahh . haha . malas ah siaaa kalau lambat . abah pon okay go jer . to him , i'm old enough to think for myself . hehh . guess what ? daddy laughed at me again =.=" like fun gitu see me confident want go to sch . lol . anw . came home & guess what i did ? STUDIED . i revised my chemistry oie ! haha . from approx 8.45 all the way to 11.10 . stopped to watch tv a while anddd decided to finally update my blog .

anw , i couldnt believe that my close fren could think that i was trying to avoid [ insert name here ] from [ insert another name here ] . KIMSZX ! childish saaa . sorry tho , but you're chging . the chges are kinda vague , but but , it will be vividly shown .
* sape makan lada , dialah terasa pedas . dont terase IF you know that its not you . okay [ insert name here ] , i know y'know , but public dont know . so just shh shh okay ? okay best .
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okay . to spammer ; KENTAL KEPE ! takot pa mau letak name ? siulszx . zaman mane sa mau hate tag abeh spam spam ? dok . kau bape tahon saaa ? BBN pe ! hoho . GET A LIFE MAN ! that is IF you even have one . :)

2009-04-18T06:58:00.000-07:00

so well uhms . skipped training on friday cause i was sorta worn out aft coming back from kakak's convocation . heh ! reached home and slacked instead . hha . pictures will be updated when aku rajin ah kay . hoho .

and today , which is a saturday was being spent with my family(: went to serangoon broadways to snap pics of family & kakak . and we'll be having another photoshoot tmr . yay ! but that's with another company ah . heh . and oh ya . will be having the session[s] for one of the lessons which is learning to make-up . afterwhich when i'm done with it , gonna take up the phototaking lessons , thenn finally , photoshop lessons . heee .

back to the story , aft the shoot at S.B , went to eat at IMM . had 1/2 of fish & chips and mama pushed her nasi padang to me . huhu ! kenyang siulszxx . aft eating , jalan2-ed at daiso (: hurr . damn fun sia . ard 6 , all of the girls's leg were alrd numb cox we were wearing heels . nyeheh . headed home and did the logarithum [ i think i spelled it right ] worksheet . hha . got it done & here i am ; blogging(:

okay gonna end here . peace outt !

* q ! come school on monday okayy . and uhm . my tank has grown dan AKU SEKARANG LAPAR . haha . okay bye . :D

2009-04-17T15:45:00.000-07:00

hha . Okay , im currently updating using my brother's hp at SIM . Cool rite ... I know , he he . Skipped sch today to attend kakak's convocation . Haha . Siak je amir . Its called a robe , not bju hantu . Hha . And no , they do not throw their cap thingy in the air and neither do they step on it in spore . We are civilised peeps ah kay , huhu .

So yeaa . Ytd was darling q's birthday . Hee . Told darling we haddd nothing for her in which we totally lied .. :D anw , gave q a pencil case with the writing 'do i look like i freaking care' or smth like that ah , hha . So totally q kannnn ? Hee . So yeaa . Had breakfast with q and syai in the mawning . Eeza tk dtg , she paitao , hhaha . Izmil ? No comments . Drifting apart as days pass . Eversince izmil mix with the others , member lupa member siulszx . CURSE YOU . hmpfh . So yes , i miss those times when izmil was with us . Jiwa due minit ah lu boi . Nabeh . Mintak kene rejam sama aku .

Anw . Back to q , happy birthday aye darling ! Aku sayangggg kau byk2 .. 3 yrs plus of fs ah ey ? Huhu . Might have another belated present for you ah tau . Hee . And i know my letter for you touched your heart kannn . He he . Oh , uhm , hope you had fun in sch ytd . Hope your birthday was an enjoyable day . Hope ytd was a blast for you . Hope you went back home with your heart smiling endlessly . Hope things will go on fine for you . Hope your nt quiting .. Haha . I should stop the hoping , irritating gitu . And yeaa . I miss q and q miss me too . Yay ! Even when we were to meet ytd , we had an hour talk the nite before to catch up on everything . Hurhur . I really wish q would cntinue . Im gna miss her hell loads and feel damn kekok ahh . So okay .. Nice to finally being able to have a 'date' with you aft sch ard np and the library , hhaha .

Grr . Updating using hp is tirering . Hehe . Okay bye korang . Oh yeaa , SAYANGGGG KAU BYK2 , NUR QURAISHA BTE RIDWAN aka DARLING aka SISTER aka MAK TIRI aka LOL MASALAH PERBADI aka SUDU GARPU aka MISS CONFIDENT . Mwahx !

And pokerface , endure ah kay . For evth bad that occurs , you'll get smth gd in return . Semua ada hikmahnya . Cheer up(:

2009-04-14T07:46:00.000-07:00

hoho . happy birthday papa !(:
lovesmisses .
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okay i cant believe tmr is wednesday , so the what the hell you know . FTW , heh . anyways . countdown oie ! 16 april = Q'S birthday . heeee . aku miss kau siulszxxxxx . yayy ! tk lama lagi dpt meet kau . haha . i'm so gonna hug you saa . hee .

and and i'm loving 4e1 more and more [ referring to the melayu + shamini ah kayy . the kite2 jerr ] . eheh . we're like so bonded . better yet , most of us are those with low frequency . alahai . reception tk kuat ah , sorry yo . haha .

anyhoos . i'm out of math srp , i think . haha . tknk confident sgt cox it will then prove to eeza that aku niehh , MISS CONFIDENT . huhu ! and and , i miss smiqa alot alot ): thursday pls come faster faster . uhms , i feel like skipping sch tmr . okay bye . haha .

2009-04-11T10:27:00.000-07:00

alrite . i simply took this from irni's blog ,haha .well this was us in the toilet at SGH . heh . get well soon aye kak bella(: and uhm , yea . we ate alot ytd , haha . no wonder we're putting on weight ! lol . anyways , i had fun :D

and so today , slept almost half of the way . was planning to go chongpang with abg but in the end both gt lazy to travel . haha . insteadddd , this 3 siblings went to causewaypoint to have dinner at kfc .haha . window shopped awhile then went home . okay home is kinda fun wtht parents + that IB . heee . i kinda miss mum and dad tho . anyhoos . they're reaching home soon . hurr . there's gonna be no more fun alrd . okay time check ; 1.42am . gonna doze off alrd . nitey nitex !~

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alrite . b4 i go , let me just say a few words to q .,
uhm babe , try and endure ah kay . anyth i'm here for you . and if you decide to [insert what you wanna do here] , then its your choice . but hur ! nnt aku loner ahh . no more mus-q anymore . just the Mus wtht the q . hurr . meaning to say aku telah diabaikan . heh . nehmind laa , i cant be an egoist rite ? so its your decision(: anyth beep . toodles .

2009-04-10T10:30:00.001-07:00

alrite , one word ; ARGH .
yea . i'm lost & confused . i seriously do not know what to do . okay peeps . i've officially crashed & burn . my life is nvr gonna stop giving me problems huh ? i hate you , life . you suck . sooner or later , i think i'm gonna give up . kay you fucktards out there , dont bother asking me why cos i'm not gonna tell(: alrite drop the topic .
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today was a day out with irni . FINALLY . haha . gosh i miss having crazy moments with her . so yea . we met up and went to visit kak bella at SGH . heh . sat there , chatted awhile then headed for lunch . left only at approximately 5 ? i think . nehh . maybe 430 .. haha . made our way to esplanade & bought snacks along the way . snacked then studied(:

afterwhich at 710 , we stopped and camwhored . haha . we pretty much laughed our hearts out . too much crazy / embarressing / funny moments to be explained . haha .

all i know is that i met a girl with a funny way of laughing & i had fun :D

i'll probably update a proper one tmr , i'm utterly not in the mood now . toodles .

2009-04-09T06:57:00.000-07:00

let me start with napfa(:

haha . me & irni , power i tell you . aft sch [tue] , we waited for 3.30 , but it seemed farrr , so we slept at the canteen bench . muahaha . syiokkkkk ! so anw , our first station was situps . we did exactly 30 and stopped . the guy who timed for us seemed shocked tho . aha . i could tell why . its not even 1 min yet , and we stopped confidently . ehe . eyka cute ah ! muke blood shot red seyyy . haha .

second station ; standing broad jump . mine was 216 , power ehh ? i dint expect that siaa . haaa . third station was sit n reach . i got c ! yay me (: 39 oie . cun cun je sa . hhaha . 4th station ; inclined pullups . me & irni did a very fast one , in which i think only took us ard 20 seconds , and that girl who timed us went " ehhh ! why you stop ? " haha .

last station ; shuttle run . wahh . my fav . the guy ahhhh . BO PIAN AH !

"are you ready ?"
* i looked at him ,and i wasnt even ready AT ALL ah kay*
"are you ready ? ready ?.. okay one ... twoo ... "
"eh wait la ! i haven even get to the starting line saa "
"oh okay okay . uhm , ready ? okay one ... two ... ready anot ? kay one ... twoo ... "
"eh wait laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa !"
"oh okay ... uhm .. kay ready ? onee ... twoo ... ready anot ? one ... twoo .. uhm kay GO "

at the 'uhm' , i ran halfway and returned back . ahaha ! false start siaaa ! wth =.=

okay retry went like this ;

"ready ? okay , one ..."
"eh , relax ah . you like dont want to me chance saa ."
"aiya okay la . you count la ."
"okay . nehmind . can count alrd (: "

- haha . okay soyalszxx ! timing was 10.3 ? and my brake sucked . haha . terlajak siket .

the 2nd attempt lagi siak . when u've gotten the thingy , you have to ran back to put it on the other side ah kan ? but it has to be behind the line , right ? yaa . i took the first one , confidently nk letak on the other side , then kannn . i tot it dint get behind the line . and so ... i ran like 2 strides , stopped . looked behind . said "oops" . then continued =.=" i know i'm weird . L0l.
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alrite wed was my super talk cock day . i had to live another day without my darlings . hurr . Q ! aku rindu kau . hrmphs . anyhoos , physics srp , i talked cock with eyka (: haha . damn kecoh saa we all . buat physics paper , ikot fav letter , LOGIC TAK LOGIC , and uhm , maen tikam buta jer . haha . at lastttt , dint do the wkst morias gave but insteadddd , we doodled on my organiser . best keper ! haha . sayangggg kauu eyka ! :D :D

aft that , went to chill chill with twinnie . hur . long time tk chill chill eh ? haha . imy siaa . we talked alot alot ah that day ? i know ... perut boleh pecah kan nan aku ? huahua . fun laaa oie nan kau , altho its pretty much me who creates the kecoh-ness . *smiles*

anyway today was a shortttt dayyyy . haha . physics 2 period ; bobal mepek with eyka and continued our doodlings . hahaha ! social studies , ho was absent . hurr . aku nan irni daa semangat nk pi sick bay siulszx ! haha . so okay . free period was 4E1 malay gang urut session . guess whose the tukang urut ? me . haha . shaykh lagi power . sampai terlentok2 . huahua . second was irni , then haikal , then eyka . the whole 40 minutes , i urut them . penat oie ! luckily today no srp .
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okay this sucks to the core . i just fuckingly found out that kak bella is in the hospital . wth ? i'm most probably am going to visit her tmr with irni . yay ! esok keluar nan irni , haha . it has been a longgg time since i last went out with her saa .heh ! so yea, visting then go studyy , then watch the night skyy cause i'm in loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee with the night/morning sky , stars & the beautiful moon . seriously , it just calms me down . & i freakingly wanna see a rainbow ! hmpfh ! anw , i miss poker face alot alot . haha .

okay bye .
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darling q ! imyssm la oie . and uhm , hang in there ah kay ? hope i get to meet you tmr . syg kauuuu !
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2009-04-05T03:55:00.000-07:00

hello gondol[s] (:
its been prolly a week since i've last updated . hoho . have been busy with homeworks and stuffs . i barely have time to even surf the net . Alas , i'm done with this week's hwks . well , sorta . my pure lit is still undone . i've got no idea on how to answer the ques . ofc laaaa . the extract is in my midsummer night book which is with amir =.="

was suppose to get it back on friday ; in which i was absent . eheh . lazy uh babe wanna attend sch . siulszx ! half dah saaa . tk kuase nk travel jauh2 stakat untok berape jam , then come home . i mean , c'mon la . might as well put it as a holiday la kann .

so yea . friday ; eezaaa had some problems with someone in which i wasnt quite sure whats the name . and itu minaaa , step maner peih fene otp la tau . abeh bile jumpe , bobal baik2 ah siol . wth la kan ? dah gitu tkp , mau mintak one on one nan eezaaa . okay i know my twinnie aint that strong , tapi tk perlu siol . naseb baik dier tk mintak one on one , with me realising it . kalau tk .. choy ! aku masuk campur jugak sey . but seriously , ini hal merepek . humairah another one ; why in the world should you say that if she wants your kakak angkat , must go thru you ? think la whye . do you even think that you can angkat that girl ? if you think you're damn kuat , are you even sure of that ? dah gitu tkp . itu pompan sumer turon , stakat mau dgr kau angkat paiseh and you wanna say that in private ? c'mon la . you wasted our time la tau .
*paiseh eh pakai labels . tk igt name ah . ^^

yea . whatev . aft that thingy , sent eza , q & humairah down to 965 & when their bus came , eza's mp3 was left with me . haha . went up , & terserempak with solihin . dint tegur or what la . he smiled , so i smiled back(:

returned back home , and did whatever that was needed then off i go for training . hehe . training was seriously slack that day . i suker !! :D nurra & nina wanted to spa with me again BUT aku malas ah . sorryyy . maybe next week . maybe je eh . haha . kalau lah aku rajin . and soooo . aft trng , walked with zuliana to marsiling mrt and teman-ed her to 7 11 . had a talk with her . hmm , yada yada yada , reached home at ard 11 , showered , then went to sleep .

saturday ; was suppose to go out with iqa irni & dian . BUT i had to go out with my family . hurrr . shan't update much for that day as there's nth much to elaborate for that dayy . just that it was another disapointing day . but overall it was fine .

today ; believe it or not , i did my hwks(:
i'm a good girl for today . he he . okay i seriously wanna go out ! i'm bored to death .
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wohoho ! someone's birthday is coming ! haaaa .
16 april , birthday sape ehh ? he he he .

okay bye .
slamat semua !

2009-03-28T08:20:00.000-07:00

and soooooo , me & syai made the grand entrance today . hahaha ! STAR KARAT siuls . heh , we went to millenia institude with the rest of the malay students who bothered to pay 5 bucks and attend it . sasuey siaaaaaa pergi ! well , not really . the event was utterly hilarious . seriously . we pretty much laughed all the way . especially when one of the actors pointed out to the crowd and called this women , pe'ah . the moment he said that , i swear to God's name . u can only hear 4 girl's laughter in which they were sya , iqa , dian and of course ; me .DUH . its crystal clear . HAHAHA . those who dint went for these event , you guys really wasted the joy of laughing at their jokes . LOL . the show was overall F-U-N but L-O-N-G . aft the show ,had lunch . daaaaa . FULLSTOP . let the pictures do the rest (:

good dayyyy buggers .
peace out .
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pout ! hha.

teeth & big eyes ,pls !

this is my darling cat(:

2009-03-27T09:58:00.000-07:00

i feel soooooo shacked !

oh , to hell with that . haha . so well , tuesday was one hell of a tirering day . sch went on wtht Q , hur ! kene abandon by her . sad huh ! still had the cheeks to call me up aft sch & ajak meet up . grrr ! hahaha . so yeah . met up with her & fasya with amir & yazid . walked ard np & went home . as soon as i reached & got chged up & had some things done ... SAAAAAAAAAAAAAAPPPPPPP ! tetido .. haha . that was prolly ard 7.30 ? guess what ? i dint wake up for sch the next day and only woke up ard 10 . thats thanks to amir for disturbing my sleep . grr !

mama : eh , tk pi sku ?
me : aah laa .. haha . mama pon tk kejut ..
mama : daa . tapi you tk bgn .. ah , tkp . mama nk turon , nk ikot ?
me : tknk ah .. malas .. mama bungkuskan ley ?
mama : okay . tp mama tk beli kan nasi lemak au . tk sedap ahh ..
me : haha . okay okay .

* slack ah my mum ! ahaha

so yea . showered , watched tv while waiting for mum to come back with breakfast and when she did , i was pretty much worn off . haha . ate , and aft prolly half an hour , i slept AGAIN . wth ? 7pm - 10am , 1230pm -4 pm . choy ! btol peih maot eh aku . huahua . anw , woke up and showered again . ish ! waste water ah aku . so yeaaa , did my cf curve hwk , and ended only at 10pm . sad kan ! hurr . anw . came to sch on thurs , being restless . padehal i had a good rest the day before , umm . sort of ah . sch ended , and had srp from 230-630 .wth ? did 4 whole essays , with 2 whole essays for correction . tgn numb la oi ! naik gila aku pat ava theatre . grr . and so , i left early cause i finished all . haaa . 10 minutes early , pathetic . anyhoooos , daddy fetched me with his van that day , then amir texted me .

amir : eh where you ?
me : dalam van ah .
amir : heh . kenapa ? kene kidnap ker ? haha .
me : siol . no la . abah fetch me .

=.=" nabeh . haha .went home feeling superbly uneasy . mama was forcing me to sleep but i cant . i had lotsa hwk to get it done by the next day . shitto siol ! haaa . finally , decided to sleep . before sleeping i told mama , " incase if i do not wanna wake up tmr , dont force . i most probably am gg to stay home and studyyyyyy " and gues what ? both mama and abah said okay . lol . well , serious shit ah . i was feeling damn uneasy . my back was aching like tooot and my chest hurts alot :( sadd kannn . hurrhurr . so yeaaa .

had trng today . one word to describe it , P-A-N-C-I-T !
ahaha . siul jerrrrrrrrrrrr . had to spa with nurra . kehhhhwakkkkk . tkley angs ! aku daa pancit , abeh suro aku spaa ? haiyooo ! nvm , at least i made it thru ! * applause *

huahua . a convo with zulaiha ;

" ehhh . asal tk masok inter grasio ? "
" hur , kau gila ? tknk ah . "
" eh kau fight bagos perrrr .. "
" ah ye la tuh .. "
" oh , aah eh . mesti paham2 .. budak BARU KANNNN ."
* action to slap her *
" hahaha . eh , btol per ! kau fight baek ah . FYI , that time aku spa kau , tgn . aku . BENGKAK ! "
" hah . serious ? "
" aah ah ! btol kate kawan2 kau , penumbuk kau maot , hahahaha "
* gives her the =.= kinda face *
" kau tk caye , ader byk witness .. eh asrul ! dier fight baek kan ? "
" aah . out of hundred , aku bagi 69 . eh tk tk . 70 .. "

=.="

zzz ! i fight like toot and you say i fight gd . haha . thanks tho(:
white belt oi , white belt . sape kate white belt yg baru tkley make it ? haha . boley auu ! hahahahaha (:

okay peace . aku nk tdo ! nitenite :D

2009-03-23T07:35:00.000-07:00

" Life is the sum of experiences that we encounter as go through life . Day to day to struggles and triumphs are experienced by all of the world's creatures . As human beings , when we encounter a challenge, we have freedom to choose how to react . Every decision that we make leads us down another road . We will never come to exactly the same crossroads . Every decision the we make has significance . The tiniest choice that is made reverberates throughout the entire universe ."

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firstly , today is really a flushed day . i was really energy-less . hha . so yea , came to sch with amir today cause my sch shoe was with him . had assembly which was a drag & aft that , we had spot check . standard .. first day of the term . well yea . i passed(:

" wahh .. good ahh .. your hair black .. " - mrs heng

zzz . wahlao . she sounded like as tho she was expecting me to come with brown hair . grr . i'm a good student okay , huahuahua . anyhoos , i'm not sure why i felt 'not in the mood' of sch & whyyyyy i felt super duper truper restless today . argh whatev- la .

[ maggie is freaking annoying me ]

aft sch , went to lepak with amir , daddie & yazid . suprisingly , that mambang was there . oh , that pe'ah(palat) peih mataer ah . the look of his face just irritates me and i aint quite sure why . prolly its cause of what he said abt me behind my back , the fact that he betrayed his friends lots of times and he still has got the cheek to admit to be one of em , PENTINGKAN NONOK & MATIKAN MEMBER , his mataer is like one shitto cause she created up the story that i wanna rembat her when i was right infront of her [ in which if i wanted to , i would have done it cause she's alrd infront of me ] and that mambang could say ; dier kalau nk , go thru i dulu uh etc .
like , whatever la sey . sum it all up , he sucks(: oh wait , no . the couples suck(: ... big time ! yeaa .

left at ard 5.40 and reached home at 6.50 , i think . i was literally dragging my feet to walk home . it felt like walking at a songkah =.=" my goodness ! i dint think i'll be this flushed . grr . anw , went home & as soon as i hanged my skirt up , i fell asleep on my bed till i got woken up by a waited msg . haha ! yeaa . woke up , cleant myself , killed time by watching tv , ate , and here i am ; blogging . another way to kill time .

well , most prob i wont have to waste time . i'm gg to bed now , i feel atrociously worn out . goodnite & peace out !

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cousin's outing

2009-03-22T08:00:00.000-07:00

daddy cooked today ! yay !
sambal udang . FUH ! i sukerrrrr ! ( with the sleng ehhh )

21 march(:
this is indeed a delirious day for me . ALAS , i finally joined my cousins for an outing . dad's side okay . haha . puhlease ! i wont bother to join in if its from my mom's side . firstly , its cause they're stuck up . secondly , they're tremendously proud . lastly , they're those whom you will say , sombong nak mampus . yeah . basicly thats it . oh well , the outing consisted of nad , nat , batul , malik , aiman , nas , aimi & eeza [ aisyah's missing ] hurr .

and so , we went to vivocity , but before that i went to meet eeza at her homie & proceeded to meet amir for breakfastlunch [ err . its smth you guys wouldnt understand ] . we terhegeh2 and only left yishun prolly ard 1.50pm . hha . promised to meet 1.45 , and thats the time i left =.=" ohhh , i'm b-a-d at being p-u-n-c-t-u-a-l . it runs in the family , cause ALL of us actually came LATE . to my amazement , i was early . yes , early . athough it was considered late la . he he . one by one came and when all has reached , bought tickets and we went to watch dragonball . nadiah ; yesyes . the movie was indeed an interesting one . goku is hawtttt ! haha . neh ! jensen ackles is still so much better . to be exact , he's really , really hawt . he's the kind that makes you go gugugaga . fuh ! aft the movie , we were hunting high and low for coffee bean . haha . aft getting em , went to play water in which i totally dint plan to get wet . BUT , thanks to my dearest cousins , i was drenched . i got wet from head to toe . grr , they were pulling , pushing & splashing water at each of us . totally causing disaster . haha . i'm proud to admit that they are my cousins(: & i love them , haha . anyhoos , we played water for approx-ly 2 hours after which we went to get chicken cutlet for dinner . heee . done & we headed home with warm hugs(:

"haii .. rajin ya bik ... " -malik
"kau diam ! dah baik aku nk tolong keringkan baju kau! " -nad
*sambil smacking malik with the baju*
"aduh ! stop ! sbelom aku PENCAT KAU ! " -malik

hahahah ! it was suppose to be pecat . lol .

* malik hugged me and turned me round & round . pantat ! haha . seram oi ! *

today , went for the belting test . i literally learn almost EVERYTHING , again . mainly cause what we learnt was different from his ; abg zamri , i think . so yeaa . one thing for sure , i'll pass . But sad to say , i wish to say as a white belt . not to be what la .. but still , i dont want to be what they say , kerek pasal dah naik . i mean , okay .. yellow is good enough for me . but green ? nah . i'll think ten times before actually going for it . hey , green is actually by fact , good . too good for me . hmm , anyway . i found out smth that my abg said abt me . [ my blood brother ]

"aku nak spa ngan adek kau ah"
"kau dah tkde keje?"
"haha ! tkd la . tapi adek kau nieh takut nah nk spa .."
"kau kene tunggu die marah baru boleh"

- a convo of him . haiyo ! haha . oh well , yes . i admit , thats me . anger is what motivates me . oh hell to this . i'll spa when i feel like it(:

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my dear twinnie , call me if there's anyth okay .. heh . whatever it is , listen to your heart .. although things may seem vague to you right now , let time show you a bigger picture .. "it'll all get better in time".. i know how it feels ; falling for someone so deeply , and watching that person chg to a total someone you dont even know .. it hurts , alot . better yet , that person has got no inkling of the magnitude as to how much they've hurt you & how much they mean to you . haish . ily twinnie .. cheer up aye .

" the longer it is , the more hurt you'll be .
but the longer it is , the more you learn of each other "

~ i dont wish this to happen to me again . i'm not ready ... at all ..
when you said ; this will soon happen to me in the train , i could feel my heart pump faster and faster . i know that i cant bear the pain . not at all , okay . everyone has got their weakest points . words that come from a special , treasured friend like you , it feels like a dagger being stabbed into my heart . do you have any idea of it , dear friend ? no . idk laa eh , but all i know , i love my friends . including you , and i dont wish to lose you just like that . pls la .. you mean alot to me , but those words makes me feel so .. idk . lets cut it short ,
i feel h-u-r-t . buttttttt . ily , friend .

"simpan you sampai mati.."
okay , maybe i will .

okay bye .
badan ku akan cerai bersama nyawa ku tidak lama lagi . hah !

2009-03-16T21:54:00.000-07:00

i'm sorry to budge into other's peep nyer problem . But but but , i cant accept
it when you talk like that abt my CLOSE FRIEND .

take note : close friend .

need a picture image ? here it is . hha ,

NUR QURAISHA AKA ADEQ , IS MY C L O S E F R I E N D ,

alritey ! i aint gonna talk muchhhh . so how abt you guys go to their blog ,
and have a look at it .

http://missmindurownlife.blogspot.com/
http://www.th-chaptersofmyfairytale.blogspot.com/

so yes ,
4E1 / SEC 4 CREWS ! MUST SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE !
ini pasal Quraisha whye ! haha .
aku peng ! aku peng ! aku tk kisahh . aku mau jumpe ini minahh biler bukak skolah . aku sikit pon tidak heran . TUI !

2009-03-14T09:24:00.000-07:00

[prepare for an essay , hahaha ! ]

first & foremost , i shall apologise to dearest darling cause i left sch ytd wtht meeting her . but she came sch late ! hur . i was super bored + irritated with my throat , resulting me to get annoyed of staying in sch . i'm not sure why , but i just wanna get away from sch . heh ! secondly , sorry to those who feel that i'm shouting over the phone when talking to you guys . but as you can see right now , my voice is a rocker . and when i try to talk normally , haha . i swear you wont be able to neither hear nor understand a word i'm saying . if lets say you feel that its already hard to understand me talk even when i'm already forcing myself to voice up louder , its worse if i dont . way wayyyyy worse than this . heh . thirdly , i've got less than a week to meet up with those i'm missing oh-so-much & i dont think i've got that much time . * sighs *

this is the plan , monday ; cousins outing .
tuesday morning , srp ; aftnoon , not sure yet .
wednesday morning , srp , again . aftnoon ; meeting up with one of my cuzzie whom i'm missing super duper truper & all the 'uper'[s] at the back , alot . grrr . cuzzie's gonna leave on the 23rd if i'm not mistaken , to somewhere which i myself am not sure of . hha . i suck with informations . hehe .
thursday morning , another srp , AGAIN . suckish y'know . aftnoon ; maybe meeting up with iqul . not so sure of that plan yet .
friday & saturday , i'm pretty much free , i guess . except for fri night , i've gt training .
sunday ,maybe i'm gg to a friend's performance . hmm .

i still need to fit in a whole dayyyyy , to finish up all my holiday homeworks . although the tasks can be written onto a small piece of paper , its by fact equivalent to a whole precious day of mine . * grins *

next is an outing with SIQA . hur . i want a smiqa outing real bad . i miss having fun with yall . hmpfh .

lastly is one whole day to actually rest my body & brain . or else , hha . i think i'm gonna be a sayur .

alrite . let me update you guys who bother to read my blog for the 411 . well , friday morning , woke up due to abah's sudden unintended shouting , asking me what time i wanted to go to sch . wth ? that gave me one hell of a shock , okay . sooner or later , i think i can have heart attack . oh well , since i couldnt get back to my peaceful sleep , i showered and got ready . eventho kakak has alrd showered before me , i got ready soooo much more earlier than her . hha . i could even watch her get ready =.=

i know i could have done smth much more meaningful , but hey ! its fun watching her siap . hahaha . okayyy thennnnn , kakak sent me to sch to take my results . you know what ? she could have accompanied me up to class and lessen my burden to wait so long in order to get my hrc , but no . she dint want to cause she's obviously lazy & yes . she cant really be bothered abt it . haha .

well here's the coolest part ever . haha . i scored 2 aces .
A2 for both pure lit & english .
wait , here's the suckiest part . i could have scored an A1 for english but i dint cause i lacked of 1/2 mark . i mean , half mark siul ! kalau 2 ke , 3 marks , its fine la . but , argh . well , no point crying of spilled milk . hmpfh .

i counted for my l1r5 , & guess what ? its 14 points . grrr ! if only , i can score this well for my o's . i wish , i hope & i will try ! Insya Allah .

anw , left sch with az to meet amir & company . chilled till approx 1050 & went to send az to her block cause she wanted to chg . while waiting , me & the rest were chilling at her void deck . had a good laugh with them . AND AND ! i think acap's major laugh is utterly adorable ! hha . waited & finally ! az came .. bussed our way all the way to my home & she was afraid of coming up . =.=
she was aftaid that abah would get angry , heh ! hell no . my dad wouldnt mind at all ler babe . hha .got ready and stuff ..

compliments of the day from az : i think your sister is pretty & your brother is hot .

wohoho ! thank you very much(:

well , abg sent us to civic eventho he's alrd late . hha . how nice of him . hha . see la ! adeq nye pasal au . huahua . made our way to 351 cause sheril wanted to meet us there . reached , & guess what ? she's at cwp . lol . asaped our way to cwp & met up with her at kfc . went to hunt for az's shades & sundress but we managed to only get her shades in which suits her . heh . terserempak-ed with abg epul & zulaiha . hha . sheril left with amaliya to asap & dint came back . zzz . nehmind , at least she's having fun , right ? anyhoos . went to get my cheng tng at banquet . i saw abg epul again , this time with kak shakinaz . cute couple know ! envious . *if there's even such word .

oh well , continued to search for a top for az . sadly , its to no avail . nth caught her eye .oh , i terserempak-ed with azmi , then papa & fee . hmm , prolly ard 5 , she made her way home while i went to abg faruq's hse . stayed till 7 40 & cabbed my way to gelanggang . haha . was afraid i'd be late .

training was overall enjoyable . was planning on gg home early but .... due to my darling abg & abg rudy , they were both having fun talking to each other that me & zuliana had to wait for them to end their convo and let me think , thats kinda ard 113o alrd =.=
drg dua , mcm sudah kenal lama gitu . haha .

well , my voice is still rocking my life in case you guys dont know . better still , its rocking my life even more aft training . i think i strained it too much cause i talked alot today , haha ! i'm talkative okay . huahua .

alrite , today . i woke up , showered , had breakfast & slept , & woke up again , & slept again , woke up , & showered again . well , this process ate 3/4 of my day(:
thats how i killed my day today . haiyo . well , aft that ... went to cwp with kakak to eat . was superbly hungry by then . had chicken cutlet noodles . has been ages since i had that . hurr ! terserempak-ed with siddiq & some other guys whom idk what their names are . heh ! one of the guys wanted my num , butttt . he he . sorrryy tk kasih. hee . went to get myself a bag . a treat from kakak(: woohoo . i loveeeee my kakak to bits & pieces . heee . went home , and before that , went to get ourselves some tidbits .he he .

reached homie at ard 9 ? or maybe 9 30 .. i'm not that sure of the timing . all i know is that we were planning on watching a movie , but ...... slowly one by one fell asleep . to be exact , not slowly . once the movie started , they fell asleep =.=
kakak wanted to watch unborn , & since we couldnt get that online & the search took lots of our time , we gt tired & picked out a movie at random ; bled . this movie could be watched but the buffer was so slow that just 3 minutes of the show took up half an hour & instead , we picnic-ed in the room . haha . chged the movie to ; marea goes to jail , or smth . too interesting that all was asleep with just 5 minutes of the show rolling. cool rightttt . haha . in the end , i wanted to bride wars . but the buffer , was another killer ! finally , i decided to blog instead of waiting for snow in spore =.=

PANTAT . when nk tgk movie , tkd movie best best . when tknk tgk .... its flooded with fun movies . grr ! its exactly 130 right now & my quest to update my blog for ytd & today is done . ANDDDDD i dont think i can sleep . hur !

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was online just now & this happened ;

pliers in heasd said: mmm
' mimi - said : ?
pliers in heasd said: elo buat pe??
' mimi - said : i dont think i know you .
pliers in heasd said: mmm
pliers in heasd said: then make frens
' mimi - said : and secondly , i somewhat cant be bothered to . =.=
pliers in heasd said:
ok lah bubuye

ouch . that gotta hurt , hahaha !

okay . signing offfffff ,
mimi(:

2009-03-12T08:18:00.000-07:00

ooh lala ! my voice is super sexayyyy .
hhaha . okay , i'm losing my voice . sucks know ! omg laa .

okay , i'm gonna make this post a very very very short one . anyhoos .. sch felt
short . haha . i aint sure why . hmm , proly cause its a thursday ? oh well . all i
know is nothing interesting happened today . aft srp , amir sent me to woodlands .
yayy ! haha . maceh amir ! yazid accompanied us too . thanks ehh(:

you guys rock to the max . hee .

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we'll be getting our results tmr , arghh . hope my results are better . mudah
mudahan tkd fail seyy . argh . failure is so gonna demotivate me . heh ! i think so
ah . hha .

ehh , yall better bring your portfolio & organiser & the target setting auuuuu .
haha (:
peace peace .

* changed the blogskin into a simple & plain one , hur . using this for the moment cause the other one has bore me =.=
sadly , i cant seem to find smth that attracts me , haiyo .

2009-03-11T06:58:00.001-07:00

alriteyy . i came sch today despite the fact that i wasnt feeling well . haiyo . th
headache is killing me sey . anyhoos . i found out that yesterday , 5 of the malays
dint attend sch . hha . me , q , atiqa , dian & syafiq . great right ? the back area will
look so empty siaa . heh . i wonder how sch was wtht us . all i know is , i should
apologise to shaykh cause he was all alone during geo elective & i know how it feels
to be like that . sorry yo ! and and . i just found out today that dian's grandpa passed
away on sunday . my goodness ! she dint inform me . instead , she informed eyka
on the hoping that she'll inform the rest =.="

me : ey babe . asal dah lame tk dtg squ ?
dian : atok aku meninggal ahh .
me : ah ? aku salah dgr ke ? jap jap . repeat ..
dian : tak la .. atok aku meninggal ..
me : HEH ! biler ?!
dian : sundayy ..
me : alerrmakkk . asal tk bilang aku seyyy ..
dian : aku dah bilang eyka .. ntah ah dier ..
*turns her head to eyka*
dian : alamakk eyka ! kau nieh ! lokek information ah ! ishx .

hah . and so , beginning of the day , haiqal & syafiq was almost caught by dagu
panjang for being late cause they just stepped into class like their father squ gitu .
hha . siaq jer drg .

started the day out with pure lit . 2 periods siul . luckily i love lit classes . forever
fun sey . today was kinda short tho . cause we had to do one 25 mark que for
unseen prose . and damn was it difficult . mananged to finish late la . hha . dian too .
she seemed to be struggling more than me actually . heh ! next , we had e math .
alamaq ! blom buat correction for file check , heh ! kkeh tkp . hmm , i found out that
si dagu panjang came for e math ytd . fuhyo . naseb aku tk dtg eh . i just cant stand
the look of his face . IRRITATING BASTARD . argh . he sucks la . to the max ! so
fine . elec , free period , recess , we kecoh2 in the canteen .. hha . ss , free period ,
physics , boring as per usual . a math , baca buku new moon . choy ! rajin kann akuu !
i know ! (: so yea . eng , just do journal entry . hur . aft sch , wanted to go home , cause
i was getting one of the killer headaches .. and i mean it , killer .

thankyou yazid & amir for the head massage . tho it was more of yazid who
massaged my head . hha . despite him being injured .. thankyou so so much ehh .
heeee .

had SRP . hesitated so much to attend it . argh . endured the whole lesson and went
home right aft it , & slept till prolly 9 . my goodness . damn long la kann ! hha . woke
up , cleaned myself up , eat .. & poof ! here i am blogging . hha . okay . its prolly
1040 now . i'm gonna rest , again . hha . penat ahh ! hurr . anyhoos . taking care yao peeps ! hha :D

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i cant wait for kak nana's wedding on july . heeee (:

2009-03-10T07:15:00.000-07:00

alrito , i'm finally updating . hha .
oh well , sat was one fucking disaster with my family . shan't elaborate on that . all i know is
that i hate that childish , pathetic girl . sometimes , i just wish i could kill you . argh .
to hell with you . anyhoos , stayed whole day on sunday . i wasnt really in the mood tho due to
the incident that took place the day before . hurr . that resulted to swollen eyes . hurr .
oh goodness ! i'm falling sick . :(
went to sch on monday , and hell yeah i was trying to endure the whole day . sneezed my day
out . lol . oh ya ! i passed the sec 4e1&4e2 spotcheck :D

mrs chew : alamak . you can afford to lengthen your skirt abit anot ah ?
me : hah . must alter somemore ah ?
mrs chew : * checking my skirt * aiya . now nonid la . but when you BIG alrd , must alter abit ah .
me : oh . okay okay . so i pass right ?
mrs chew : ya ya . okay sit down .
me : * smiles widely * haha .

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mr row rocks y'know ! hha . i simply love his literature class , but not so much when its eng .
kinda boring to me . hmm .. so yeap . went home straight aft sch & slept at home . he he he .
slept like nobody's business siaa . i was peacefully sleeping when mr lameass called me up ,
asking me to meet . well , okay . i did . we chilled till prolly 9.40 then made my way home
cause it was beginning to drizzle . and i'm alrd sick , so i should make an effort to avoid suck balak[s] . hha .

and so , today . i dint attend sch due to my bad headache + flu + cold + slight fever .
wanted to go to polyclinic , but ... i forgot to take cash from mommy & daddy . HEH ! well ,
its okay la . i'm just gonna have to give parents letter , again . haiyo ! me ahh .asyik lupa jer .
so yea . slept the whole with this headache which is worsening . okay i cant wait for one
week holiday . hee , sadly , holiday aint gnna be like holiday . there's gna be SRP here&there .
hur . all i know is , by hook or by crook , i'm gnna go out on monday with my cuzzies . whee ! i
miss them like gila you know; aiman , nad , nat , batul , aisyah . * malik ! pls make it . imy siul .

okay . i'm gonna end here , nak makan , then sleep . toodles ! :D

2009-02-28T08:48:00.000-08:00

peih susah nk upload gambar . ish ! anw ,

i miss this two guys , papa & iqul , hurr .

and i miss KL trip ! hurr .

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today's pic(:

mcm minah ker ? heh .
lawaa kannnnn . hahaha .
hot pa ? (:
LICK US . hahaha . xD
i look tembam ! argh.

=.="

369 ah whye!
' are you trying to make me look super tall ? '

' huh ? oh . kk . ambil one more time , he he he '

' ahhh . kan lawah sikit '

okay the end :D

2009-02-28T06:53:00.000-08:00

wohoho ! irni rocks baybeh ! haha (:
* must thank me for writing your name auu . hehe .

anw today was a simple but fun day . hee . alarmed at 7.50 am , snoozed till 8.10 am untill
irni msged me . hha ! i was literally hesitating to wake up siaaa . ISHX ! bathed & got ready .
msged irni while doing so . we planned to finish up our hwks , but end upp .. its the otherwise .

byk peih belajar eh babe ! hahah . we both ahh , haiyo !

=.="
met up with irni at her void deck , and guess what ?found out tt she hesitated to wake up
too . zzz . we both could have had a wonderful sleep siaa . but if we did , then today wouldnt
happen seyy . hha . anw , went to posb bank to withdraw irni's fulus . kesian her atuk .
semangat2 queue sampai pat luar . check2 , salah queue lerr ! alamaqq .

so instead , we went in to start queing while her atuk went to chill chill with his members .
aft withdrawing irni's fulus , went to get our breakfast . i had mcsausage grill , i think .
cool ahh tau . burger made of pancakes . hha .

and y'know what ? the person whom took our orders were super utterly energetic .
bebual ... FUH ! dengan penuh emosi . mata2 skali sey . besar lak tuh ! it was seriously
freaking me . hha . confirm confirm halfway her shift , she'll pancit . siak ajer ..

aft eating , standard ! camwhore . muahaha . took lots and lots of stupid pics . nyehe .
prolly ard 11 , irni bought a hashbrown for her atuk then went to meet him to pass him
that & her fulus[s] . aft which , we made our way to cwp & went to buy her needs .
kecoh seh ini dua minah . jalan .. kalau tk senyap , tk sempurna . ish ! aft getting her
needs , went to nokia shop to redeem my hp which i sent for repair ytd . heh !

there was this time , when irni wanted to seat auu . baru nk letak her butt , got one guy
came from the side and sat . irni was like , ' siak ah ! aku baru nk duduk . grrr . '
we were laughing our hearts out siaa .

anw , we went to timezone to play aft that . and yes , as per usual , we were like 2 clowns
there . haha . serious shit sia . first game was air hockey . due to our belloness , we waited
for the yellow thing to keluar but it dint . we stared blankly at other , prolly hoping for
a miracle to strike . but sadly it dint . haha . approached a worker that for help , and tadaaa !
the yellow thingy dah ader . hahaha .

second game was basketball , and the third was this smack smack thingy and fyi , thats for
young children .. as in really young . hha . and we were enjoying playing it . wohoho !
and kannnn . by luck , i found a free game ... and we lost =.="

aft timezone adventure , went to get deserts . guess what ? we went up to banquet escalator ,
and the moment we went up , we stood still , then went down . zzz . went to foodcourt for our
ice kacang . but kannnn ! ini dua minah kan .. peih semangat la nk queue .. abeh kan ..
check2 , kita salah queue lerrr . we were standing at the opposite direction .

" eh , asal mcm org nieh jalan salah direction ah ? " - me
" please queue here ....... " - irni , reading the sign , as our head followed the direction of
the arrow =.="
stared patheticly at each other , then laughed . ish . sakit jiwa betol . hha .

aft deserts , LEPAK ! standard ah , ape lg kannnn . huahua . aft lepak , went back homie .
heee .

tmr's plans : i have got silat picture taking .. grr ! malas to the max la sey !

irni oh irni ! haha . today was funfunfun . and psst , i miss those crazy moments we used to
share when we were in sec 1 & 2 . sumpah we both bello2 . haha . actually , until now pon ah.
huahua . anw , i'm loving these more and more . woho ! ily babe . (:
~so much for minah huh ? hurr . super selenger saa kene =.="

2009-02-25T22:36:00.000-08:00

okay i missed smth out when i last updated . my 2 fucking parents have changed towards
me . I dont know why , but they're being a pest . haiya ! long story ah . started out
from ytd . my m0ther is being a shitface , scolding me out of no reason .
stupid right ? and the other guy , expects me to stay home like one idiot .
keluar salah , tk keluar pon salah . kimakkk ! tidak diajar btol siol korang ! hey , fyi ehh ,
IF THIS HOUSE IS SOOOOO HEAVENLY , AND AINT A BORE ,
i wouldnt mind staying . serious shit la ! MY FAMILY SUCKS .
if lets say one day i decide to runaway from home and never come back , dont come
searching for me , cause i know " my family " wont even bother .
& lets say i were to commit suicide tmr , today , or whenever , just so you guys know ,
its because of this super IRRITATING FAMILY. i hate them but i love them .
at times i feel that i dont belong here . not here , not anywhere . suckish siol !
i thought family is suppose to understand you most ? but why is mine the opposite ?
is this or is this not my family ? hmm , maybe what SHE once said that aku nieh
anak kutip btol eh ? should be what . worst come to the worst , anak dier tertukar pat
hospital biler anak kandung drg telah diberanakkan . hmm , should be kan ?
oh heck . i swear , one day they'll regret treating me like one piece of dump .

NABEI CHIBAI ! PUKI KORANG PEIH MAK AH ! NINNAWIA !
AKU SUMPAH KORANG MEPEK ! sialan .

okay yall ,
thankyou for hearing me out(:
byeeeeeeeee .

2009-02-25T19:39:00.000-08:00

hha . it has been prolly a week since i've last updated . okay , i've got a special request from
a dear friend of mine . alright here goes .

IRNI ROCKS , IRNI ROCKS , IRNI ROCKS .
(:
yay ! irni rocks to the core ! hha .

anw , let me update slowly aye . i aint sure if my post is gonna be long , but standby je lahh kay .
last monday was 16 feb right ? well yea , skipped school . muahaha . i was feeling unwell .
serious shit peih bobal . stayed home , ngorok and did nth the whole day . finally , dpt rest .
hee . anw , HAPPY BIRTHDAY IZMIL ! eh mat , dah 16 kepe ?! dah dah . jgn aksyen ah .
aku sepak muke kaw , pekak au . haha . all the best in life aye . o' level mesti mau chiong !
:D

that was monday .. tuesday , sipi2 lambat for sch . AZIZAH CONFIDENT SIOL MEMBER
LAMBAT ! aha . check2 aku dah sampai . selenger btol nieh minah . Q lakk , tk tulis letter
for absent smalam , then when aku sampai , member happy sehh . haha . i know , i know ,
aku memang kaw peih heroine kan ? he he he . anw , sch went on as per normal . no kick or
whatsoever laa . aft sch , went to meet eeza . proceeded to chongpang initially to buy daun
pandan for kak gerl's nikah . but as soon as we reached , went to get drinks and ended up
eeza pra minyak abt angelene . okay , since my blog is private , limited peeps will know this .
hha . eeza was superbly binget abt how she was treated by her . its as though she's rubbish
and eeza is someone who can be used that kinda thing . and heyy , that girl kaki maki sey .
bobal aku sumpah demi Allah , tk beralas langsung . choy ! mcm mintak kaki aku melayang
pat muke die yg byk cantik tuh . and yeaa , eeza's mentally pressured guys . another MP .
sama nan aku , he he .twinnie mah ! mesti mau same kan babe ? he he . while we were busy
chatting , abg msged me asking abt whr to sell his ds lite . went searching for a shop and
left cp to meet abg at yishun south cc . but b4 gg to ys south cc , kite berhijrah pat ys north cc.
hha ! and yea , i know i said we went to buy daun pandan kan ? yup , we terlupe . and so ..
we went to NP instead to get em . as soon as we did , went to meet abg and watched him
trained . after which we went back to sell his ds . i got 10 bucks from abg(:
muahaha . thankyou abg ! hee .

wed , sch went on as per usual , BUT WITHOUT Q . grrr ! member bubble aku. hurhur .
nehmind2 . i'll still love my darling . hha(:
aft sch & srp , went straight to q's hse . otw , ternampak irni's sister lurpp . hha ! syahirah .
heh . shahzani was waiting for her at the bustop with his adeq . and yeaa . i suspected they
were shocked to see me there cos i could tell that they were looking at me from the side .
hell yea ! what do i care right ? anw , went up , watched anak metropolitan a while and there
was this fene , tall , thin guy which somehow reminded me of saifuddin . sorry irni . hha .
when it ended , went down with q & fasha to buy smth . was gg thru the carpark when q saw
shahzani . he said he was gg for soccer or what at wdlnds . okay fine , i dont really care anw .
was just asking cause someone wanted me to help . hha ! and guess what ? otw back to q's
hse , terjumpe syahirah at the playground plak . lepaked bawah awhile , went up , & siaped .
b4 gg to darul makmur , I SWEAR IT WAS SO FUCKING KECOH . sumpah aku tk tpu .
went to darul makmur , yada yada yada , then went back to q's crib . that was prolly ard
1030 . 2 hrs at the masjid . lame eh? haiyo . i'm gnna stop the day here . cos that day was
simply unspeakable . anw , reached this hell at 1130 , hha .

thurs , q skipped sch again , standard .. hha . i wanted to , but i dint . see ! i'm a gd girl .
h e h e . anw , had eng oral that day [ aft sch ] . mdm kaur was my invigilator . okay i'm
not sure if i spelled that right , but its looks like aligator. haha .
back to oral , i was super utterly nervous . but guess what ? mdm kaur said that i did well .
esp my picture convo . weird , pic convo was what i came unprepared for . heh !
aft oral , standard ah. chill ah ! tak kan mau bleq pi kandang anjing2 kan ?
tknk siol . itu tempat penuh dgn binatang yg tk jinak . HA-HA .

fri , q finally came sch but lambat . haha . siak jerr . i cant really rmb what happened
on this day , but i know we had silat which ended at 11 . and i sparred with zu . sorry babe
if got lembam here and there . heh ! you guys know what ? my FATHER , thought i lied
to him cause i came home late . fuckk kannn ! nb cb !

sat , went to taufiq's hse for the eating2 . eeza was alrd there , so yea . met up with them
there , and we left prolly ard 5 . went to np to buy clips & sushi then headed back to hell .
i know , saturday was a super short day la ! mendak babe , mendak . hha . mama abah
abg went to pontian . i wanted to tag along when i remembered abt kak gerl's makan2
session . meeting friends are so much more fun kay . family ? bullshit .

sunday ? i think i burnt that day either lepak-ing , or sleeping at home . tk igt ah babe .
paiseh ! hahaha .

well the monday that baru lepas . haha . aft sch , eeza menghilang kemana ntah and so me &
q went to chill with acap , amir & yazid . gave them free math tuition . it was on substitution .
amir was super lembab to tangkap it la! haha. stress babe . but tkp . kawan nyer pasal ,
boley endure ah . haha. anw . we had this talk abt suffiah & i was super fucking pissed .
jgn ckp palat , izzad pon aku peng ah siaa ! mau pa aku bawaq turon budak ? alamaqq .
utk si palat , tkya cari jaoh laa .. 4E1 boleh pecut sama aku la whye ! tknk 4e1 tkp. aku solo
pon boleh la kay . bukan aku nk step fene ah . tp kan , sorry ah minah . you've crossed the
fucking line . no one has ever made me damn pissed . not even azmira nor irni .
well , that was crite lame ehh . and yea . back then , all i had to do was nth . cos i werent that
pissed and i could still tahan . ARGH . bitch . i feel like smashing that palat's face .

anyone with me ? hha !
irni , q , eeza , amaciam ? on pa? ?(:

tues , went eeza's hse . met fidiyani & adeq . atlast babe ! haha . rindu ah siol . anw . went
back to this zoo slightly early that day . and y'know what ? it was damn sejuk lor !
& i felt unwell . kak yan & m0mmy tegur-ed me saying that i look damn pucat =.="
hurr . abg fazli lakk , ntaa ape steam pi karaoke . ajak-ed me & q to join in , which we did ,
but wtht the mike . haha . abg fazli = mp to the power of two . muahaha . he's damn fun laa.
so yea . left ard prolly 7 . heee ..

wed ; q absent . hahaa . it was a long but short day . idk how to explain this , but i'm nt gnna
make an effort , h e h e . that wed , i felt extra sleepy siol . padehal tdo awal the day b4 .
siaq jerrr . slept during lit . haiy0 ! shocking , but true . haishh . aft sch , went for chem srp ,
and it was the shortest srp ever . haha . left , & went to chill . heh ! standard ah . kalau
rumah aku gerek , tkp jugak..

and so ! alas , i've reached today . haha . aye peeps . dont ask me why i dint come to sch kay .
i woke up late laa . i woke up at 8 and how on earth do u expect me to reach sch on time ?
hha . nehmind . at least i got to update my blog kan ? drpd tk dpt langsung , my blog is
gnna rot =.="

hmm , i'm planning on gg to nokia shop nnt . nk check what's wrong my my darn hp .
the speaker dont seem to be working . but ytd , when i checked at the shop at msl ,
they said it was fine & they cant seem to find the problem . suckish bodoh ! ALERMAKK !
menyusahkan hidup aku ajer . curse youuuu !

grrr , gnna end my longggggggggggggg grandmother story with this ;
oohlala ~ irni rocks my world . yay , hahaha . (:

okay , toodles semue . peace out . :D

2009-02-15T07:22:00.000-08:00

well , here goes . friday was kinda a short day . HEH . as soon as sch ended , went back home

and slept till prolly 4 . woke up , showered , and went to meet amir & acap .

got 2 boxes of chocloies . 'merci & ferrero roche' . did i spell that right ? oh heck .

i dont really care abt that . anw , thankyou amir(: ily for knowing me that well . hha .

as soon as we met , went to 131 , bought rokok . amir bought me sampoerna . believe it

or not , it was the last packet . nasib nasib sey ! heh . aft buying em , sat at 104 , i think .

waited for iqul to reach then lepaked together . amir & acap stayed till ard 7 then left to

meet daddie & the rest at yishun . and soooooo .. ledt us two . sat at 108 cause i dint wanna

lepak at my TM's blk . kalau dier turon , mampos la aku . yg mcm siak nyer ,

nk elak dari mulut buaya , masuk mulut harimau . okay , ini peribahasa aku buat sendiri .

hahahah ! sembarang je aku . okay heck . whatever . baik nk elakkan TM ,

my instructor[s] ternampak me there . haiyo ! sungguh la tidak nasib baik . hha .

bello2 sia me . ish ish ish . anw . lepaked with iqul till tepat at 8 , then made my way to 102 .

training was extremely memenatkan . but still , i could endure(:

proven that i still have some of my stamina . hee (:

warmup , rested , played tapping , run here run there , pushups , sit ups ,

more running, more pushups , more situps , and more tappings . heh ! like toot kan .

hha . still , it was okay la . i pretty much had a moody time during training . oh ya !

evika asked , "eh , kau belajar street fighting eh ?" errr , no .. haha . i dont even know

how to fight . ehem ! hhaha . alright , aft trng , budak2 silat all serbu my merci chocoies

sampai la habis . hurhur ! tk dpt la kasih my family . aiya . nehmindd la .. and soo ..

went home ard 11 plus . cause aft trng , stayed to learn my white belting nyer gerak tgn ,

kepentah . as soon as i was done , recap back my penumbuk[s] and penendang[s] with

zuliana . hee , maceh eh babe .

alright , saturday . happy valentines day peeps(:

dint spent time with v.date . he had to go out with his family . oh well . i spent my day

with my familia too . went to abg saed's homie . aww ! my anak sedara is so damn cute lor !

aft which , we went home & they left for mak pa's homie . i dint wanna tag along cause

i was super exhausted already . maklum la , dint get enough rest kan .. is ish ish ..

stayed homie & watched 2 movies ; house bunnies & hey hey its esther blueburger .

hha . criter duer2 kekek la siol . hur !

today ; slept till 4 in the aftnoon . lame kan ? i know . dah namenyer penat per ..

finally ! i had my long , relaxing sleep. not really relaxing uh . was awaken by 2 haram

jadah peih anjing cause it was barking like mad , and because of stupid budak2 shouting

like as if they have got serious brain damage . kehhmekk ! corrupted sia org2 sini . saket

jiwa betol . ish ! anw , showered , ate , then went online to help Q with her hwk , then

went to finish my essay , mindmap , & english journal . still have got my lit essay to get it

done. sadly , ive given up for today . headache ah babe ! and plus , my heart area there

saket uh . i aint sure why ah . but saket la sey . haiyo ! alright . let me end here . i'm gnna
get a rest alrd . nitey nite peeps ! peace out(:

~ i cant believe you did that ! haa .

2009-02-12T05:47:00.000-08:00

alright , ive got a v.date and guess what ? that turban aint sure if he cant make it on
saturday . siak je dier . hha . sungguh la kurang kasih syg . cis bedebah donkey btol !
anw , today was a pretty long dayyy , i swear it was .
and yeaa . sch went on per normal . only thing is , during recess , i suap-ed eyka & irni .
hha . irni makan pakai tangan funny la .. its as though her WHOLE hand masok =.="
aiyoyo . makan pon tumpah2 . ish ..

yea . aft sch , went for srp . the test was quite okay . BUT .. i aint confident that i can
pass with good marks . hha . aft srp , made my way to cwp & met up with twinnie .
i could tell she was kinda pissed and hoping i'd be there . heh ! yup . 'ange' is sorta
irritating . maki tk tentu pasal , condemn peeps like nobody's business , like as if
they've got no feelings . HEY, WE ARE HUMANS TOO OKAY .
aiyer . anw , i'm feeling for sushi .. and choc waffle .. and chocolies ! heee .
alamakk . nnt put on weight . hha ! siakk siakk . vainpot sia satu2 . problem kepe !
anw . as soon as ange went home , we went to meet iqul . hee . LOL sia that guy .
& oh ya . mr singapore flag was there too . hha . you know why he's called that ?
he he . cause he's towel is like a spore flag , serious ! tk bedek . hee . anw , he's rafiq .
he's quite nice know . friendly to the max(: that guy , has got masalah peribadi . just
like me . ooh lala . i'm having fun labelling peeps having brain prob , masalah peribadi ,
LOL , sakit jiwa & stuffs . mcm enjoying you know . hha . i know , i myself has got
'masalah peribadi' . nyeheh . so yea . when eeza left , wanted to angkat kaki too . but
sadly , iqul pujuk-ed me to stay. not only him , rafiq too . PANTAT . andd soo .. i stayed ,
left ard 6.30 cause they wanted to go with fee . penat la wei , nk go home . huahua .

iqul is cute , hha ! siakk jerr aku . dah okay shh ! what's in here , stays here .
hha . aku suke suare die ! hot babe , hot .
aku boleh melting melting . he he he .
but kannnn . dier mcm girlgirl laa . hurr . ader ke patut org fikir die butch ?
sedih siul member . hurr . anw , gonna end here . i feel like skipping sch tmr . but nah !
nk pass flower2 to SIQA . wtht the 'm' la . why should i give to myself ? =.="
hur . peeps will think i'm nuts . nyahas .

peace out ! (:

2009-02-11T05:12:00.000-08:00

monday was funfunfun . hha . lepak-ed with irni till prolly 8 plus going 9 malam . hurr .
ate darn good brownie & mcflurry . nice la siol . and yeaa , there was a funny incident td at mc .
he he . paiseh la wei ! alaa , tkp .. dah biase buat gitu , hha .
another funny incident was when me & irni was sitting at ' titanic ' version two nyerr .
saw one makcik running aft a plastic bag . yes , a plastic bag . WTH kan ?
and yeaa , the wind was blowing it . alright , the scene was unexplainable . u guys should have
been there . damn kekek la seyy . hha !

yay ! irni dah tahu kuti(: otw to perfection uh , hee .

anw , went to suntec city ytd night . explains why i'm utterly tired today .
hha , irni , dian , eyka & q tegur-ed me tadi .

" eh , why do you look extra tired today ? "

nyehs . so yupp . today was a superb tired day . hur . okay .
let this post be a short one . currently lazy . hha .

2009-02-07T06:22:00.000-08:00

meet my new mr h0tstuff , iqul , hha

*aingg . fake jekk .

ini papa saya(: finally , a pic with him .

alright , this week has been superbly , utterly tirering . skipped sch00l 0n friday just because
i wanted t0 sleep at h0me , bacen bt0l . hha ! planned t0 teman eeza t0 penin ,
but sadly my ezlink has g0t n0 value . argh , pathetic . s0 yeaa . met papa at 134 .
had a h2h talk . well , s0mewhat la . met afai ! hurr , he l00ks diff . 0fc la .
dah b0tak sey dier . met ahmad t00 . the first thing he said was ,
" eh ! dah besar eh kau ! " =.=
siak bet0l . hha . expect me t0 stay small f0rever is it ? 0kay shh ! i kn0w i'm
still small . ASS ! papa als0 gave me a weird c0mment t0day . ;
" hey y0ur're pretty sexy y0u kn0w "
i swear that came 0ut rand0mly fr0m him . hha . wth ? and ive f0und a very relaxing sp0t at wdlds . sh0cking si0l . its at the park there . eventh0ugh the view is
kind 0f a sp0il . hha . BL0CKS , playgr0unds , trees . well , at least sitting
0n the r0ck with angin yg cukup kencang , the relaxing sky .. FUH . i tell y0u ,
release stress la wei ! hha . sat there till ard 7.40 ? and i went , " 0h fuck !
i'm g0nna be late f0r silat ! " rushed h0me , chged then called cik mas t0 inf0rm
her that i w0uld be late . came trng with abg . hee . learnt the 10 kicks , punches
& bl0ckings . hee . c00l la si0l . and yeaaa . abg sparred with ang epul . heh !
abg dpt jat0h kan abg epul wiht sciss0rs . c00l la wei ! hha ! jak0n sia me .
and yea . the instruct0rs are n0t bad y0u kn0w . they're quite fun by fact .
f0und that 0ut ytd , when abg had a talk with them & abg epul . biase la ,
i kp02 pat sane =]

and s0 .. t0day . mama & abah went t0 kuantan . hurr . wanted t0 tag al0ng ,
BUT ... ive g0t al0t 0f h0mew0rks t0 get it d0ne . hha . and yea . instead 0f
starting 0n my hwks , went 0ut with papa(: he he . went t0 w00dgr0ve sec t0 watch
his friend's s0ccer match . 1st pers0n i kenal t0day was iqul . pr0n0unced as
'e'c00l . he's hair is freaking h0t i tell y0u . cair d0k ! hahaha ! siakk jer
ak0 nieh . s0 yeaa . the rest tk kenal sgt ah . i kn0w gt 0ne guy name dier j0e ,
lagi sati is fifi . yg laen .... haha . tk kenal dan tk ambil tahu p0n . they're
quite fun la . super fun actually . and iqul was my buddy t0day . tk dier , papa .
hha . thanky0u aye (:
0h ya . ard 5 , we lepak-ed near civic & it was s0 freakish c0ld la .
j0e , papa & iqul was talk c0cking and i tukang ketawe jerr . hha .
pecah per0t sia ! apart fr0m that , the wind was super c0ld si0l . iqul gave
me a " hug" , hha ! lame b0d0h ! he went , " awwwww " when he fake pel0k me .
hha . made my way back ard 8.15 ? cause they wanted t0 samb0ng lepak at civic .
i dint want t0 ik0t cause its super duper kekok laa . heh ! papa & iqul
sent me back h0me . hha . had a funfun j0urney h0me with them . kacau-ed 0ne
an0ther . and i slapped iqul . HEH ! s0rry ! hhahaha ! tk sengaje seyyy .
he gave his pipi , like mintak kene sepak je , s0 i did la . tak sakit eh !
sumpah tk sakit , hha ! anw , s0rry la byk2 . heh ! and he's sweet la . papa
messed up my hair , and i clipped back my hair .

me : alaa ! pa ! tgk uh ! my ramb0t dah jd sembarang seyyy .
papa : hehe . n0t my fault what ..
iqul : da laa .. dah 0kay .. [bet0l kan my fringe , and hair]
*awwww . sweet , i kn0w . hahaha .

yea ! t0day was super duper truper fun . i suker byk2 . hhaha (:
0kays . gnna esit pics . upl0ad it later aye(:

2009-02-02T06:56:00.000-08:00

THOSE M0MENTS .

♥ AMIR [ imyssm ]
♥ kakak

♥ i kn0w we l00k diff .

♥ irni

♥ miimiiachii ! (:

2009-02-02T05:22:00.000-08:00

i'm g0nna practice pr0per english fr0m n0w 0n . * f0r bl0g jerr . hha(:

t0day was fun yet tirering . started the day with assembly . g0sh was it interesting .
hha . i swear we were all very attentive . c00l 0r what ? s0 yea . less0ns per n0rmal ,
till chem . shaykh & haikal were s0 active . kec0h t0 the max ! s0 yea . the experiments were fun .
we were playing with the chemicals & having fun [ Q , atiQa , shaykh & me ]
next was literature . mr r0w is superbly fun y0u kn0w . we were having less0ns ,
when Q asked dian ; describe y0urself in 0ne w0rd .
dian ; silence . that was when i jumped in ; i'll describe myself as INN0CENT .
guess what ? mr r0w went ' pfffffffft ' when he heard me say that .
s0 yea , Q described herself as quiet & he went ' pfffffft ' again . hur ! hey , we're b0th g00d girls aye .
he he he . there he g0es , telling us an ir0nic j0ke , hha . & t0wards the end 0f 0ur less0ns ,
he sh0uted , " 0hmyG0d ! what the hell is that ?! " p0inting t0wards the area 0utside 0ur class .
initially , we th0ught he was j0king . but when we turned , there was a swarm 0f bees .
scary , i swear . " 0kay every0ne , quickly pack your stuffs ." every0ne packed up , & left the b0utique r00m .
" HAHAH . BEES DRILL IS IT ? " - Riyan
siak jer nieh anak . hha . we left , & st00d near the art r00m till we g0t sh00-ed by teacher[s] .

aft sch , went t0 lepak . with amir , irni , shaykh & haikal . hurr , weird right ? i kn0w .. heh !
being with them is fun . sh0ckingly , they can be 0kay with each 0ther after the c0nflict last year .
0h well , buang yg keruh ambil yg jernih . CHEH CHEH ! hha . left ard 5 ? and went t0 meet papa .
seri0us peih kaki gerek la dier . *sigh* i miss my friends . th0se wh0m i've l0st c0ntact with .
~ azmi TP , ajin , udyn , akai , seha , faez , ujang , pikapika , hisyam , shah , yuan jie , hazique , farid , sadiq [ite] , budak2 ite ys , amir , fuad , warri0rs , AKIM :(
hurr . there's l0ts m0re but currently , they're n0t yet in my mind . hha . siakk je .

anyh00s . g0nna write a sh0rt msg f0r itek .
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dear itek ,
i'm s0rry that y0u're utterly hurt by me . and i kn0w , y0u feel that i've been cheating 0n y0u .
well , that's n0t true . and if y0u think i'm such an ass , then d0 s0 . cause i cant c0ntr0l y0ur mind .
alright , why i decided t0 break 0ff with y0u ;
first and f0rem0st , it has nth t0 d0 with y0u , th0ugh y0u were kinda getting 0n my nerves .
its just sch00l & studies . i'm just utterly stressed t0 an extend that i'm n0t myself .
take n0te : its N0T 0nly t0 y0u aye .
i'm sure smiqa n0ticed me being quiet . even with them , i'm n0t as fun as i was . haish .
i'm s0rry y0u guys that i've changed in a way . s0 yea . back t0 where i was .
the sec0nd reas0n was that i'm n0t ready f0r a r/s . my mistake 0f accepting y0u .
i th0ught i c0uld let g0 0f the past & start a new chapter . BUT i c0uldnt . it just hurts me m0re .
it reminds me 0f it & i utterly dislike it . s0rry , but i just cant take the pressure .
exactly why i said r/s are pressures t0 me . alright , the next reas0n is family .
i'm kinda having s0me r0ugh patches with my family . and y0u kn0w when it c0mes t0 family ,
i get pulled d0wn easily , very easily . i really h0pe y0u understand my situati0n here .
and the wr0ng msg i sent y0u by mistake , d0nt get me wr0ng . but its just s0me0ne wh0m
i let my feeling[s] 0ut t0 & at the same time means al0t t0 me . like an abg , i swear .
think what y0u want , cause y0u w0uldnt understand , since y0u y0urself kuat jeal0us .
amir ; is the guy . i started c0ntacting him weeks back , & i miss him truck l0ads .
a guy wh0 was a stranger , c0me friend , t0 a cl0se fren , been a bestfriend , n0w a br0ther .
we b0th had g0ne thru ups & d0wns tgt . & seri0usly , he understands me way better than y0u d0 .
d0nt misjudge , but its just that the time i've spent with him cant be c0mpared t0 y0u , 0r any0ne .
excluding smiqa , aye . d0nt believe , ask ard . " is muslihah cl0se t0 amir ? "
me & him , dah MACAM mataer . but n0 , we're n0t . we're just very cl0se . just like me & my bl00d br0ther .
alright , i'm tired 0f typing this l0ngg msg . esp when y0u're n0t g0nna take the time t0 think .
i 0ffered t0 be a friend , but y0u indirectly rejected it . s0 yea . its y0ur decisi0n , s0 0kay .
t00dles aye . taking care . y0u take care t00 .

much ♥ ,

mimi .

2009-01-31T07:53:00.000-08:00

♥ 23 January 09
had chi new year celeb . ie t0t it was g0nna be a funnfunn la . BUT ie was s0 damn wr0ng ,
hha . started the day by d0ing the dec0[s] 0f 0ur class . hurr . semangat si0l ! padehal ,
satu2 nga mendaq . hurr . aft d0inf the dec0[s] , went t0 0ur squ hall f0r the c0ncert .
me , q , dian , irni was super hyper at first . but t0wards the middle 0f the sh0w , eh wait .
ie think when it JUST started , we g0t b0red . satu2 at first step gereq uh . sh0ut here ,
sh0ut dher , laugh here , laugh dher .. but ended up , all f0r 0f us , n0te eh ; ALL 0f us ;
had 0ur heads 0n 0ur hands . 0ur face were seri0usly [n0 c0mments uh eh]
MENDAQ LA WEI . aft the c0ncert , went t0 canteen t0 eat . aft eatingg , went t0 play
v0lleyball . 0hmy . i'm dark 0nce m0re . hurr ! due t0 the h0t h0t sunn . && ie met rauf just
n0w . haishh . ie miss rauf n0e ! ie miss training . ie wanted t0 g0 trng dhix yer , but when ie
g0t t0 n0e he's n0t here anm , ie was s0 damn dem0tivated ): n0e why ? n0e why ? ie have
n0 0ne in tnf =.=" eezaaa , j0in uh ! he he he . anw , aft all dhat , sh0wered , dhen eeza & q
went 0ver t0 my h0mie . ate , played c0mp , SLEPT . hha , ard 6 , dhey b0th made their way
h0me . dhat was when ie was bathing , again . hha ! g0t ready , and met up with papa ! 000h .
ie just realised dhat ive l0st al0t 0f gd frens . AND DHAT S0ME0NE , pls eh .
d0nt ask why ie can meet up with others , BUT N0T EU .
dhats c0x dhey're dhem , and n0t eu . dhey understand me better . S0 MUCH BETTER .
ie n0e eu can still access my bl0g , and eu'll c0ntinue t0 dr0p by .
st0p asking why ie made dhat decisi0n . seri0uly uh eh . fr0m n0t hating eu ,
eur making me hate eu . argh . pls laaa . if eur fren c0uld understand me , why cant euu ?
thank euu [insert name] . eu t0ld me t0 treat eu like my abg . well , thank euu s0 much aye .
&& thank euu papa f0r the advice[s] . it really gave me a kn0ck 0n my head =]
aft catching up with papa , went f0r silat as per usual . hee . trng was fun . circuit trng .
fun la 0ie ! zu pierced her qening . dammit ! i'm s0 jeal0us . i've been wanting t0 pierce , but
nahh . i'm lazy . g00dbye t0 my piercing days . i'm s0 0ver it . ie think . hha .

♥ 24 january 09
had silat 0uting at changi beach . well , it was fun , but its mendaq . heh ! came , ate ,
watched dhem play 0n the beach , yadaa yadaa .. sat with ika , t00k pic , BUT all dah hilang .
c0x my mem0ry card r0saq . hurr ! s0 yea . abg came late . but when he did , ie started t0
have fun . haa . suap-ed abg & peeps were asking why . hurr . he's my abg whadd .
why cant ie suap him eh ? hha . ie l0ve my abg n0e . s0 damn understanding ..

♥ 25 january 09
slept at h0mie . ie was s0 damn tired . went 0ut wif kakak & abg f0r awhile .
dhenn went t0 watch m0vies at h0me .
hee . mama mia ; transp0rter 3 ; 7 p0unds ; && l0ts l0tss m0re uh .

♥ 26 january 09
went t0 meet papa , again . chilled with him till umm , 7 ? dhen went h0mie . thanks f0r the
fun funn day . hha . && 0mg laa . mama & abah tinggal qan me at h0mie . L0L . t0ld dhen t0
wait f0r me at h0mie c0x ie wanna g0 paman's hse wif em . but when ie bleq , drg daa takde .
ninnawia . hhaha . siaqq bt0l .

♥ 27 january 09
HAPPY BDAE TWINNIE . IE L0VE EU S0 S0 MUCH ! MUST CHEER UP AYE .
SMIQA IS ALWAYS HERE F0R EUU . IE AM ALWAYS HERE F0R EUU .
~ like family , la qan ? ~
smiq went t0 [a]'s h0use wtht her n0eing . was supp0se t0 be a surprise la . hha !
BUT tk menjadi . damn funny la eu n0e ! s0 yaa . stayed at her hse , damn s00n aft , went t0 safra & played p00l . this is my sec0nd attempt t0 blajar play p00l , & guess whad ?
ie finally pass la ! & eu n0e whadd ?! ie was the star player f0r the day . he he he .
damn qec0h sia we all . & dhat mat k0tai[s] , fuck 0ff . dhix aint eur c0untry .
& happy bdae haikal . [budaq kallang uh , n0t 4e1]

♥ 28 & 29 , nth much . just squ & stuffs .

♥30 january 09 .
HAPPY BDAE DIAN ! (:
hee . sad squ as per usual . 0nly dhat aft squ , went t0 play p00l with eeza , irni , amir ,
daddie fuad & yazid . s0 yea . had a funnfunn day with dhem . thanks daddie f0r the 5 buckss
and the waffles . weehee ! ie miss eu b0f s0 s0 much siaa . ie swear it has been a l0ng time since
we last lepak . haishh . i'm s0rry t0 frens wh0m i've l0st c0ntact with all 0f a sudden .
& s0rry t0 th0se wh0 thinks i've changed in way dhat i'm n0t as qec0h like dulu ..
stess babe , stress .
& ie had gelanggang t0day , the trng was fun funn l0r ! hha . qec0h si0l ! first time trng happy2 .
hha !

ps : twinnie . read eur p0st . cheer up aye syg . ie n0e h0w it feels t0 be in dhat p0siti0n .
c0x ie was 0nce dher . and yes , ie cried my heart 0ut bec0x 0f him , akim . till n0w ,
ie c0uldnt l0ve any0ne as much as ie did t0 him . & ie d0nt want eu t0 be like me .
its hard t0 live life like dhix . its hurting yet disap0inting . ie h0pe eu clear things up with
him . ie really d0 . breaks my heart t0 see eu cry , eu n0e ? i'm glad dhat we managed t0
make eu smile dhat dayy . hee . amir & fuad gereq qan ? ie n0e . & amir said dhat IF next
time eu wanna have desert , dhix time dier blanje pat ah mei cafe . hee . in the h0use la wei !
hha . siaqq siaqq . anw . ilyssm aye twinnie . i'm always here 4 euu .

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♥ t0day , 31 january 09
happy bday aqilah & d0uglas ! (:
t0day went t0 eza's h0mie f0r the party . went late la . ard 8pm . hurr . had fun n0e ! hee .
thankss t0 abg fazli & qechiq . hee . went h0mie ard 1040pm , ie think .
cleant up & here ie am , finally updating . hha .
alrit0 , i'm tired . g0nna g0 rest . peace 0ut ya peeps .

2009-01-22T04:56:00.001-08:00

PICTURES :D

0kay , finally. i'm d0ne(:

2009-01-22T03:22:00.001-08:00

s0 yeah . l0tsa things happened lately & ie swear ie can barely rmb whadd .
all dhat ie can clearly rmb was STUDY , STUDY , STUDY . wahh . b0ley mati si0l .
& 0h ! skipped squ 0n m0nday(: cab0t with Q . aha . qiter same2 jiwe laa wei !
skipped squ & met up with Q at ttsh . kak bella was dher . ate & when Q's m0mmy was d0ne ,
her daddie came & we went t0 kallang kfc & ate again . hha . came h0me late again dhat day .
lucky my dad dint get angry . hee .

tuesday * went t0 np with Q & eza . tawaf-ed ard & dhen went h0me . *winks*

wed * went f0r srp . & aft dhat went t0 cwp wif Q & eza . ate at civic's mcd .
as s00n as we were d0ne , t0t 0f gg h0me . dah 0tw h0me when ie rmbered abt PAPA .
a cl0se fren wh0m ive n0t c0ntact since G0d n0es when la . called him up & c0incidently ,
he was free . met up f0r awhile , had a lil talk & ard 5+ ? went h0mie .

andd s0 .. t0day went f0r squ as per usual . aft squ , kakak fetched US & sent us t0 swami h0me .
starting , igtqan fun . tapi aft s0me time , mendaq si0t . t0 the max peih mens !
ended up camwh0ring till my camera batt died . hha . aft all th0se thrill,
us girls went t0 eat at ssc . hha . quite fun uh . kinda miss irni . hha .
dah lame tk hang0ut . hmm , planning 0n n0t gg squ tmr .
BUT ! tak b0ley .. hha ! dah janji iqa & the rest dhat i'll c0me . n0 bueh2 eh . hurr .

~ G0nna upl0ad the pics taken , s00n . camera nga charging . he he .

2009-01-21T06:47:00.001-08:00

0kay fuckkkk .
ak0 stress !
hurr .

2009-01-12T04:27:00.000-08:00

anddd s0 . ie l0ve t0day . th0ugh my plans were s0 t0nggang terbalek . he he . sh0wie uh . alamaqq . baeq nak pi trng , tuqar nak meet b0yfiie , tuqar nak bleq =.=" end up chill chill nan my used-t0-be-bestfren at her h0mie . budaq pei squ uh . hurr , anw . umaa die deqat sey . turun tangge , naeq lift , tr0s sampai my h0mie . hha . hell yea ie had l0ads 0f fun with her . it has been ages since we've spent quality time with tgt . talked al0t(: squ , frens , " frens " , families . hee . & ie n0e im s0 behind time . hha ! sh0wie uh babe . ak0 tawuq ak0 qental(: peace peace . n0 war eh .

and 0ie . N0RISHMA , ie miss eu like fuck .
ie swear the fun we had cant be c0mpared . its like , eur my 0ne & 0nly qawan yg ak0 sumpah tk pernaa gad0h , tk pernaa ader misunderstanding , 0r any backstabbing whadds0ever . its like , ie can trust eu with anyth . grr , imy b0d0h ! hhaha(: meet up s00n again .

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andd s0 . squ was memenatqan , ie swear . s0meh0w , ie wish ie c0uld fastf0rward time . make things g0 faster s0 dhat ie can get it d0ne & 0ver with . weird , ie n0e . & t0day , made me realise smth , hah . shant state it here . 0h well , g0nna end here . wna freshen up dhen g0 d0 hwk . aha . yes , ie wanna start f0cussing & aim high f0r my ' 0 's . INSYA ALLAH . [ ameen ]
0kay bye . hha . ie miss boyfie . 0h my . hha ^^*

2009-01-07T05:15:00.001-08:00

0h well , things happen f0r a reas0n right . hell t0 it aye . buang yg ker0h , ambil yg jernih . my fs t0 her is m0re impt , even if ie have a bad image t0 s0me alrd & being [ fill in the blanks ] my back . but still , ie believe things will get better in time . n0t n0w , but s00n . ie h0pe la . even if it d0esnt , i'm gnna make it better . have t0 make an eff0rt right . its like talk but n0 acti0n . aha . s0 yea . i'm sh0cked , plus disp0inted . ie d0nt really n0e why laa , but its s0 utterly unexpected . like whadd ive said , i'm g0nna f0rget that this ever happened & live life per n0rmal . n0 p0int taking it t0 the heart . [ insert eur name here ] will always be my fren . unless [ insert eur name here ] d0es smth really bad and ie feel tt its t00 much la . until dhen i'll just f0rgive whaddever tt happens . but dhis d0esnt mean dhat eu can d0 al0tal0t 0f bad things t0 me laa . hha(: and yea , sh0wie f0r the inc0nvenience caused aye , [ insert eur name here ] . i'll chg here & dher t0 make me a better pers0n , hha . ak0 tawuq ak0 lame . he he . anw , life has been s0rta great . with kaki gereks ard me & family yg gerek sgtsgt . esp abg ! c0x he has been t0lerating me even th0ugh i'm a pain t0 him . hha . he's the best abg ever , ie swear ! dah la . takm0 jeal0us . hha .

s0 t0day . went t0 squ by car . t0mpang-ed eeza . em0 sia eeza ! aha . met the rest dhen went t0 assemble . eh k0rang ! ak0 dah start pay attenti0n eu n0e ! heee . ie wanna be seri0us in studies alrd . d0nwanna play a f00l . its '0' f0r g00dness sake ! ie cant believe it si0l . scary eu n0e . ahhh ! ie wanna pass with flying c0l0urs , hurr . must f0cus f0cus f0cus . SMIQA , if eu find me abit diff , bear with it kay . c0x when ie start being stress , ie chg t0 being a n0t s0 kec0h kinda pers0n . ie c0nfirm with eu all dhat it will happen s00n enuf . anw , went t0 RP . damn big si0l the squ ! ie suker ! hhaha . first thing ie said was , " kimek ! lawa kepe ! " hha . jak0n la katekan . he he . anw . tmr gg sp0re p0ly . cant wait . hee ! mintak2 its gna be fun .

t0 eeza . eur g0nna apply f0r sec4 kan ? g00d luck aye girl . d0 eur very best . all 0ut tau ! must studystudystudy . pr0ve t0 dhem tt eur s0mething , n0t a JUST . kay ? anyth beep me . i'll be dher t0 help even if i'm bz . ily(:

ie miss abah . he aint h0me dhat 0ften alrd ): w0rk w0rk w0rk . ie miss eu s0 much n0e daddie ! hurhur . we barely have time t0 even talk . 0nly a simple hi&bye . mama p0n . we barely have time tgt . & when we d0 , eu always find things t0 sc0ld me 0f . aiyer . cant we just be a happy family , pls ? imy m0mmy & daddie . ilysvm t00 .

kakak & abg , d0nt jeal0us ah . ilyt keh . hha . ie n0e abg gnna read dhis , cause he can access my bl0ggeh . hha .

chehcheh ! abg nak j0in silat jugak per ? w0h0 . gerek uh lu b0i ! hha . ie n0e eu l0ve me t00 muchh kan . tts why eu wanna j0in with me .. he he . dah shh . d0nt say ie prasan 0r whadd keh . eu mmg slalu kenekan ie . h0bby la kan ? hurr . ily abg . thanks f0r evth .

0701 .

2009-01-05T07:08:00.000-08:00

nyahas ! ie suqer t0day habes habes ! * smiles widely *
my mawnin was the m0st cheerful 0f all la sey .
pagi2 ak0 dah maki ham0n . siaqq , ie n0e . hha .
well , ini SUFFIAH , sur0h ak0 maki dier face2face pasal ak0 siket ari ,

tk c0nfr0nt dier time dier nan mataer dier & the mataer nyer twin .
well 0bvi0usly ie w0nt c0nfr0nt infr0nt 0f em la . firstly , taknak hal besar .
sec0ndly , eventh0ugh me & the twins dah tk rapat , drg tetap member [ dulu ] sia .
sedangqan qawan lame p0n ie w0nt s0und , apatah lg qalaw member si0l .
ak0 qan mmg mcm sial . yea s0 ? ie admit uh .
mainly c0x ie start t0 q0peq by saying puqimaq qaw . mane la tak !
dier pernah maen mak ak0 si0l ! ye uh ! criter lame , s0 whadd ?
tetap pernah berlaku per . sial . it started like dhis , went t0 canteen t0 find f0r nurra ,
but instead ak0 terjumpe nieh wannabe . eeza laq sur0h ak0 b0bal nan dier .
ak0 pi uh , ape lagi ? hha . mesti mau maki depan2 per ! tkleh blaqang2 ..
c0x law tak , ak0 nieh qental . hur ! mcm paham je tuh minah .

[ briefly whadd happened ]
me : eh , qaw nak ak0 maki qaw depan2 qan , nieh ak0 nak maki qaw .
her : ah ape .
me : PUQIMAQ QAW UH ! dulu qaw maen mak ak0 qan , sqarang ak0 peih turn uh .
her : ah lagi ? * insert her sial face *
me : hmm , ape lagi eh ? ahh , prangai qaw mcm sial qaw tawuq tk . SUAR .
her : ape lagi ? * insert her step brani face *
me : hmm , 0h ya . ak0 nak tye , mak qaw tk ajar qaw eh ? psl ak0 peliq uh asal qaw gni .
* eeza c0mes & push me me away t0 the t0ilet =.=" *

in the t0ilet , nurra dtg . dier qater nieh suffiah c0mplain pat dier dhen n0w dier nak step s0und me .
wth ? hha . prangai .. ape sia . dhen suffiah laq dtg diri sbelah nurra .
DIRI TEGAK SI0L . QIMEQ . AK0 TAK0T . hhahaha !
dhen ya , ak0 qater ....
" ape ? qaw nk tunggu nurra s0und ak0 per ? "
her : EH ! sejaq biler ak0 sur0h dier s0und qaw ?!
me : ak0 tanyer jer per , ak0 tk qater qaw sur0h . qaw dah qenape ?
her : ah apape uh . sqarang ak0 nak tawuq , asal qaw nak qene maki ak0 td ?
me : ye uh ! qaw nk ak0 maki qaw depan2 per . sqarang ak0 dah dtg face2face , abey qaw tye asal ?
her : ye uh . tkya nak depan2 0rg per !
me : hah ! asal ? malu per , qe tak0t ?!
her : tak , abeh asal tt time qene maki blakang2 ?
* eeza pushes me & c0mes in *
eeza : sqarang nieh , ape qaw tulis pat bl0g qaw ? qaw qater law tk puas ati , b0bal depan2 qan . sqarang dier dah maki qaw face2face abeh qaw tye asal ?
her : ye uh . abeh asal tt time nak qene maki blanqang2 ? tak0t ?
eeza : hahaha . jap jap .. qaw tawuq tk dier brani nk buat gitu ? cumer dier tknk apape jd pat mataer qaw ...
her : ye uh .. tp asal nak qene maki blaqang2 ? qental .
* ie went bt0l2 depan muqer dier & say .. *
me : SQARANG AK0 DAH PAT DEPAN MUKER QAW , AK0 DAH MAKI QAW FACE2FACE , APE LAGI QAW NAK ?!
her : ah dah lah ! ak0 tkd mase nak layan 0rg mcm qaw .. * trying t0 walk awayy *
me : * ie grab her hand & say , * QAW MALAS NK LAYAN QE TAK0T SI0L ?!!!
her : eh asal nk qene pegang tgn ak0 si0l ?!
me : eh but0 , tgn ak0 per . ak0 nak buat ape tuh ak0 peih pasal uh !

[ a few m0re sewuence but ie luper alrd ]
dhen g0t 0ne part ...

her : sqarang nieh ak0 nk tawuq , asal qaw nak qene maki ak0 ?
me : 0h , achelli ak0 ader simpan dendam nan qaw uh dari qaw sec 1 . qaw igt tak qaw buat byk hal nan ak0 smpai maki puqimaq ak0 segale ?
her : EH TAPI TUH CRITER LAME PER !
me : ye uh ! s0 ? tetap pe . dah tu EVERY year , ak0 nk b0bal nan qaw , qaw qater qaw busy la , ini la .. itu la .. jadi sqarang nieh , ak0 0ne time sh0t melenting pat qaw , PAHAM ?!
her : ah qae lagi ?
me : lagi eh .. tkp . ak0 tawuq qaw tak0t , s0 qaw b0ley blah sqarang .
her : ah pape uh . * muker siakk dier *
me : 0h ! btw , bilang MATAER qaw tuh , jgn nk step maner peih matrep uh ! merepek si0l
her : ah lagi ?
me : andd unt0q qaw , jgn nak step mane peih brani uh depan ak0 . jgn nak step maner peih big sumer . merepek b0d0h !
her : lagi ?
me : ah dah , qaw b0ley blah .
* she walks away . dah 6 - 10 steps alrd , she maki me , & ie sh0ut ; *
" qimeq ! qaw qater qalaw tk puas maki depan2 ?! abeh nieh dah ja0h baru maki ?! QENTAL AH LU MINAH ! "

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s0 yea . tts whadd happened Q . mcm sial qan nieh p0mpan . merepek t0 the max , ie n0e .
i'll sh0w eu this paper when we meet t0 fit in s0me 0ther inf0[s] .
s0 0wqae . g0 read ! (:

2009-01-01T01:30:00.000-08:00

pictures ; c0untd0wn (:
a mem0rable dayy . hhha .
eezaaaa

eezaaa ; miimii ; irman ; q(:
miimii ; Q ; irman ; kak ziela ; kak bella=]

darlings<3

teehee . tt red lightstick ie g0t , huhu !(:

muke mcm t00t ! hha .

=.=:D

ak0 syg darling ak0 , abeh ?

US (:
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let me make this clear t0 eu , ie l0ve my abg , kakak & parents .
esp abg , he has helped me al0t . well ,dhey r0ck qae , th0ugh at times they are a pain in the neck ,
yea s0 whadd ? at least dhey sh0w tt dhey care s0metimes . at least s0mething dhenn n0thing .
the 0ther girl , ie have g0t n0 relati0n t0 her till the day she changes fully t0 s0me0ne better .
meanwhile , g0 live in eur stupid fantasy aye sucker . i've had enuf 0f eu . well , t00 much achelli .
eezaaa , Q ; eu guys might say i'm evil . but eu guys dk h0w it feels t0 achelli TRY t0 be patient with her f0r years . YEARS babe , n0t days 0r weeks .
try living with her . yes , eu might say she is kinda 0wqae .
well tts due t0 a fact tt she l00ks at eu as a "fren" 0r whadds0ever bullshits .
till the day dhat eu have t0 pull up with her n0nsense , 0nly dhen will eu say dhat she's mepek & eu cant take it .
s0 yeah . f0rgive me if eu think i'm t00 harsh , but ... eezaaa , this is s0mewhadd the same with whadd happened btwn eu & qilah tt dae . heh .

2009-01-01T01:01:00.000-08:00

ytd was super duper tiring . w0ke up early ard 10 .
miracle , ie n0e . hha , sh0wered & had my breakfast .
at abt 12.50 , went t0 meet zulaiha & went t0 nazurah's h0mie .
chilled there f0r awhile dhen went f0r practice . watched em d0 ganda .
huhu , & learnt regu ! satu jurus jer . 11 m0re t0 g0 , heh !
ie als0 perfect0-ed my mandraguna 0r smth , my kickings & my kudekude .
did kudekude empat & zu sto0d 0n me . PENAT D0K .
w00h00 ! my sabit dah tak kaku sgt . yay ! hha . s0 yeah .
ard 6 , me & zu went t0 cwp . terserempak-ed nan m0mmy & kak aisyah & amira .
tawaf-ed & had 0ur late lunch / early dinner . aft eating , went t0 [ fill in the blanks ] with her fren nurul .
reached h0me ard 7.40 ? hmm , sh0wered & g0t ready .
went 0ut 0f h0mie ard 11 & went t0 meet eezaaa at kak yan's hse .
made 0ur way t0 civic peih sbelah . we went t0 b0th ends but still c0uldnt find Q .
0h well , decided t0 selit2 , & tadaaa ! we f0und her(:
happen t0 be , behind dhem were a bunch 0f kec0h b0ys . check2 , alamaqq .
kawan lerr . ak0 ader la cakap nieh budak2 mcm budak 0rg tebs =.="
budak2 qepe ! padehal drg lagi tue dr ak0 eh , siakk siakk . hha .

we danced , sh0uted , and had l0ads 0f fun tgt .
me , eezaaa , Q , kak bella & kak ziela(:
0h , als0 with aliff & gangg . hee . fun la si0l .
apart fr0m tt , ie g0t a red light stickk fr0m this guy , heee !
c0x mine was pink & ie wanted the red c0x the c0l0ur is h0ttttttt .
hha . bangla[s] p0n mcm siakk jer . hha , ser0ius peih kekek si0t .
aft the party , went t0 mcd . b0ught d0uble ch0c frappe (:
abg blanje . huhu ! reached h0mie ard 1.25 , papa Q sent us h0me .

0h well , happy new year pe0ple !
its a new year , s0 eu guys better be a better pers0n .
cheh ! l00k wh0se talking ehh , hha .
* sucks men . ie l0st my v0ice , hha . mcm s0yal .

2008-12-30T02:08:00.000-08:00

ie miss nur fidiyani . hurr . eezaaa came 0ver ytd & we went t0 kak yan's but sadly ,
fidi f0ll0wed wak emah t0 JB . s0 yea , t0day's plan was t0 g0 0ut with kakak .
unf0rtunately , i'm n0t feeling tt well . w0ke up at 5 in the m0rning t0 thr0w up .
* bleargh *

andd s0 , last m0nday ; went t0 gym with Q & 2 bad0t circus .
fun fun fun . aft gym , went t0 lepak with iteq & members .
[ smile , tam , ahn , firdaus , yasser , iteq's cuzzie ]

wednesday ; went t0 m0mmy's hse . hha . she g0t angry c0x ie dint c0me 0ver the day b4 .
and ya ! terjumpe smile & tam(: they're friendly pe0ple . heh .

friday ; initially , wanted t0 g0 gym with Q .
BUT , b0th were to0 sleepy s0 we decided t0 pr0ceed t0 zu's crib .
went & chilled2 thr . well , m0st 0f the time we were sleeping . he he .
aft the family gathering , went f0r training . quite fun uh .

sundayy ; went t0 t0apay0h with family and dhennnn , went travelling in the car .
had dinner ard 11 at bukit bat0k 0r smth . the f0ods were ser0iusly spicy .
hurr . tkley angs d0k !
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ah fuck , i'm s0 n0t l0oking f0rward t0 squ .
esp when squ is filled with BITCHES and guys tryna sh0w 0ff h0w big they are .
o0ps ! saper2 yg terase , tu qaw peih pasal . ak0 tk jage kub0r q0rang .
& eh minah , qaw takm0 nk step maner big fuck uh eh .
qaw pikir ader backup jer qaw besar per ? puqitiang qaw uh SIAL !
brani b0bal pat c0mp , abeh face2face , qaw step seny0m pat ak0 .
SI0L , 2 face m0therfucker eh qaw . hurr , anak haram bt0l .
fav0ur uh siakk . takm0 nak step maner peih h0tstuff uh qae .
seri0usly speaking , qaw tak lawar . accept the fact la puqi !
NINNABU . dulu slalu qater , " law tk happy , b0bal face2face "
well , eu talk but n0 acti0ns . hmm , 0h ak0 luper . qaw peih 0rg qan w0rld .
0h well , i'm just gnna wait . =]
babe , u've n0t yet seen mcm sial side .

2008-12-15T04:37:00.000-08:00

went t0 kak nan's wedding ytd .
super utterly fun yaw ! hha (:
ie dint n0e tt alm0st all 0f eeza's family n0es me .
hha , co0l qan ! ie n0e . Q , takm0 jeal0us . hha . =p
fidi is s0 cute ! hha . she was the 0ne wh0 welc0med me & q .
he he . she went " nieh bibik bibik mush . kan ? bibik mush , kan ? bibik . baju lawa ! lawa eh ! lawa . "
ad0rable yaw ! hee (:
went h0me ard 11+ ? daddie dint get angry . co0li0 . can ie pls have everyday 0f my life this fun ?
hmpfh . 0wqae . ie gnna update much . see the pictures , dhen understand understo0d .

qae best . peace 0ut(:

us . with abg udin & abg * ie 4gt his name * 0ops . sh0wie
us . with abg faizul .

0wqae bye .

2008-12-10T22:50:00.000-08:00

Tagged by: adeq drag DARLING (:

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continuing this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?

s0alan b0nus sey . 0fc la ader . but m0stly smiqa tawuq(

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl older than you?

hha . yup . ie'd rather g0 with 0lder guys . N0t s0 0ld qae . mesti alright babey uhh .

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone u really loves?as long as I live..but oni for the person I REALLY loves..after my death I dunnoe readi..

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?

give family $$$ . esp m0mmy & daddie . dhen g0 ENJ0Y nan smiqa . buy myself a car ,

& get a veryveryvery big hse f0r my family (:

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?

N0 ! c0x if ie d0 , i'm gnna l0se a bestfriend .

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?

its neither 0ne 0f it , but b0th .

7. How do you define love?

L t0 the 0 t0 the V t0 the E =]

hha . umm , t0 be hurt s0 deeply , and still l0ving tt s0me0ne with the little pieces ?

0r t0 be 0r l0ving s0me0ne at any c0st . i think s0 uh . umm , idk laa .

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

WAIT . if fated , tt pers0n will surely be mine rightt . aiyer .

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?

yea ! my bl0od & 2nd family , & smiqa (:

10. What makes you sad?

lil arguements with family , making my parents disap0inted , seeing my frens being sad , & t0 see s0me0ne CRY .

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?

still y0ung & happy as always . maeb by dhenn ie'd be rich ? well , wh0 n0es .

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?

m0mmy , daddie , siblings , 2nd family , & smiqa (:

13. What is being regarded as the most important thing in your life?

making m0mmy & daddie happy .

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

single n rich . wh0 cares if ie'm single ! at least ie still have my family .

15. What is your favourite colour?

h0t pink ! he he he .

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?

n0ne . find a new l0ver dhenn . kan senang . tkya nak saketkan kepale .

17. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?

ie f0rgive , but never 4gt . f0rgiving d0esnt mean tt ie'm n0t hurt , c0x ie am . just tt ie d0nt sh0w .

18. What do you want to tell the someone you like?

“ hey ! i think ie like eu " (:

19. If there is a choice between lover and friends,which will you choose?

duh ! friends ! MIMI LEBIH PENTINGKAN KAWAN , ABEH ASAL ?

20. Do you believe that there's "True Love"?

yup ! 0nli tt it d0esnt c0me easy . eu nidda l0ok deeper & wait a lil l0nger .

5 ppl who's going to do this survey.

1 . Malik Faisal (:

2 . Nadiah (:

3 . Ismail .

4 . a gh0st .

5 . Lala .

2008-12-10T05:56:00.000-08:00

m0nday was super utterly fun sia . hee !

ie suker sey . s0 yea , it all started with me waking up late f0r sembahyang rayer .

instead , ie w0ke up when my FIRST tetamu came , my at0k & aunt .

tt was appr0ximately ard 8.30 ? first thing tt came t0 my head " 0h fuck . ie 0verslept "

=.=" sh0wered , g0t ready [ t0p & jeans ] , kemas katil , dhen Q msged .

" ak0 dah sampai . tur0n uh "

HEH . wtf right ? bt0l pei cui2 uh . hha . rabak sia . made my way d0wn , met Q ,

to0k the lift up , dhen the pr0blem came . t0 bring all th0se stuffs d0wn t0 level 5 .

went d0wn a few steps , dhen dad came t0 the rescue ! he he he . dad helped t0 set up the place .

aft all th0se , 0nly dhen Q's dad reached . he went t0 park his van ler .

s0 thenn . he started the fire , while me & Q were busy eating asam . he he he .

aft s0me time , t0k busu went h0me dhen kak lina plak smpai . rias was super malu sey .

he wanted satays , but he malu2 wanna take fr0m me . heh ! cute siaa .

s0 aft the first batch 0f satays were d0ne , we gave it t0 him . happy si0t member .

funny thing abt me & q was whadd n0e . everytime kiter nak hantar satays in , we to0k 2 each .

when nak kuar , an0ther 2 . hehe . ard 11+ , 12 .. eeza reached . ate , dhen ard 1+ , Q left .

she needed t0 g0 0ut with fam , s0 yea . met syai , dhen went up t0 h0mie .

lepak2 like 3 idi0ts , and sl0wly , peeps left . c0usins , aunts , BIATCH , & more biatch .

all left , dhen came ain & her family . siket peih lambat sey dier . hmm , as so0n as she reached , SYAI LEFT .

heh . ard 4 , decided t0 make my way t0 2nd h0mie . rumah kec0h sey ! ie suke(:

her aunts were kara0ke-ing . which is super co0l qae . mummy was teasing me c0x ie c0uldnt remember if i g0t salam 0ne 0f the aunts . she said ie like 0LD peeps gitu .

hha . s0 yea . chill2 , ate s0mem0re , dhen went t0 sm0ke with kechik .

went back up , and ie was bullied by kechik . she literally hempap-ed 0n me and made me a saden .

=.=" first pat sbelah ker0si . mananged t0 push her away and stand up .

igt kan dah game 0ver , skali she hempap me again . kiwak ! sampai terlanggar abg faizul & s0me0ne .

o0ps . sh0wie eh k0rang ! s0 dhen , they had c0usins meeting till , umm .. 9 ?

it started ard 8+ and ended ard 9 . lambat kannn ! ie n0e .. heh .

in the middle 0f the meeting , me & kechik went t0 smoke again .

and she t0ld me abt abg faizul . c0x he asked her abt me . and she went ,

" tu budak dah la playb0i . dhen ask me abt eu s0memore . ak0 nieh dah cuk0p kenal la prangai dier "

aing . member binget nampak ? hha . came h0me ard 9.30 , and realised tt shadiq was in thr .

was super sh0cked sey .

tuesday , went t0 buy bo0ks with Q . aft buying em , went t0 eat . aft eating ,

went t0 buy satu k0takk dhen tr0s pr0ceed pi rumah eeza .

fidi was the 0ne wh0 jemp0t us in . cute rightttt ! ie tawuq . hha .

she asked me , " nieh bibik ape ? 0h ! bibik MUSH .. bibik mush ! "

hha . n0t Mus , but Mush . heh ! still , igt plak name ak0 eh . :D

was watching tv , crite " d0ngeng p0niki0 " , when fidi cried .

c0x qilah dint wanna 0pen the do0r and let her 0ut .

she cried and came t0 me with tgn terbukak like nak hug me which she did la ..

she said , " bibik yah nanak buka pintu ... HURHURHUR " tersedu2 sey member ..

cute laaa ! s0 yea . g0t 0ne part , qilah disturbed fidi , and fidi alm0st cried .

she came t0 me and said , " bibik .. p0k bibik yah ! p0k bibik !! "

heh ! ad0rable la ! an0ther funny time was when she wanted my cincin ,

and ie t0ld her t0 say PLS first . & she said "PLISHHH . bibik MUSH "

dhen when ie gave her the cincin , t0ld her t0 say thanky0u .

& she said " thanky0u bibik mush ! " dgn tgn2 dier skali dier cakap .

funny thing is , when she's saying my name , her face expressi0n is s0 utterly funny sey .

hha !when ie wanted t0 g0 h0me , fidi said , " nak ik0t , bibik ! "

Q , eeza , & fidi s0rta teman-ed me d0wn . while eeza & q went t0 buy waffle ,

ie b0ught fidi ch0c0lies . fidi said , " bibik ! kakak nakk bayar "

gave her the m0ney & she paid f0r it . b4 gg 0ff , she salam-ed me ,

hugged me , & kissed me . sweet right ! ie n0e (:

he he he .

wednesday , went t0 zu's hse . watched em silat . while dhey silat , fidi was asleep .

when she was awake , she was clinging t0 amira . & when ie came , she angkat her tgn ,

sh0wing tt she wants me t0 carry her . s0 ie did , br0ught her 0ut , and ie asked ,

" kakak tknk tur0n ke ? " & she said " taknakk " . hha . cute la fidi !

0h ie 4gt , at zu's hse , we watched this wannabe vide0 . kimek ! kekek si0t !

ak0 nan Q dah mengilai sey . hha . s0 yea , ard 620 , sent Q h0me .

reached a few minutes b4 maghrib . hmm , stayed f0r dinner & dhen went h0me .

reached ard 9.10 ? phew ! luckily daddie dint get angry . due t0 the fact tt ie went 0ut wtht permissi0n ,

and yet came h0me late . he he he ! dah tawuqq blek lambat siket eh . hha . rabak kepe .

s0 yea . had did lil "ARGUEMENT" in which ie find it dumb . n0t 0nly me laa .

twinnie to0 . and tt s0me0ne t0t tt we were gnna fight 0ver this . but o0ps . sh0wie la eh .

ie aint gnna fight with twinnie 0ver lil things . ie mean , its just n0t w0rth it qae .

twinnie p0n satu , ape daaa . ader ker pat0t eu think ie gnna get angry with eu ?

hha . ape daa !

anyho0s , sunday is kak nan's wedding . maeb im gg la . maeb je , but i'm making sure tt ie g0 .

he he . next fri , gg 0ut with IBU ehh ? hha . ibu kepe . ma0t la sey kiter .

0h yaa . dah mcm family eh , Q ? hha (:

gnna end here . peace 0wt :D