DONT READ . ITS EMOTIONAL . heh .
unless you really bother and care abt my stupid feelings uhh .


went out with Eza today(: went to cwp and then to marsiling t0 survey hp[s] . haish ! i want my prism hp back . seriously . i miss it so muchh ! i'd do anyth to get it back . searched fr it almost everywhere . sadly , my designers' phone is nowhere to be found .

dear siaokid , i really wished that you had returned my hp . no matter how bad the condition is , i would have still appreciated it . sadly , you claimed that you have sold it . if you really did can you please please please tell me to whom and where you had done so cause some sources of mine told me that you were actually using my hp .. do you know how hurtful it is when i got to know abt that ? oh ya . you dont . what do you care right ? and please , stop pretending like you still care&love me as your lil cousin who you really loveeee cause if you did , you would have freakingly not done it . you would have stopped your actions . ohh , and y'know what ? everytime i'm ard you , i feel like bringing this matter up but thank God i'm not an egoist like you . i'm someone who have a heart&understands that others have feelings too . i believe you're a wise person .. only until then . you tore my heart into pieces , and made me feel really disappointed . i trusted you siaa !! ARGH . i'm seriously pissed . come to think of it , i trusted you too much . i had my hopes too high . i was too gullible for you that i became one of your preys . eventho i knew your friends&they told me lots and lots of heartwrecking but expected stories abt you , i still trusted you . cant you see how much i love you to the freaking core ?! cant you ?! i really feel like strangling you to death . [ okay maybe not to death , but till i'm satisfied ] heh . but yea , i feel really dumb . kay , prolly its no use grieving&regretting right now . prolly its even too late to realise it now . haish . i can easily lead you to your paradise, whr you are meant to be which is the lockup but i dint . Abah said that no matter what happened , you'll always and forever will be my cousin . air dicincang tiada putus . did you know i almost cried when i told my dad abt this incident the other time ? did you ? i believe you dint . hati aku sebak la sia ! i was atrociously down . only q & eza knew how sad i was . it was during ramadhan , and i was fasting . you made me wait and if i had followed my heart , i dint wanna eat / buke . but thanks to my dear friends , i laid aside my feelings . haish . alrite , lets not elaborate any further . it'll just bring my smile upside down .
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had a talk with twinnie ytd . uhh , she cleared some things out abt what has been happening with her&that she's actually not herself so much ard me due to some reasons . ahh ! twinnie , imissyouu so much . i miss having fun with you , i miss those times when we skipped sch&chilled tgt . i miss those times when we ignored what peeps would say&did whatever we wanted and even ate as and when we wanted to even when it was during ramadhan . well , that was the past . right now , we barely have time fr each other . we're actually drifting apart . but i'm glad to say that we are still in contact & today really made me happy . at least we were able to spend some time tgt wtht worrying abt anyth . i'm glad that we were normal(: haha ! FATED EYH FATED EYH ! HAHA .
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kay from here on , its normal(:

so yea . helped mama sort things out at home today and ytd . i'm seriously annoyed by my maid . i feel like punching her face know ! but at times , i kinda pity watching her try . haish . i hate two face mother 'F' . hahhhh . kay my life is really complicated . sucks big time , i know . so anyway , my house is in a mess right now . haha . maklumlah , hari raya akan menjelma tidak lama lagi . mesti mau spring clean ! heh . i want to get malam lailatul qadar , pls . [ i hope i spelled it right ] heh . and i wana go mekah ! seriously , this aint a joke . [aku mau taubat laaaaa,abeh?]

i've wasted 5 days of not studying . i seriously needa start mugging ! oh wth . i'm really a suckish person . haiyoooooo .

so anyways , i webcam-ed with elnino ! ahah . funny guy . i miss you oie ! it has been like , 2 days since we've had a long convo . haha . yes , i miss you . see ! i admit okay . unlike you . haha . step cooooool jerrr . hahaha .

kay dah . my watch has just strike 3am . my stomach's grumbling&my eyes are tired but my mind currently nga berkecamok . hahhh . i'm not sure if i can actually sleep . oh have i mention this to anyone yet ? i've been having problems sleeping . i need sleeping pills ! kay thats not good , i know . but yeaa . better than nth i suppose .

alritee , i'm gna stop posting and start trying to sleep . nights yo ! (: