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sixteen and i mature every 1310. bubbly and cheerful in the outside, broken and shattered in the inside. i have the greatest ooofve girlfriends, a lovely soul sister&darling, and a wonderful daddie whose been there with me thru the ups and downs. |
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Friday, June 01, 20075:34 AM
aites. havent been updating fer superrrr longg! hehks! k. firstly, CAN I SAY LIFE IS SO UNFAIR? but, this would mean i'm questioning Him. haiish. its sinful! arghhh. but its true lohr. things were gg on just fine, until then. that particular moment, i was like, WTH? i'm like asking myself, WHY? telling myself, NO. ITS NT HAPPENING. i'm like HOPING tat its NOT TRUE. but. haiish. it is true. but, why?!!!! arggh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okae.. i just have to relax. well, i kinda did try!? TODAY. dint go fer track. was like tooo pissed with ytd's news. thinking doing this will relax my mind. cox i'm nt really allowed to go out. so dix is like, the only time? argh! SO THOSE FROM TRACK, OKIE. U MIGHT BE ANGRY? SO HELL YEAH. I DUN CARE WAD U THINK. U MIGHT THINK I'M DOING THIS FER FUN. WELL I DINT. so okae. i met up wit my fren today. train a while at woodlands stadium. then headed to MC to eat. hungry okae! so then, things gt seriously SCREWED. more bad news came, shooting into my heart. i was like fucking shocked. i then wanted to reply, and poof. batt died. dint charge ytd. gahhhhh. so yeah. met up wit my other frens. and lepak-ed. things just had to cool down. i tried. i did. i smiled. i laughed. but when silence came, i looked far, and i was thinking of wad might, and might not happen. i was pulling baq my tears. ahhhhhhhh. so okae. a fren promised to send me home at 3.30, but he broke it. playing soccer, not noticing the time. salam-ed one of my abgs? smth like dat lahr. so den headed to cwp 1st. den, met cicik. salam-ed him. and went home. rauf called home. things gt really terrible. but hey. dad was okae. haiish. read mr rudy's blog. found out they did 4x100m. i dint came. so i dint run. does dix mean i'm out? how i wish it isnt. hahhhhh. i'm praying fer tooo many things. can all of it possibly come true? my 1st IMPORTANT WISH IS. GOD, LET MY FREN BE CURED. =( can i cry? argh! suckish men.! fine. now i just can see frens from my team maki-ing me. scolding me, and stuffs. well. PLS LEAVE ME ALONE. irni sent me a web. its nice, really. here it is, i mean the web. http://www.netpoets.com/poems/life/1573001.htm so now, wad i've gotta do is Hope,Pray, and HOPEFULLY Win God, pls save a life. pls pls pls. posting makes me wanna cry. ahhh! |