ytd was just wonderful.. i met my dear syg..BUT. i also found out tat IRNI hates me.. i was like having mixed feelings sia.. nk nangis? uat aper.. step je mcm sape2 kisah.. saper lah aku kan? AKU NIE DAH LAH KAWAN YG TK BERGUNE. nk marahh.? utk aper.. she's not in the wrong luhhh. no1 is.. well, maeb me.. heE. gosh, i so hate myself. i really do.. haiish.. it all started, in the gym.. she wrote "she wanna pretend to be bitch-gothic-. eww. i'm so disgusted. i so dun like d new her. by shayynie. =) " i was like pissed sia. and hurt also. but i keep quiet. like wtf ryt? wads the smiley face doing der..? so ur happy dat u hate me? hahh. so i was like drawing the word -bitch- big2. and sherry asked me who.. and i answered, "can i say me?" and she said no.. so like wad i said to her is wad i wrote lahh.. went out and when i came in, there was the word "sure" . it was beginning to pissed me more.. not only pissed! hurt too. like hell yeah i'm hurt. presumed it was irni. but no. it was AZMIRA. like wtf? gal, go and die lahh! i dun ev giv a damn abt u luhh. fcuk sia. so, like any1 who talked to me, i answered like i dint wanna answer. ev shamini seyy! like, okae. u hate me? so why talk to me? i'm wasting ur time wad.. wont wanna fit myself in ur life if u dun even want me to be in it.. sheeshx! seriously saying ehh.. i wanna chg sch! start anew! like wad fana did. i salute u luh babe!~ but hey. ev if i chg sch, like as if any1 is gonna feel the diff. unlike fana, i can see peeps like her.. heE. so like yeahh. today i went to sms irni. i said, "can i say i'm sorry?" and she dint replied. like, okae.. and i sms-ed her again, saying i'm really sorry. she said " i dun understand why sum peeps say sorry4 no reason." like FCUK sia! am i suppose to take such insults?? i was seriously hurt. den i replied "i just feel tat ive made u angry.." and guess wad she replied.. she said, "i'm not angry. in fact, WE r juz DISAPOINTED in u. tats all." ok, like nb luhh. whose the we.? HEY. IF U DUN WANT ME IN UR LIFE, JUST SAY IT! I WONT TRY TO FIT MYSELF IN UR LIFE. =( well, ok. she wants me to chg. like how? i dun ev noe wads diff abt me.. i go ard, asking whether ive chged. and no1 said yes. only them! arghhhh! kk. den i replied saying i want things to be as 4 normal.. hahh. and she said.. "maeb. cox aft u read my blog, u might feel diff." gosh, i feel not much of diff. ONLY EVEN MORE HURT LUH. but, okae. u have ev right to be angry at me. ok fine.. at the end of ur post, u wrote "I MISS HER" okae.. dat made me cry.. ok lah.. like as if u wanna noe ryt..? okae.. seriously, i cant 4gt u..